Hi all. My name is nik, i'm 19 and live
in new zealand.
Right now i'm crying because I am
frightened. I can't remember the last
time I cried. I'm quite a tough guy. I
was getting ready to join the sas in
january, but due to recent medical
complications I can't go anymore. But
just to give you an idea of my spirits and
strength, mental and physical.
The reason i'm posting is not about the
sas. It's not because i'm crying. It's
the reason i'm crying.
I play a lot of paintball, for those who
don't know what that is, paintball is
quite a physical and tough sport, where
two teams take each other on and try to
defeat the other team. You are armed with
paintball markers (guns) which shoot small
paintballs at a high velocity. It isn't
considered a very dangerous sport, but it
is painful when you get shot.
7 months ago I was playing this game with
a few friends and I was shot from quite
close range just above the temple ( it
wasn't in the temple though) and I got
quite bad concussion from it. I wasn't
knocked out and I didn't loose
consciousness, but immediatly I felt dizzy
and sick. I carried on playing and all
was good.
One week later I started having problems.
My symptoms were (and still are) as
follows..
*dizzyness, *headaches, *blurry vision,
confusion, *depression & anxiety,
*sensitivity to light, trouble remembering
things that happened recently, strange
thoughts and functionality, always
thinking about and death, occasionally
tingly arms or legs, ringing in ears,
always tired and theres more which I can't
remember (ironically) (the *'s represent
the symptoms which I hate the most, which
are the worst)
now I have been to many doctors, and they
have all told me the same thing. That I
have post concussion syndrome. For a
while I believed them, but it's now 7
months down the track since the initial
accident and I still have these problems
and they are not going away/getting
better. It is the most agrovatting,
annoying most upsetting thing I have ever
experienced, and it just wont go away.
Concussion doesn't last 7 months to my
knowlesge (but im going to have a head
scan soon anyway) and i'm begining to
think it is something else causing these
problems.
Can anyone help me out here? I'm in
desperate need. I'm sick and tired of
feeling like this and I want to be back to
normal me. I'm now getting very depressed
and I can't stop thinking about it and it
just wont go away. Please help.
Ps: also, I smoke, would that cause or
aggrovate any of these problems?
Thanks,
nik.
