Hi I discovered this forum when I was
actually trying to find the lethal dose of
a medication so I could commit suicide.
Ironic, huh?
Anyway, I was diagnosed with major
depressive disorder and anxiety back in
january of this year. I was out of work
for 3 months, because I was so sick I
could not leave the house.
I am back to work (major problems with
that, b/c I hate my job, but can't find a
better one.)
i guess my question is this. I have
never considered myself the kind of person
to be "depressed" I have always been
happy with things, even the little things
in life.
I take budepropin sr (wellbutrin, but
generic) and clonazepam. I feel like my
entire life has gone to $h**. Please
pardon the semi-cursing. Obviously I
need different drugs. I am 28 years old,
been with my husband for 10 years, married
for 3. I have absolutely no sex drive,
none whatsoever. If we are intimate once
a month, it is amazing.
I know that I am making my husband
miserable, he does his best to help me,
but I act selfishly and don't often see
what I am doing to him. My father
doesn't believe that I am sick, and thinks
my doctor is a quak.
Is anyone else going through the same
thing, but not really believing it? I am
so tired of being, feeling, acting this
way. I have tried switching medications
3 times. I see a therapist 2 times a
month. My psychologist once a month....
Yet I am suicidal. This really sucks.
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uk_ladybird
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2005 Posts: 17 Location: Maryland, USA
Me Either Posted: 11-28-05 13:49pm
Hi there,
i stumbled on the site too actually
reading about my meds I am newly taking
been diagnosed with depression too and no
would you think I was one of those sad ,
un-happy with everything type of person
complete opposite in fact! But here I
am.......I am married also...Have quite a
few problems in that area also but trying
to work it out as we have 2 kids and my
situation isnt as easy as leave (my kids
are us citizens) I am from
england.......
I have been very emotional for a long long
time........But I never wanted to admit I
had a problem.......I dont see myself as
crazy and thats the label you get in life
but were just troubled souls I guess that
need help!!!!
Let me tell you this...Harming yourself is
not the answer already been there took an
over-dose back in 2000 and nope never was
given meds or anything had to see a shrink
who made me worse but anyways then I had
2 great kids (after trying to get pregnant
with no luck) I just have started being a
person I dont want to be.My husband goes
on the computer every night and I get so
angry!!! Really angry I think I gave up
my family to be here with him for what
half the time???
But I am here and gotta try and get
through this.The meds might help though
reading too much is making me feel badly
!!! God you cant win I feel :(
anyways I am going to a support group I
found tonight sit in a circle I dont want
to go...........But my dr thinks tonight
it might help.......I hate that my husband
doesnt feel compelled to go to any therapy
its all me in my head ........It is hard
somedays........But I gotta take care of
myself I cant expect anyone to make me
happy I have to love myself and want to be
happy.....Something I havnt done in a long
time I put myself last .......Thought that
whats mums are supposed to do but I am
finding out its not healthy at
all...........
Gosh I truly am sorry to go on and
on............
I hope your doing ok? I will check in
soon!
Take care and know your not alone
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turtlegirl
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Nov 2005 Posts: 4
Posted: 12-01-05 19:05pm
Well, I am doing better. I called my
psychiatrist and told her how I was
feeling. She called me in a prescription
for lexepro. I took 5mg for two days, it
made my stomach a little sick. On monday
I bumped myself up to the whole 10mg. My
body is still getting used to it,
sometimes my hands are shaky, or my head
feels weird.
But my husband said that I am already
acting differently, and I feel better (a
little bit :))
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uk_ladybird
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2005 Posts: 17 Location: Maryland, USA
Me Again :) Posted: 12-01-05 23:11pm
Hi there!
Just realized we are talking to each other
on two boeards left you a message at mine
getting used to this label that one :)
glad yor doing ok.My tummy was really
chrnnig for about three days I started
last tueday....So been on it over a week
then this tuesday I took 10mgs and today I
had shaky hands a little too....But so far
not too bad..All what I read about weight
gain freaks me out a bit as I lost 20ibs
the last few months as I guess I am pretty
busy runnnig around I cant diet hate
too..........But I dont want to gain
weight as I heard from reading other stuff
(you know stuff you shouldnt read but you
do)
i think maybe when your depressed some
people eat and then you put on wieght from
that not from your meds? I dunno some
people will say its definately the meds
guess we are all different thuogh I would
gain a bit as long as I was happy.Yeah
like a pound hahaha
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