the World Is a Cold, Cold Place Posted: 12-14-03 18:14pm
Life used to be idyllic and free from pain
and worry when I was a child; 20 years
into my life, I feel that i'm trapped in a
maze of misery. There's not a single
thing about myself i'm satisfied with.
Not my appearance, not my personality, not
my skills (don't think I have any).
Nothing. I have no friends, i'm confused
with my sexuality, and there's no point in
staying here any longer. I do have my
family, though. We are, however, not
close, and we've never ever been. We
don't discuss emotions and such.
If it wasn't for my family, i'd travel to
a remote location and end this misery.
Nobody would miss me; nobody would search
for me. Perfect! Matters aren't
unfortunately like the aforementioned
"dream" of mine. I work hard to stay
strong. I don't wish to leave anybody
behind in pain or in shame of my ruthless
actions. It's going to be tought and
striveful, just like life is. I'll stay
alive, but for what personal reason? I
have no ambitions and no goals. I do have
a job, which I happen to dislike quite
badly..
There isn't a solution to my deep issues.
Nobody can "talk" me out of this maze.
Nevertheless, I know there is a way out.
If I could just get a new face, a new
body, i'd find my way out of
dispondency...
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qt3
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Nov 2003 Posts: 264
Posted: 12-17-03 02:43am
Look and see if your local university has
a cbt program as these are often free of
charge there. Short of that you could
pick up a copy of my favorite book on cbt
and overcoming anxiety and depression and
if you guys dedicate yourself to the tools
together it will change your life. It
called been there done that? Do this! By
sam obitz www.Tao3.Com
it's all about using the tools to learn to
think more clearly and accurately about
things and once you do your depression
will miraculously begin to lift before
your eyes. I think you are being a little
too hard on yourself!Good luck! :d
q
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bootsie840
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2003 Posts: 113 Location: pennsylvainaia
Posted: 12-17-03 08:32am
I too agree you are definately being to
hard on your self, life is what you make
of it, there are alot of things you can do
to meet people, join local organizations,
group clubs, im sure youll be able to make
friends, I know at times life seems hard,
and you may think no one cares, but they
do., instead of sitting around all day
feeling bummed out, depressed, make some
changes in your life, make the most of
what you have you have to atleast try
make a few changes, set a goal, ending
ones life is never the solution,
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