I Would Really Appreciate Someones Help...

Don't call yourself stupid. It isn't your fault. Everyone has their imperfections eatinmg disorders just happen to be ours. I think that you do need to see a phyciatrist though. I think in a way that is being anerexic. Binging than exercising all the calories off that you just ate. It is kinda like bulimia but instead of purging you exercise the weight off. I think you could havemessed you stomach up though a little bit. My stomach gets like that after I have like ate normal for a couple days then I start purging it. Are you under or above weight? That could also play a part of it. I am definatley no doctor though. Just please don't tell yourself you are stupid or dumb or anything don't break yourself down cause you have an ed I know this though it can make things worse. Also you sound pretty smart for realizing you have a problem. I hope you get the help you need before you do have sever problems. I am here to talk if you ever need to.

Sounds like you definitely have an eating disorder that was brought on years ago by stress or low self-esteem. I too would binge & binge but not to the point where I made myself sick, just to the point where I was full and then as a result, I started gaining weight b/c of it. I never exercised or vomited up my food. I just overate!!! It was soooooo miserable! I finally got over it though, and sometimes thoughts about food still overwhelm me, but I try to occupy my mind with other things. Sounds like you may have, in fact, messed your body up a little bit with all your binging & exercising!
Good luck to you!

Oh, also, I believe my eating disorder was brought on by both stress and low self-esteem. See, i'm no dr, but I do know that when a person eats (especially food they really like) your brain releases "feel-good" hormones, and there in turn, you are gonna wanna eat again & again b/c every time you eat, your brain is releasing those hormones that make you feel good---but only temporarily...When I finally realized I had a problem, I had to first admit my problem (to myself) and then go from there. Trust me though, hon, it is baby steps all the way. You won't heal overnight. It'll take time. But just take it one day at a time...You will get through this if you really want to! But a person has got to want to get over a problem before you'll actually benefit yourself!
I wish you all the best, cuz living the life you're living is a miserable hell!

Thank you so much for your kind words and advice guys. I am actually underweight I think. I'm 5'8 and weight 8 stone which I think is around 112/3 pounds. I'm going to try my hardest not to binge again but what you said about food making you feel happy. That's exactly how I feel but then I feel ill after eating so much. I am now remembering all sorts of things like when I was younger and we would go round to someones house for dinner, I would wait til everyone had left the room, offer to clear the plates and eat everyones leftovers. Also, when we'd go to a restaurant even if I had ate a full meal I would get home and eat as much as I possibly could. It was like I was never full or at least thought I wasnt full. This is really weird for me because I always just thought I liked food too much but didnt realise a description of bullimia is eating excessively then using exercise to control the weight. People around me are worried as I have lost around a stone and a half in the last 5 months or so but that is mainly due to the exercise and the binges becoming less frequent. After exercising I realise how hard it is to burn off everything i've ate and therefore for a week or so will not eat too much. Another thing though is because I exercise now my metabolism seems to be very high and even when I do binge i'll tend to go back to my original weight in a day. This doesn't help though because I think 'oh I can get away with it' and in weight terms I can but my body is a mess. I have hypergloecaemia which I think was as a result of all the sugar i've ate in my lifetime. I shall go to the doctors but I really dont see what he can do. Only I can stop myself doing this and im sure thats all my doctor will say.

Once again thanks so much you guys for acknowledging my comment.

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Sure, no doubt you like food, but you like it b/c of the way it makes you feel when you eat it... There is something else deep down inside that is making you reach for food to feel good. Do you have low self esteem? Like do you think badly of yourself & contantly put yourself down even though there is nothing wrong with you? Or, are you stressed out about something? School? Friends? A boyfriend? Parents? You seriously need to find what the underlying cause of your bingeing is...It is obviously not just cuz you wanna be thin, you have deeper issues than that...So what is it??? You need to dig deep into your heart & soul & find out girl!
I'll be waiting 4 a reply!

I just tried to tell my mum I think I may have a problem and she just said 'you're fine stop being a drama queen'. She said this despite knowing I don't eat much and have crazy binge sessions and even though I am walking for 3 hours tomorrow morning. There's plenty of reasons I eat. Probably because I feel comfort in food and find very little comfort in people around me. I'm just going to have to try to control it aren't i.

Well, you could try to control it yourself, or you could see a dr about it. How old are you? You are a little bit underweight for your height... Most of the time though, when people try to control it theirself, they don't succeed. It usually takes medication or seeing a psychiatrist or something. I wish you the best of luck though cuz that is a miserable life. I just can't believe your mom doesn't see this!?!?!?!!

I'm 23 years old and have been binging since I was about 11, well thats how far back I remember anyway-like I said when my parents divorced. My last binge was wednesday night and I had to fight really hard last night not to binge because I ate a little more than normal. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and dont really know what to tell them.
Yesterday I felt guilty for ot going to bed hungry. I went out and ate a bakewell tart and wasnt going to eat anything when I got home but was starving so ate something but then felt bad.
Yesterday I ate

scrambled egg sandwich 400 cals
3 small party ring biscuits 90 cals
smoky bacon crisps 130 cals
1/2 large chocolate cookie 250 cals
bakewell tart 250 cals
2 sausages, 4 potatoes, gravy 700 cals = 1820 cals

argh im even boring myself

Man I hate myself I binged on sunday and when I say I binged, I really mean it. I consumed around 5000 calories. I had to take monday off work to do a 5.5 mile walk and to go to a spinning class which burnt a little of it but its still on me a little now-i can feel it and I hate it. I've just had 2 pear drop sweets but I only had an apple and some strawberries for breakfast so that's ok. I'm only having 2 slices of toast for lunch too. I have to confess i've never taken a day off work to exercise before-i mean I have taken a day off from feeling ill from a binge but not to exercise it off. I took laxatives too two days running extra strength to rid me of the food. Man I hate myself.