Im sorry here to here what your saying, but im not going to be harsh or anything, but please if you do this it will haunt you for the rest of your life please consider giving up to someone that cant have children, that would be the most greatest gift to let life live and to give your baby to someone else, god may forgive you for what youve done, be haunting will be there, and I would think that it wold be another sibling to your other children. Even though she or he will not be with you. But please you can give it upi for a adoption. Please consider, there is woman who would love a child. And live happy life, but then again I would consider getting permamntly fixed to were you cant have anymore children. God bless you, and have a merry christmas, :wink: :d