Hi everyone. I am 21 weeks pregnant with
my second child and I don't think that I
care. I was so happy when I had my first
baby. I was on top of the world. I did
everything right, took my vitamins, quit
drinking caffiene, tons of water, fruits,
veggies... Everything.
Well, my husband and I divorced recently
and I got pregnant by a different guy.
When we found out I was pregnant, we
rushed out and got married. Well, we
lived together for like a week before he
was back at his house and we have already
filed for a divorce. And, me and my ex
are seeing each other again.
I am afraid that since I do not love this
babys father, I will not care about him
the way I care about my first son. I
know it is wrong and I know that I sound
like a cold, evil woman, but no matter
what I do, I just can't seem to accept
this baby. I haven't been eating right
or taking my vitamins. I hate to admit
it, but I have even thought about
abortion. I decided I can't do that, but
I feel so weird with myself. I don't
want his dad in our lives. I would much
rather him sign his rights over to me.
But, I don't think that will ever happen.
I am afraid that I am thinking of this
baby as a mistake rather than a gift. Is
this setting me up for severe postpartum
depression too??
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tigresacanela24
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Nov 2005 Posts: 5261 Location: Treat your children well, eventually they'll choose your nursing home.
Posted: 02-09-06 13:50pm
Wow, that's deep. I honestly don't know,
I think that i've read somewhere that if
you have had depression in the past then
you are at a greater risk for postpartum
depression. Have you talked to your
husband about the way you feel about this
baby? What does he say? Do you still
feel like the baby is a mistake now?
