Help From Me to U,

Hi, i'm new to this form, so forgive the whole randomness... I was going to put some things down that have helped/not help me through depression, self harm and self manipulation.
All I ask in return is for people to write there veiws and self helps in to.

I've been a self harmer for six years, I started when I was at school, in year 7 and am now in a full time job, and even tho life seems to go up and down, i've had quite a few downs which have led to falling lower.

I've move round england and have got bullied continually everywhere i've ever been, i've been abused by members of my own familyand it all started off using my nails to scratch my skin, then scisors, blades, knives and drugs to forget it all.

Three years ago I was put on anti depressants but I found that the pain stayed with me they just took all the visual signs away, I went to a shrink twice a week and was monitored in hospital for new cuts and drugs on/in me(drugs like weed, and overdosing on asprin etc).. All I thought of that was that they treated me like a child or like I had a contagous condition...

I've not seen anyone or had any anti-d's in two months, three main things I find that help me are:-

1)writing everything think of whilst ur crying, onto paper then trying to creat something of it.

2) sitting in a pitch black room, with a candle in front of me and just think of all the things positive i've done today/this week/ so far.

3) to walk somewhere that u can just sit and think about whats on ur mind..(not silent cause it's dangerous.... I've had some bad experinces in quite places)


hope this helps..... Sorry for the lengh of it.... !!

Love and thoughts,
insayne
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