Am I Going to Have to Stop Working? Posted: 01-03-06 12:06pm
I am a nurse believe it or not at a
hospital. I deal with illness and death
on a regular basis. It was a lady's
death that began this ordeal with anxiety
and a few heart attack patients that just
topped it all off. That is where this
severe gad with panic attacks began.
I find it hard to go to work, I turn down
shifts even though I know I need to go and
I want to work I am just scared. I
haven't met with my psychiatrist yet and I
am wondering if he is going to tell me to
take time off work, since that is what I
think and feel has triggered this
disabling disturbance in my life.
I am scared that I am going to be like
this forever, I hate having to turn to
ativan to calm me down so I can do the
normal things in life. I can understand
getting nervous about speaking in front of
a large group of people but getting
nervous to go grocery shopping or to a
family gathering.. It just doesn't add up
to me.
My family is getting frustrated and I am
afraid that this is going to ruin my
relationship with my husband. We have
been married for 2 years and everyone
knows that the first few years are hard
enough but add this onto all the other
stresses.
I have been always conscious of what other
people think of me, and now I wonder what
they must be thinking. "is she crazy or
what?"
i am just greatful that this forum is here
for me to write down my thoughts and read
what others are going through. To just
know that I am not alone.
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pinksalter
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2005 Posts: 124
Posted: 01-03-06 14:23pm
Hi,
can I just say that you are a strong
person to do the kind of job you do, I
know I couldn`t do it and its totally
understandable what you are experiencing.
It`s really traumatic things you are
seeing, it`s bound to take its toll at
some point. I don`t belive that you will
simply get used to seeing those type of
traumatic things after all we are all
human and you can`t help thinking what
your own fate may be.
I think your psychiatrist will help you
through all your feelings, he might tell
you to not stop working but go to work and
show you how you can cope with the anxiety
when you are there. Probably the worst
thing that you can do is start avoiding
situations as you will never go back to
them as you will have built up a fear of
it.
As for your relationship I know all to
well what that is like, my boyfriend was
the most terrible support through all my
anxiety and he still is. Hes impatient
and doesn`t have a clue what it feels
like. I don`t even expect them to
understand it just be of support and not
to question why I feel that way. We are
still together but things have definately
changed. I don`t feel the same about him
any more and I feel that he only wants to
know me when i`m well. Of course your
married and it`s not so easy to walk away
but I think he should be going with you to
see your psychiatrist just to open his
eyes to what you are feeling.
If you need any other help please let me
know, I am no way cured but have tried
most things to try and help myself.
Good luck
debs
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Justy24
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Dec 2005 Posts: 59 Location: Canada
Thanks For the Advice. Posted: 01-03-06 14:33pm
I am not a quitter, I will keep going to
work. I enjoy my job, my day is
fullfilled if I go home knowing that I
made someone's day just a little easier
and or brighter. I know I am a good
nurse, so I have been told.
But in times of crisis like a heart
attack, I get frightened and want to go
hide in a hole.
But in time hopefully all will be well
again.
Thank you for your reply.
God bless
justy24
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Justy24
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Dec 2005 Posts: 59 Location: Canada
Post Traumatic Stress Posted: 01-03-06 20:15pm
I never considered that a posibility. I
will definitely check out the website you
referred to. Thank you for the
advice/reply. It is appreciated. Every
little bit helps.
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