Not Sure Where to Place Myself Posted: 01-18-06 05:25am
Hi everyone who reads this stuff..
I know pretty much for a fact that im
depressed, im always hiding in my room. I
enjoy bieng alone and writing music and
words. I like to go out with friends and
my girl but mostly just alone.
What I wonder is, when I think everybody
is against me sometimes...Like my friends
dont like me, or people in general dont
like me because im different. What is
that? Im always reading into peoples
expressions and subtle things like
sarcasm. These are fairly constant.. I
think that when people give me a
compliment that they mean the opposite.
I dont trust people and I just think
everyones against me..I dont think people
tell me the truth.
Im usualy always honest because I just
dont need to bother lying, and I always
think that everybody thinks im lying,
because im so honest and they dont believe
somebody would be honest like that. .When
im with my girlfriend I feel so relaxed
like im just fine. I trust her to tell me
the truth and be honest. I almost cant be
around dishonest people because I will
have a break down. I think some friends
talk behind my back to everyone trying to
get everyone to hate me. Like people
collect against me. And team up.
I woprry about food ..A two day old
sandwich ,i have to ask if its okay like 5
times before ill eat it because im just
scared of getting sick. Two days is
usualy the magic number.
Thank you for reading all of that if you
did. Are these symptoms of anything?
Like anxiety or something? Im not sure
but I might have add or somehting too. My
mom never took me to any doctors because
she didnt want to look like a bad mother I
guess. But iv never been diagnosed with
anything like an illness. Maybe someone
would suggest me to go see somebody, but
maybe im just stressing? Thanks again
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popprincess
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Joined: 13 Nov 2005 Posts: 46
Posted: 01-18-06 10:27am
Obviously I am not a doctor so I can't
diagnose you, but I feel the same kind of
things, I only feel really comfortable
around my fiance, my family (only parents
and brother) or when I am on my own. I
feel constantly paranoid around work
colleagues and there sarcasm does get to
me, I constantly question things in my
head and I worry about everything, its
like every week I have a different problem
or illness to worry about, I never seem to
have a free mind!
I definitely suffer from anxiety, have you
ever had the physical symptoms of anxiety
like panic attacks or anything?
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pleonastic
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jan 2006 Posts: 14
Posted: 01-18-06 16:29pm
Yes for me its the same, immediate family
is usualy fine, people im used to. Aunts
and uncles..I feel like they dont like me.
Just last christmas I remember distinctly
feeling like I wasnt part of my family.
Like they had disowned me because I dont
see them enough or somehting...I fealt
like crap.
As for panic attacks I dont know. I think
I have had a few slight to medium,
feelings like my hearts beating hard and
fast, soi can hear it. But not very
regularly. Sometimes my heart palputates.
(wierd beat) not sure how to spell it.
I saw a comercial on tv about bieng
schizofrenic (cant spell) and among all of
the symptoms was paranoia and the feeling
of everyone bieng against you. So now im
worried about that because I feel that
alot. Except the definition of somebody
with a mental illness is, they dont know
they have it. So what the hell? So
confused and I appologize for any
blabbering!
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popprincess
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Nov 2005 Posts: 46
Posted: 01-19-06 02:50am
The thing with me is I don't really care
if my aunts and uncles like me! I only
see them once a year! I am happy in my
own little world with my fiance, if I
didn't have to go to work, I wouldn't, I
would be quite happy on my own all day
long!
I don't feel confident in my ability to
work as I do everything wrong.
As for the schizophenia thing, they do
always say you wouldn't realise if you did
actually have it. Apparantly if you think
you are going mad, then you aren't!
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pleonastic
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jan 2006 Posts: 14
Posted: 01-19-06 04:31am
So a true mentaly ill person is one that
doesnt seek help on their own because of
not-knowingness. And one that does is
probably okay. Wierd idea. This actualy
makes me feel a tiny bit better.
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popprincess
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Nov 2005 Posts: 46
Posted: 01-19-06 10:27am
It made me feel better also, because I
geuninely thought I was going insane at
times!!
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7462
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Joined: 18 Jan 2006 Posts: 5
Mental Illness Posted: 01-19-06 11:23am
Many people who are mentally ill know it.
Write down the problems that you are
having and what you are feeling and talk
to a doctor. It can be stress or a
learned behavior and insecurities. I have
friends who are schizophenic and they know
that they are. They are really unstable
so I cant compare the symptoms.
Good luck
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