I've been cutting for 2 1/2 years.I feel
do...Dead on the inside now.Nothing really
seems to make me happy anymore.When I was
alot younger I was smiley and stuff now I
just don't really smile and stay quiet.
I mean the pain just hurts so much alot of
days like at school and stuff I feel like
if I say one word even I will break down
and cry.I know what people say about me
and how people look at me but I really
don't care that much anymore.The pain from
it still stings some times but not very
much.90% of the time I cry myself to sleep
or wish I would have died in my sleep when
I wake up in the morning.I just hurt and
so I numb out everything.I just try to
stay numb inside and out at school and
when i'm in public and stuff or atleast
until I get home or in the girls bathroom
so I can go into a stall and cut myself
for relief.I have a really hard time
trusting people thanks to alot of people
in my life...And I just si to get rid of
it all.I just am so mad and upset alot of
the time at people around me, at god,at
myself at everything.I just sometimes feel
like I can't breath and that my world is
crashing down around me.I feel like I
can't take it anymore but I dunno what to
do...What to do with the problem and
myself.
