Its Starting Help Please!!! Posted: 01-27-06 23:00pm
Ok so i'm 16, and i've always been
uncomfortable with my body image, and have
been on/off dieting and excersising
semi-regularly for years. I've never
lost any significant weight except during
my freshman yr, when I went almost
semi-annorexic excercised like crazy,
hardly ate anything, and lost about 10 lb.
However, then summer came along, and I
gained it all back+some, and I haven't
been able to keep anything like that up
since then.I never really did anything
unhealthy, but throwing up my food was
always in the back of my mind. Then,
recently, partly because I think i'm a
little depressed, I did it. Not binging
and purging, but just sticking my finger
down my throat and throwing up w/ e I had
eaten. That week I got really obsessive,
and hardly ate anything, and threw up what
I did. It's not easy for me to make
myself throw up either, I don;t have a
weak stomach. I really have to make
myself retch for a long time. It kinda
hurts my throat too. So after about a
week, I started to really freak myself
out, and was like i'm stopping this, w/e
i'm not fat, I can eat w/e I want. So I
basically went it the oppisate direction
for about a week. The tonight, I got in
a huge fight with my parents, started
feeling really bad, (and fat, that was on
my mind before anyways), and I threw up
again. Unfortunatly, it felt pretty
good. I'm not so sure I have so much
control anymore, and am really worried i'm
becoming belimic, which is a problem I
really don't need, but I don't want to
feel fat anymore either! Please help!!
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brokeninsidex
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Joined: 28 Jan 2006 Posts: 4
Re: Its Starting Help Please!!! Posted: 01-28-06 10:32am
Heyy hun I kinda know how u feel..Like u
took ur anger out on food..And then u had
to puke and u liek the idea of how it made
u feel good!!...And that is a reason why
so many people do this b.C it realeses
endorphins...And that makes u feel
good..It is lke exercising the same
things..But since u have a pst with
food..And diets I think it is always going
to be with u...Even if u stop for a while
it alwyas finds a way to come back to
u..And thats sad..But it is the truth ..I
would just try my hardest not to think
aout it and just eat healthy..U dont want
o get ur self into this it is
horrible!!!..Hope I helped
u??...Ttl..Bye..Kels
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7lily
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Joined: 30 Jan 2006 Posts: 11
Don't Posted: 01-30-06 02:17am
Just don't go any further with this. Love
yourself. I have sooo many health
problems now because of this. I am in
tons of physical pain (not to mention the
emotional). It may make you feel better
now, but you will be paying for it later.
You are not too far into it...Please just
stop now. My little sister is your age.
It would kill me to think that she were
getting started with this. Please know
that you are smarter than that....At least
I hope that you are.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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broken2004
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 31 Jan 2006 Posts: 7
Beautiful Posted: 01-31-06 22:42pm
Please stop hurting youre beautiful body
while you still can. Go to your school
counselor or a close friend, or your
preacher, or his wife. The bottom is a
horrible place to be. The thing about an
eating disorder is that you can never lose
enough weight to be happy. The longer you
weight to start fighting it, the harder it
will be to beat it. Please! I am begging
you... Like I would have begged myself
had I known, stop if there is any way on
earth.
-b24
