I used to be a bulimic who threw up the
occassional meal. I did that for about 4
years. Now i've taken this odd turn and
when I get into a binge-purge cycle I will
purposefully set out tons of food or bake
and then eat it all. Sometimes i'll eat
for an hour - purge --- and continue this
2-3 times! I've been this way for about
5 months now. I am starting counseling
on march 21 which is a big step.
But lately - my body is not allowing me to
purge....No matter how much food I have
eaten.
Why is this? What can I do?
I am miserable, depressed and just sat in
the bathroom and had a mini-breakdown.
I'm so tired of feeling this way and of
fighting this disease!
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w0rldd0minat0r
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2006 Posts: 238
Posted: 03-02-06 18:24pm
You need to talk to your parents or
someone you can trust.
It is a serious problem
you need to sort your life out and seek
help ask an adult to do this for you and
take time out to sort out the way you feel
you can always pick up your life again
after you feel better but for now its what
you may need to do.
Thats what I needed to do when I had
serious depression
take care will think about you
gavin
pm if you want more info on how to get
help
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v00d00cita
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Re: Throwing Up Posted: 03-06-06 08:10am
Hello... I'm new here, and am scared and
sad :(
i read your post and felt identified with
you...
I am 20, turning 21 years old next may. I
never suffered from anorexia, though...
But I suffer from bulimia nervosa.
My worried that lead this illness are body
image and weight related. I'm always
going to check my weight, I don't know
what to do.
And I can eat like a monster, if you'd
imagine... I feel very depressed.
I've been forcing myself not to eat for
full days from about 3 years now. But,
from x-mas on, I can't help eating like a
monster... I knew, before that, that I
could eat, eat, eat, without any kind of
control, but, somehow, I managed not to -
that's why I try not to eat at all.
Since I feel so fat - thought I went to
the doctor last month - and heavy, I
started throwing up, almost on a daily
basis. I just don't do it when my parents
are home. Sometimes I do it when they
are, but just if I now that they are
distracted and that i'll hear them if they
come to me.
americanpie
wrote:
now i've taken this odd turn
and when I get into a binge-purge cycle I
will purposefully set out tons of food or
bake and then eat it all. Sometimes i'll
eat for an hour - purge --- and continue
this 2-3 times! (...) I am starting
counseling on march 21 which is a big
step. (...)
i am miserable, depressed and just sat in
the bathroom and had a mini-breakdown.
I'm so tired of feeling this way and of
fighting this
disease!
my parents never gave much attention to me
in these matters... About my body and my
weight... I went to the doctor last feb
15 but, as my parents don't even imagine
that, I couldn't follow the plan she gave
me. And I didn't tell i'm bulimic...
I need strenght and will to get back to
what I was some months ago, when I could
control myself.
