Hey everyone! I think i've posted here
maybe once or twice, but my name is kayla
& i'm 16. I'm only a junior in hs,
but I have a lot coming for me right now
and after I graduate.
Anyways, I have a bf that i've been with
for over a year. I love him so much, but
i've become so moody towards him and
everyone else around me. It feels like
i'm pushing everyone away from me because
I snap everytime someone looks at me
funny. My mom thinks I have a 'mental'
disease, but I refuse to go to the doctor
for it. I always feel like everyone
thinks i'm ugly, even though I know i'm
very beautiful.
I recently lost my best friend over my ex,
we didn't talk for over 2 months, but we
started talking again on tuesday. That's
been upsetting me also because my bf and
his best friend hate her, and i'm soo
close to the both of them.
I've been feeling so depressed lately and
i'm terrified it's going to mess up my
future.
I just wanted someone to talk to thats
going through the same thing :)
kayla
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w0rldd0minat0r
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2006 Posts: 238
Posted: 03-02-06 18:06pm
I get worried to about the way that people
look at me. I think its just anxiety you
need to start believing in yourself as a
person. Im not too sure how you might do
this because im kinda stuck on that at the
moment.
You say your feeling depressed yet you
seem to have some really good things going
for you at the moment you need to hold
onto that. Its easy at our age to feel
down because of worrying about things.
Our minds our changing so fast and we
change so quickly I wouldnt be too worried
about whats going on at the moment it
seems like u are having a hard time at the
moment but I can see a really positive
future for you.
You seem to have a really clear idea as to
what you want to do with your life
something I have never been clear on and
ur in a stable relationship. My last one
broke up after a week and it was really
hurtful recently the way we broke up.
This problem about your boyfriend and your
mate its a bit tricky and I have to be
honest and say I havent been in this
situation before and its hard to comment
on the little information you have given
me. I think you can still be close to
both of them but you need to try and make
sure that they don't come to loggerheads.
If I was u I would have a word with your
bf and see if he is willing to give to
give it a shot with this girl if you say
it is important to you. Im not really
sure how he would react as I dont know him
but if I was him I wouldnt see it as that
bigger of a deal. If he cares about you
as much as you say he does then he will at
least not be nasty about her to you. It
is likely that he was just being
especially nasty about her because you two
fell out and im sure that if you make it
clear that you two are going to be friends
he will lay off being mean. Your in the
lucky position of at least having one of
them if it does go wrong and if it does
you need to make the decision as to who
you want to be with.
Write back telling me why you think you
are being "moody all the time" and what
you think is good in your life at the
moment
take care and good luck
write back
gavin
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~baby~g~
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Jul 2005 Posts: 221 Location: Ohio
Posted: 03-02-06 18:28pm
Well, I have my good days & bad days,
like everyone I suppose. I'm soo mean to
my mom & I feel very bad for it, but I
don't know what to do about it because it
just comes out. See, my mom & step
dad are going through a divorce, but he's
the only father i've ever known, and it's
been really hard on my family. Plus, I
don't get to see my brothers to much
anymore & i'm very close to all of
them. I know that could be part of my
problem right there. I'm on some
medication right now for headaches, but
also for a depression medicine, but it
doesn't work. Doctors just always throw
some medicine at you and thats it.
I never feel good either. I have
headaches all the time, sore throat, very
weak..I feel like i'm falling apart. It
gets sooo annoying and no one really
understands why I don't feel good. I'm
always tired and thats screwing things up.
I go to a academy for school and its
getting really hard for me, but it
prepares you for college. I start college
courses in the fall, while i'm still in
high school. So, thats been stressful for
me also. All these colleges are after me
and I just don't know which one to go to.
Or heck I don't even know what I want to
go to college for.
Anyways, for the whole bf thing..I haven't
came to reality that him and I have been
together this long. I'm used to the few
week relationships, and to be honest I
don't even know if I like the
relationship. If that makes since. I
feel like I need to try to date other
people but then again I love my bf. I'm
probably confusing you, i'm sorry. We
argue a lot but that is mostly my fault I
guess, but then again he complains to me a
lot and it gets on my nerves.
When I said I was close to both of them, I
meant my bf and his best friend. All of
us are really close friends. His best
friend is like my big brother, ya kno? My
'best friend' I don't even feel as close
to as I used to. Plus, a lot of guys
think i'm pretty and that makes him mad.
Lol sorry for rambling on...
Talk to ya soon!
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w0rldd0minat0r
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2006 Posts: 238
Posted: 03-02-06 19:21pm
Sorry if ur there watching this is a very
quick reply ill do longer one in a sec
how long have u been taking the medication
and which one is it?
It took a few weeks for my antidepressants
to kick in before maybe you havent
realised them kicking in or maybe u need
to give them a chance
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w0rldd0minat0r
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2006 Posts: 238
Posted: 03-02-06 19:35pm
Dont worry im one of these guys who prefer
girl mates to lad mates so im used to
rambling lol :p
you maybe need to take some time out and
think about things write stuff down where
u thinking ur relationships are headed
now. Maybe ur ex best friend isnt worth
the hastle then! U need to think will u
need her if ur thinking of dumping this bf
(i know its selfish but come on thats the
way our minds work anyway!)
this feeling weak thing do u suffer from
anxiety like me? If ur not sure what the
symptoms are google it im sure it'll help
:d I always feel really weak and ill but
maybe its just growing? I grow rlly
quickly lol im 6" 3 now and still growing
so that might be what the problem is for
you maybe adding more fruit too ur diet.
Maybe some of those nonsense drinks like
yakult they seem to work on the
adverts!!!!
Where do u see urself in a weeks
time>?
A months time>?
A years time>?
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~baby~g~
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Jul 2005 Posts: 221 Location: Ohio
Posted: 03-03-06 15:35pm
My medicine that i'm on is omgsh I don't
even know, lol, pamalor or something like
that I think? I was on it when I was 13,
depressed from my baby brother dying, and
I was like hyperchild, getting trouble all
the time, so my parents took me off of it
and I got on topomax or something like
that. But, that made me really sick..So I
tried one more medicine and they put me
back on pamalor, and it does nothing for
me like it used to! It does help
headaches though!
As for the fruit thing, I started that on
tuesday, so maybe that will help me! I
really hope so, i'm eating 6 servings of
fruits/veggies a day..Like this diet thing
told me to! I don't need to go on a diet,
i'm not over weight, but I really don't
eat the right types of foods. Does that
help you?!
What I do is write letters to people, but
really don't always give it to them. I do
every once in awhile to let out my
feelings. It helps me though, and I write
in a diary every once in awhile, but I
don't always have time, ya know. Thats
just how life works out.
My bf & I got into another argument
last night omgsh, I just about lost it.
We argued for over 2 hrs, and I finally
just hung up on him, and his mom called me
back saying some crap that he needed to
get his 'rest' cause he was sick. Now
today he's trying to suck all up to me and
its getting so old. All's I told him was
that I needed some time to think about
things, and thats all it took for him to
fly off about everything! He didn't even
let me get out what I needed to think
about. Now he has one of his friends
calling me to talk to me about my
problems, I understand he is worried about
me, but I don't even know this guy and
he's like 23 yrs old. Haha here goes this
rambling thing!!
Anyways, pm me if you want with the reply
to this so we dont have to keep talking on
here!
Kayla
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w0rldd0minat0r
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2006 Posts: 238
Posted: 03-03-06 17:48pm
Sure things its just easier because I can
refer directly to your last post.
Im going to copy your last message into pm
so I can read while I write ok
