Does Anyone Else Feel Like This? Posted: 04-06-06 18:02pm
I've had problems with depression, and
anxiety since I was around 7yrs old,
around that time I started to think I was
"fat". I didn't fall into annorexic
habits until I was 12 1/2, and at that
point I didn't realize that I was doing
it. It got bad when I was 16-20, at one
point I was 8st 4lb (i'm 6ft w/ an hour
glass bone structure). I was also bulemic
from 18-20, and it was really hard for me
to get out of that cycle.
Anyways, to get to the point of this, I
had head trauma 2mos ago and I had a
concussion which is now post concussion
syndrome and I have a spinal injury as
well, the meds they've got me on make me
gain weight. That, and being alone all
the time is making me have self
destructive thoughts again. I feel guilty
for eating again and basically hate
looking in the mirror.
Does anyone else with eating disorders
mainly feel like "i'm not good enough" I
find myself putting blame for everything
on myself , relationship problems,
anything that goes wrong etc, and then I
feel like I need to punish myself, like
i'm not worth it.
I was just wondering if it's just me or if
everyone else w/ eating disorders has
these kind of feelings too?
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v00d00cita
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Re: Does Anyone Else Feel Like This? Posted: 04-09-06 14:08pm
christa84
wrote:
does anyone else with eating
disorders mainly feel like "i'm not good
enough" I find myself putting blame for
everything on myself , relationship
problems, anything that goes wrong etc,
and then I feel like I need to punish
myself, like i'm not worth it.
I was just wondering if it's just me or if
everyone else w/ eating disorders has
these kind of feelings
too?
a lot of people feel or have felt like
you. That's not something that you should
blame you for. Look, everyone is more
than looks. I know it's hard to see this
sometimes, but it's true. I feel that I
put some of my relationships in danger
everytime I let bulimia take over me and
do bad things, you know...
I'm fighting it and i've realised that
it's very hard to do it on your own. But,
even you have to struggle alone, don't
give up. In the first place, you're not
completelly alone - you have people here
who'll always have a helping hand and will
hear you. In the second place, gaining
some weight will be good for you: see it
this way: if you die, no problems with
relathionships will matter, because you'll
be no longer there. And people care for
you and want to see you fine.
I know you can do it, because i'm
struggling to. You are a lot worse than
me, but I wanna help you the best that I
can.
If you need anything, at anytime, just
tell me - send me a private message or so,
ok?
Best wishes, girl! ****
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christa84
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Apr 2006 Posts: 61 Location: FL
Posted: 04-10-06 00:27am
Thank you so much for replying, sometimes
I just feel so isolated with it, it feels
like i'm the only one having emotions like
that and everyone else is perfect, or
"normal". I know people are more than
looks, i'm harder on myself than anyone
else could ever be.
The stir craziness of being injured isn't
helping my .E.D.'s either :-p I feel like
I have no control over anything right now.
It just sucks.
Thank you again,
christa
keep strong in your fight against your ed
<3
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 04-10-06 05:29am
I feel very down too, once in a while
(sometimes it's a lot more than once in a
while)...
But, look outside - see the sun, the
birds, feel the heat :) (well, at least
here you could feel it today, it's very
sunny and warm ;d).
Be strong, you can do it!
If you feel bad for some reason, just send
me something :) talking helps a lot and
keeps you busy! =) *****
