My Ed Story..........long

I have had errection problems for 10 years...=(. As a young boy 12 - 17 I was always kind of underdeveloped in all areas I had little hair on my body and a small penis I hoped id develop but I never seemed to. At 18 I developed a bit but nothing to be proud of, at this age all my freinds had girls friends and I was far too underdeveloped to engage in sexual activity although as far as I can remeber it all worked fine.

This led to underconfidence and I then mixed in with the drug community as this seemed to fill the void I was missing. I would take e , lsd , and smoke pot. A few months into this I took some lsd that was far too strong and had a bad trip (any one who has had one of these will know what a living nightmare these can be) and it took me a few months to un space my self.

After this I quit the drugs.......... Now im not sure if this caused my problem but iv never had many (very few)moring erections and while masterbating my errection isnt hard at all and only sometimes when I cum is it as it should be. I wondered if the drugs interupted my development in puberty.

In the next 9years I had several ( 2-3, that few as I was very warey in the first place but these girls were very good looking and I thought what the hell) disasterus sexual incounters where I could only get semi erect and not perform penetration which as some of u guys will know puts u off even more. I carried on masterbating with this condition but I became use to haveing a semi erect penis and ignored the fact that it wasnt as it should be.

Several months ago tho I met a really nice girl who happens to be very attractive as well( if one thing ed does help is becoming a very tolerant of other people and there problems and feelings) and I discused all this with her and she was/is really understanding ( it gave me a new faith in the every day person actually) we tryed several times and it was still a no go.I tryed viagra which hardly helped. I did have some success with calis which my doctor informs me it works slightly differently than viagra. I found that a glass or 2 of wine helps with this too. Anyway we have had a few reasonably succefull sex sessions although its far from perfect and she has to go on top for the best results as when im thrusting I seem to lose firmness( I once made her cum which gave me back some of my pride). At the moment my calis has run out and im waiting for my next batch(had to order off internet as its so much cheaper than uk perscription)

iv visisted my doctor and had my testicles checked and my testosterone measured.Both were considered to be normal how ever when I was looking at his computer I notice the number on the testosterone level and it is the low end of normal.

I did some research for this on the net and found that some people function ok on normal/low but others dont. I tryed some testosterone pills that my mate who is a bodybuildier takes and found that I had a few more spontanius errections(although 95 percent of the time they are still semi errect but it was an improvment on the basically 0 ones I use to get) I also noticed my voice has got slightly deeper and my prostate seems more comfortable( this is very hard to describe). Generally tho its not doing much there is some improvment and I have ordered some testosterone patches which are much stronger to see if this will help.

I cant wait for my 2nd batch of calis ( which does actually help although not perfect)and testosterone patches to arrive! I will report my results whatever the outcome. I will inform my doctor when I start taking these to be on the safe side even tho he hasnt perscribed them.

A 10 year sufferers story.................Not sure what iv had done with out the internet tho.............

Any questions or help please reply...........