I am a 19 year old girl and I think I
might be depressed. Sometimes i'll wake
up and just feel so sad and worthless.
This can last for days at a time. I am
not always sad, there are some days where
i'm quite happy...But every day has a sad
period in it. I'll start sobbing randomly
for no reason at all. I've cried every
single day for a long time, I can't even
remember how long.
I feel so lonely and like a waste of a
human being. I often feel sorry for
people that know me because I feel I cause
them all problems. I wish I didn't exist.
I always fear that everyone I know
secretly hates me, even what i'd call my
significant other. I logically know that
they of course love me very much, but the
sneaking suspicion that they really don't
is there sometimes. It's kind of like,
how could anyone love someone as terrible
as me?
I feel like i'm crazy. I'm afraid that if
I talk to someone about it they'll think
that i'm just feeling sorry for myself or
trying to get attention. I've been living
like this for so long, I just want the
almost unbearable emotional pain to go
away. Things only seem to be getting
worse as time goes on.
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tony3595
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Apr 2006 Posts: 68 Location: IL
Posted: 04-23-06 15:04pm
Vanessa, you are too young to feel that
way. You have too much in life to live
for and to enjoy. I think talking about
it is something that would help get to the
bottom or the root of the problem and help
you to restore your self-esteem.
You have friends and you have a
significant other who should be willing to
talk to you about it.
If you don't feel comfortable with them,
you should feel at least partially
comfortable with your doctor who could
possibly give you smething that might help
you straighten things out.
If you just need to unlooad, I can listen
and suggest, but I am not a professional,
just a good listener. Pm me if this is
the way you would like to go. Looking
forward to hearing from you.
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Ingi
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Joined: 09 Mar 2006 Posts: 8783 Location: Grinning like a Cheshire Cat,
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Posted: 04-23-06 15:08pm
You should go to your doctor if you are
feeling worthless and crying every day.
There are many different kinds of
anti-depressants that can help you feel
better about yourself. There is no shame
in taking them. Almost everyone has taken
something at some point ;) I understand
that you want to keep it from the people
you know, but i'll bet they already have a
good idea you are down. Maybe, like tony
said, you could choose one of your friends
to talk to?
