Joined: 17 Nov 2005 Posts: 42 Location: western australia
What If I'm Crazier Than Usual? Posted: 05-14-06 02:49am
Ok, i'm at a crap time in my life where I
was fired for the first time ever after a
week at my dream job. The boss was
aweful. Anyway I put way too much into
this job, I thought it was the answer to
my future and everything. Anyway, now I
have been unemployed for nearly a month
and it's driving me crazy.
Anyway, now my boyfriend of 3 years is in
his final year at uni and has his head
down working........Which is a problem
when your girlfriend is crazy. I only
have 2 close friends who also have uni but
I just can't stop getting jealous and
crazy when I see him because I think he
doesn't want to see me. Little things
make me suspicious. I want to see him
always but he is ok with just seeing me a
day a week. But I should be looking at
it, that he is spending the time he can
with me. When I see him I turn into a
green-eyed spoilt child. I can see
myself doing it but I just can't stop my
mouth from health forum and pouting. If
i'm not having a go at him, i'm usually
depressed and stressed. Is it better to
have a break so I don't bring him down
with me? Call him when I get a job and
then a sense of self worth?
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stormyf2
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Joined: 16 Mar 2006 Posts: 146 Location: Canada
Posted: 05-14-06 02:54am
How old are u?
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sh5nton
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Joined: 17 Nov 2005 Posts: 42 Location: western australia
Posted: 05-14-06 03:00am
20, I was a store manager of a boutique
before I started the job as a fashion
agent and then got screwed over. I have a
real issue with being judged by your
position in life. I haven't completed a
degree so I have no qualifications, just
experience in fashion. I'm scared by my
21st, i'll have no claim to fame for my
life so far. I've always had a plan and
now I have none. This drives my boyfriend
crazy. Add this craziness with way too
much time on my hand and i'm a ticking
time bomb. I thought i'd cool our
relationship off before he ends up wanting
to kill me. I just can't accept him
saying, everything will work out when
nothing has so far. He is such a
sweetheart but I just get so angry all the
time. I've never been this attention
seeking before.
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stormyf2
Supporter
Joined: 16 Mar 2006 Posts: 146 Location: Canada
Posted: 05-14-06 03:13am
Well, if u say he is supportive then he
will understand your emotions are out of
wack right now! And he will be at your
side! I have just recently become
engaged and had some issues at work and
needed to go off on stress leave....I
cryed all day long he just held me and
just said im here and im going no
where...No matter the outcome!!!!! But if
u only see him once a week that is not a
good relationship as far as im concerned.
But your young yet. He may not be the
one!!!! I met mine 8 mth.S ago and im in
my 30's. Never thought it would happen!
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sh5nton
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Nov 2005 Posts: 42 Location: western australia
Posted: 05-14-06 03:23am
But his assignments have to be done and
one day a week is the only time he has
free. It's just so hard to break up with
your first love over time constraints and
because I can't deal with it. I just wish
I wasn't so insecure and had a life. Damn
girls and crazy emotions. How supportive
can you be with no time to spare. He even
told me to go out with someone who can
give me the time I need. That just made
me freak out more, but he said it was
because he just wanted to see me happy.
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stormyf2
Supporter
Joined: 16 Mar 2006 Posts: 146 Location: Canada
Posted: 05-14-06 03:35am
Only cause ive been through something like
this I can say now u need time to get your
life together. To get to no yourself and
love yourself.
Thats what I did and it felt like I had
let some good loves go but I now no
everything happens 4 a reason and ive been
working 12 years at current job and just
found mr right and u will no it and im
sorry he does not sound like mr
right!!!!!!
