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Really Long...having a Hard Time Coping!! Posted: 05-16-06 15:09pm
Hey yall....I don't know how easy it's
going to be for me to say this..But here
goes....
I love my baby with .A.L.L of my heart and
would die to see her happy. For the past
week she's been acting "colicky". I
thought that she wouldn't have colic
because it had been 3 weeks. Well I guess
I was wrong.
Since I became pregnant, I had this
powerful outlook that I could achieve
anything. I had her without an epidural
and thought if I could do that, than I was
capable of damn near everything.
I have a history of depression but thought
that it was silly to become depressed
after your baby is born. I assumed it
would be the most joyful months i'd ever
experience. I was on anti depressants 2
years ago and refused to take them because
of pride. Now i'm starting to show signs
of depression again.
She's stopped sleeping at night and wakes
up in 20 minute intervals .Screaming!!
Nothing I do soothes her, I mean nothing.
She just had a 20 minute screaming bout
and I just let her go. Finally I covered
her up with her blanket and she stopped
immedietly. I've tried everything and
i've read everything. My .Fiance is
trying to be as supportive as possibble
but has found himself becoming frustrated
with me.
Now i'm not gonna hurt my baby or myself,
I just find myself crying uncontrollably.
I want to make her feel better and they're
just nothing that works. I could just
stuff a bottle in her mouth, but I don't
want to make her dependant on a bottle for
soothing.
The obstacle that i'm dealing with is
letting my doctor know about my
depression. I have a serious pride issue
and think depression is a major sign of
weakness. I'd rahter be depressed than to
let him know about it. But then i've read
up on post pardom depression and it's
extreemely scary!!!
What should I do??!?! I'm going
insane!!
Sarah
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lil_blaze2004
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Posted: 05-16-06 15:15pm
Omg you sound just like I did after having
trey. I need to find my old posts!!
Tell your doc, my doc did not want to give
me anything till I told him I would jump
in front of the damn subway. He gave me
some valium because did not want to put me
back on anti depressants. Having a
child id the hardest thin gto adjust to,
but I promise just like veryone told me it
will get better. You need to get into a
routine with her (trey is almost 11 months
old and still gets up 2-3 times a night)
but I cope with it much better now. I
remmebr wanting to give him to anyone who
walked by and I just did not want him or
like him much at first. I always cried
and... Girl....E-mail me so I can talk
to u privately!
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Posted: 05-16-06 15:47pm
I'm sorry for what you're going through
right now. I think it's great you can
identity what the problem is - that's the
first step to getting better. You say
you have a pride issue and think
depression is a sign of weakness, but I
think not treating depression when you're
depressed is what weakness can be better
defined as. Society today is much more
aware of what post-partum depression is,
thanks to people like brooke shields who
have documented their struggle with it.
It's important to remember that it doesn't
mean you're weak or a bad mother. You
are a human being dealing with human
emotions. I really wish you the best of
luck and hope that for your sake, your
baby's, and your fiance's, you talk to
your doctor about possible treatment.
It's the most responsible and loving thing
you can do for each of you, especially
your baby.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 05-16-06 17:02pm
I didnt read other peoples posts so sorry
if I repeat anything.
I think you should talk to your doctor
about getting some meds to help out with
your depression, don't think its a sign of
weakness to use the pills. You have a
pride issue, well look at it this way.
Have pride because you got through it...
Have pride that when you take the
medication it makes you feel better and
hopefully itll be over soon. If you keep
waiting youre still gonna be unhappy, and
waiting won't fix anything and itll still
bring your pride down ya know?
I'd take the pills... And then have pride
that you got through it =)
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Ingi
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Posted: 05-16-06 17:55pm
Oh sweetie, i've been there. In fact, I
didn't go to the doctor for 4 mnths after
I had my daughter I was so depressed and
somehow I was anxious about what the
doctor would say/do.
Post partum depression is very common and
nothing to be ashamed of. No matter what
that icky .Tom .Cruise says, taking
medication for .P.P.D is not anything to
feel ashamed or embarrassed over.
Ask for help when you need it. Easier
said than done, I know. Be good to
yourself and go to the doctor, at least to
discuss your feelings.
Good luck! (((hugs)))
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Eyes Wide Shut
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Joined: 04 Jan 2006 Posts: 7892 Location: *UPTOWN*NEW ORLEANS*, La
Thanks Yall Posted: 05-16-06 20:31pm
I have a problem showing my .T.R.U.E
feelings to everyone. I don't like people
to know that i'm unhappy. I like to joke
around and make people laugh. But that's
impossible when you feel like blah/on edge
on the inside.
My .Fiance is going to take the rest of
this week off to help me out more. He
sees what i'm going through and it's
starting to make him upset. He's a .Pices
and very emotional.
Since she's been born, i've had to be the
strong link. When she had .Jaundice that
continually got worse, I had to be the one
to reassure everyone that she would be
fine. When she got .Thrush, it was the
same thing. It just seems like now, after
trying to be so strong through all of the
health scares, i'm breaking down.
I hate to cry, but it so involuntary it's
disguisting. The first thing out of many
people's mouths is...'oh you can't handle
it??' and I instantly burst into tears. I
am one of the strongest people emotionally
that I know and it's so weird to let
everyone see me like this. I try to hide
it with a smile, but you can see it in my
eyes.
I think that if I don't start feeling
better by .Friday morning, i'm going to
give my .Dr a call. My .Dr was soo non
chalant about the depression (i'm guessing
because it's extreemly common) that it
kinda makes me feel less anxious about
bringing it up. I just don't want him to
look down on me for breaking apart after
being so strong.
I'm really glad that yall are helping me
through this. I really need some positive
outlooks on this situation. I'll never be
able to express my gratitude enough!!
Sarah
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 05-16-06 20:48pm
Good luck honey I hope you start to feel
better soon =)
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Lalee
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Joined: 26 Jan 2006 Posts: 991 Location: South Carolina
Posted: 05-16-06 21:02pm
Awwww, hang in there hun! You know you
have people here for you when you need us!
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erinjacob
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Joined: 04 Apr 2006 Posts: 219 Location: australia
Jess Posted: 05-16-06 21:12pm
Evry one gets deprested after heving there
baby but they say if it last mor ethen 2
weeks see a doc your baby feels your
stress an anger if you try to be calm
while holdin her I no its hard but it does
work dont let the cryin get to you cryin
wont hurt them m,aybe hav a warm relaxin
bath or shower with her it may calm you
both my first did it for 6 months what
hell but you get through it
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Becky
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Posted: 05-17-06 05:16am
Darling I had ppstnatal depression with my
daughter and I was so close to giving her
up for adoption. You need to go to the
dr's. I luckily didn't have it with my
son but I know exactly how u feel
