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mxgurlie101
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Location: maryland
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Why Do I Keep Listening?
Posted: 05-24-06 15:19pm
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Well anyway my family knows about my ed
and some of my friends but I keep
listening to them. My family always jokes
around with me and says you eat like a pig
and stuff like that they really dont know
how much that hurts me after just coming
out of the hospital for my
anorexia/bulimia. Then when I went to
school not knowing if she was joking or
not my friend called me a fat a$$. Ive
begun to think they are being serious. I
need to loose weight I cant handle this.
My mom told me that shes tired of fighting
with me so she told me to move out. I got
no place to go except if I knew where my
dad was but he went who knows where on
christmas. Just completely out of the
blue on christmas. God I dont know what
to do anymore life is out of control. I
wanna curl up in a ball and just die. I
cant do anything right nothing at all. I
dont even know what im asking here in this
post im just going insane. Ive hit a new
low which is lowest ive ever been. Where
do u think I can do because I have to move
out by tonight im only 14? I gues I could
go stay with a friend or something I odnt
know. I should just kill myself and get
over the misery. Well im going to stop
complaining now cause I have to get ready
to move and I know im annoying anyone who
reads this:(
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rinsha
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Posted: 05-24-06 15:28pm
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No honey you don't have to move out you
let the police know that your mom is
kicking you out that is against the law.
She will go to jail and you would be
taking away from and placed with your dad.
And no you shouldn't be treated that way.
I hope you can stay with your friend and
hopefully you can tell someone who has
some authority. Because your mom can't do
that to you I know she thinks and says she
can but she will go to jail its called
neglect.
I am sorry you have been treated the way
you have. If you have a eating disorder
people shouldn't be picking on you
obviously are down and depressed. Have
you talked to a doctor about how you feel?
Please write me back if you can. I would
really like to hear if your okay or not.
I really hope so. You can email me at treys
_girl06@yahoo.Com I will talk with you
if you need someone to talk to.
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rinsha
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Posted: 05-24-06 15:44pm
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Hopefully she can get help, I hope so.
She said she had a friend hopefully she
went to her friends house. I seriuosly
hope everything works out for you and your
family.
Best wishes
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v00d00cita
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Re: Why Do I Keep Listening?
Posted: 05-24-06 15:53pm
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| mxgurlie101
wrote: | | my family always jokes
around with me and says you eat like a pig
and stuff like that they really dont know
how much that hurts me after just coming
out of the hospital for my
anorexia/bulimia. Then when I went to
school not knowing if she was joking or
not my friend called me a fat a$$. Ive
begun to think they are being serious. I
need to loose weight I cant handle this.
My mom told me that shes tired of fighting
with me so she told me to move out. I
got no place to go except if I knew where
my dad was but he went who knows where on
christmas. Just completely out of the
blue on christmas. God I dont know what
to do anymore life is out of control. I
wanna curl up in a ball and just die.
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hey, girl! Cheer up, I don't want to see
you like that :( you are an inspiration
for me and for a lot of us!
You did well talking to us, i'm here for
you. Send me a private message or and
email, or talk to me on msn and we'll find
a way for you, ok?
I wish I can help you, girl, cause you
deserve it!
Please reply back and try to be calm!
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rinsha
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Posted: 05-24-06 16:03pm
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Yes she does deserve to be helped and I
hope when she reads this, there are people
who are and are willing to listen I am
willing to listen. If you can please
write back. :)
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mxgurlie101
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Joined: 17 Dec 2005
Posts: 92
Location: maryland
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Thanks
Posted: 05-25-06 19:26pm
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I greatly appreciate the replys. I moved
out with a friend until police find my dad
and I plan to let my mom settle down a bit
before talking to her. Yeah I might be 14
but im not your normal fourteen year old.
I dont get an attitude. I dont even know
how to get mad or yell. I tend to just
take in what ever hits me and it hurts
sometimes not being able to respond back
to what their yelling at me about. I
rarely ever get in fights with my mom so
this was a first in like a year. She is
tired of dealing with my ed and I can
understand that because so am I but this
fight to recover is harder then I thought
it would be. It keeps getting harder and
harder. Im alright I guess just upset and
depressed and things sure could be alot
better but im going to try to keep moving
through what ever situation comes about.
I just hope under the emotiona;l presure
im in right now that my ed doesn't worsen.
Thanks again for the replys!
Sarah
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rinsha
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Location: Alabama
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Glad to Hear You Replied :)
Posted: 05-26-06 00:06am
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I was very concerned, and glad to hear you
moved out. I hope things are getting
better and at any age even 14 you deserve
much better. The treatment you were given
wasn't right. Some may think I shouldn't
judge, but if you were feeling so down and
was wanting to die thats not good. And
remember people do care. I know how hard
things can get and sometimes even if
someone just listens it can make a big
difference.
If you ever need someone to talk to my
email address is treys
_girl06@yahoo.Com feel free anytime to
send an email and remember there is always
someone who will listen.
Good luck and I am glad to hear things are
better. Try not to get to stressed out
and also remember things will get better
and I am just glad to see you sent in a
reply because I was very concerned and so
were others.
:d
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 05-26-06 03:51am
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I'm glad to get news from you, we are all
worried about you.
Try to see which ways are the ebst for you
now, but keep in mind that you and your
mother, no matter what happened, are
familly and need each other.
For what I read, I understand that you're
both passing through a bad time, that can
be one more motive for you to talk and to
clear things up, ok?
The best
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mxgurlie101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Dec 2005
Posts: 92
Location: maryland
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Posted: 05-26-06 17:14pm
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Yeah im doing alright im down and all
right now things keep happening.I was
talking to the teacher friend I have about
the situation and other stuff she would
usually call my house but my mom would
blow her off but today she wanted to talk
to me.My friend and I were telling a
secret about something that happened and
now her parents are taking action and
called the school. I dont want to be on
the spot anymore and I dont want any other
pressures right now I just want to be left
alone and live my life. Things keep
getting worst :(cry).I dont know what to
do anymore I just wish everything would
stop like my ed and my parents fighting
and other stuff. This is tough situation
im in right now and I dont know where to
turn what to do. I feel so ashamed im a
problem child I shouldnt even be here. I
just want to be free for once from all the
misery. Thanxs for ur guys supportit
really helps
sarah
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rinsha
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Location: Alabama
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Posted: 05-26-06 23:20pm
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Things will get better, I know how that
goes you can be so down and out and it
just seems like things get worse. But
they will get better I promise. I hope
everything starts working out for you.
Remember you always have someone to talk
to :) I will talk to you anytime. Good
luck and I hope things start improving.
8)
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mxgurlie101
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Posts: 92
Location: maryland
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Posted: 05-27-06 15:18pm
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Im trying to getthings to work out better
but they wont. I hope they do soon
because ive had all I can take
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mxgurlie101
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Location: maryland
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Posted: 05-29-06 20:47pm
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Things are really going down the drain.
Im in a really big depression state and my
ed is out of wack. Between yesturday and
today ive only ate a peanut butter and
jelly sandwich and one chicken nugget. I
even started cutting myself again I feell
so horrible. Ive tried to call my mom but
she wont pick up. I wish it would all
end. Police have been searching for my
dad but havent found him yet. Im going
crazy! What am I suppose to do?I dont
know anymore I tried to keep undercontrol
but it slipped away. I just want my life
back and the real me to come back also. I
dont know myself anymore. All I do is go
for a 3hr run in the morning and sit in
the room im staying in the rest of the
day, its horrible and deppressing.
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 05-30-06 05:27am
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| mxgurlie101
wrote: | i was talking to the teacher
friend I have about the situation and
other stuff she would usually call my
house but my mom would blow her off but
today she wanted to talk to me.My friend
and I were telling a secret about
something that happened and now her
parents are taking action and called the
school. I dont want to be on the spot
anymore and I dont want any other
pressures right now I just want to be left
alone and live my life.
(..) I feel so ashamed im a problem child
I shouldnt even be here. I just want to
be free for once from all the
misery. |
hey, sarah, don't be like that, it all
happens to us too, better or worse, we
have always moments in our life when we
wish not to live anymore.
But hold on, it will get better and it
will compensate all that you're going
through now, ok? I really wish you the
best, because I can feel you are a nice
girl and deserve a good life.
| mxgurlie101
wrote: | things are really going down
the drain. Im in a really big depression
state and my ed is out of wack. Between
yesturday and today ive only ate a peanut
butter and jelly sandwich and one chicken
nugget. I even started cutting myself
again I feell so horrible. Ive tried to
call my mom but she wont pick up. I wish
it would all end. Police have been
searching for my dad but havent found him
yet.
(...) all I do is go for a 3hr run in the
morning and sit in the room im staying in
the rest of the day, its horrible and
deppressing. |
sarah, I think you are hurting yourself
too much. Don't do that, ok? I know that
it's very hard, but doing thst won't help
you, anyway.
Running can be ok, it keeps you occupied
and stuff, but not eating and doing that
much exercise can literally kill you...
Get better *
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mxgurlie101
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Location: maryland
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Posted: 05-31-06 16:29pm
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Thanks for the advice. I guess your right
that I need to stop hurting myself but its
hard. You guys are so nice to help me
through this no one else will. I dont
have many friends or even ones I can talk
to in that matter so your replys really
help me so thanks. Well my friends mom
has noticed my ed and she htinks im a bad
influence to her kids I know it could be
but now I have to find somewhere else to
stay until my dad comes or is found. What
if hes not even alive ill be on my own.
Well I guess I shouldnt think that way
because its negative and im trying to keep
positive to help me through the situation
and to keep my ed from going farther down
hill. Staying positive is hard though.
Do you know anyways that you use to keep
positive cause I could really use some
positivity. Thanks
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Posted: 06-01-06 03:41am
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Well... It's tough... When i'm down I
try to do things that clear my mind or
that send my thoughts to somewhere else.
Sometimes I study or read, sometimes I
watch tv, do beams necklaces to give
friends or sell, wirte, draw, etc. You
could try this too, what do you think?
One of the necklaces I made I send to girl
from the forum, brady, to help us but, so
that it'll be like a token meaning that
it's possible to get better.
Take your time and keep giving us news. I
wish I could help you more. Kisses
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mxgurlie101
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Posted: 06-01-06 21:17pm
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Thanks for the advice imight have to try
some of those things. Whats a beams
necklace?
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 06-02-06 04:56am
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A bead necklace is a necklace made with
beads - little "stones" - made of plastic,
wood, glass, etc. :) they can have
several kinds of beads with many colours,
shapes, materials and sizes combined. :)
i like them, their colours can put me
happier during the day. I use them
specially during spring and summer, to
match the colours of the clothes and the
weather. :)
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mxgurlie101
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Location: maryland
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Posted: 06-03-06 04:39am
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It keeps me busy doing them and keeps my
mind occupied too. :)
how have you all been doing?
I feel like a balloon :\ but i'm doing
three or four meals a day... :s
mxgurlie, have you done any progress about
your situation? It's very hard, but...
I'm with you, girl.
Anytime **
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mxgurlie101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
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Location: maryland
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Posted: 06-03-06 16:57pm
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I really havent made any progress with
the situation with moving right now I
stopped by the library to check email but
still dont have any place to live.I
usually stay at the library all day till
closing. Im out on the street and havent
slept at all. Ive been trying to eat
better but that still is very hard. I
hope my dads found soon ori findsomeplace
to go because its hard out on my own and
to tell the truth scary. Thanx for the
support
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