I have suffered with depression off and on
for years.
For a full year I was free - I felt great
was happy.
The past month i've been back to this
horrible horrible place I am on an
anti-depressant (cipralex) have been for a
long time.
But it is back with a vengence, my huband
works from 6am - 4pm, I have 2 boys aged 3
and 6.
I have no energy - i've changed my diet (
eating more healthy ) but most of the
time I don't want to eat. Everything is
a struggle, house work, shopping, my kids
- I hate to say that but it's really
tough.
My husband is supportive as he can be, I
hate when he comes home and i've done no
housework, i'm embarressed and ashamed,
most of my energy goes into looking after
the lads.
I'm so scared
we moved to a new country seven months
ago, and the medical system here isn't
great, I went to the local g.P. Once to
try to get help, but before I could speak
he got angry with me because my 3 year old
son was running around his office - so
there I was trying to control my son and
just about to open up to the doc, and he
said "can't you control him", I just burst
into tears and got out of there as fast as
I could.
So I am now afraid to go back to the doc -
I have to bring my son with me, I don't
know or trust anyone enough to mind him
for me.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated
best to all
vikki
