Lol, thanks guys.
Yeah, it is pretty hard to hold the temper down. And hey, maybe I have a slight bi-polar problem! Cuz that sounds just like me---i get angry, scream and yell, then later, I feel guilty and get all sad and depressed.
The thing that makes me andgry the most is when my husband promises me almost every night that we will spend a little time together. Then as soon as he gets home from work, he runs upstairs to our neighbor duke's house and sits there all night long, playing poker! See, he works 12 hours a day (goes to work at 11am, comes home at 11pm). I like....Hardly ever get to hang with hubby at all anymore, because he stays at dukes till 2 or 3 am!
Even when he does stay home, he just burries himself in the online poker games on the computer. I've tried everything---massaging him, flirting to get his attention, dressing in lacy langere, fondling "certain areas"of his...........Nothing gets him away from that computer!!!!
I get so angry because I talk to him about it a few times a week. He always tells me I am "absolutely right" and I deserve more companionship. Then the next night, he does it again! Its like I don't even have a husband sometimes. Its really annoying. I'm mostly angry because I know something like that could end our relationship, since i'm deffinitely going to get sick of it. But he just keeps on doing it, then comes home and tries to act like nothing is wrong. Then he blames all our fights on me and wonders why i'm always so angry.
Its a tough spot to be in too......No comanionship, romance or conversation with the man I have, but I can't date someone else because we're all "attached" and we took vows in a church!
Sometimes I think i'm too scared to have kids with him. If he blows the kids off the way he blows me off, that's really going to hurt them!
As for the depression, I tried anti-depressants in the past, but they just made me feel worse.
But diet helps quite a bit!! Sugar and caffine make me explosive and short tempered. Starch (potatoes, pasta, rice) make me sluggish, sleepy and depressed. So when I cut those things out, I feel much happier and have way more energy. Like I just drink crystal light and eat lots of vegies and lean meats. Really soothes my nerves. Works better than any anti-depressant ever did, hahaha. But I still got hubby to stress me out!!! Lol