I had my surgical abortion this morning.
I fell asleep and felt nothing. The
procedure lasted about 15 mins. After I
woke up I found out that I am bleeding
alot but didn't feel much pain. Now I am
back home. After several hours I am
bleeding much less and hope and pray that
everything would be fine with my future
fertility...
What about my mental condition... I know
that first day can be deceptive. I might
feel relieved but it can be just for a
while. I know that regret comes after (i
suffered from regret after my first
abortion). But this time... It's kinda
different... I don't feel neither
relieved nor depressed. I feel like I
woke up from the long-lasting nightmare.
I feel that I eventually can concentrate
on my life things. I feel like the fog
in me has finished. I watched my
reaction towards small children in the
city today... Of course I would like
have one, but not now, and it seems that
it doesn't hurt it so much as I
expected.
My boyfriend of 3 months has been very
supportive through all this. Although he
wanted the child he fully understood my
position. I am so grateful him for that.
If he continues the same way further
maybe I would grant him the baby next
year...
I am very thankful to all you as well for
your support. It has been very important
to me. I think that my moods will change
many times in next few months so I guess I
will still attend this forum.
P.S. Afterall, I strongly wish that it
was the last abortion I had... And I wish
it for you as well.
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Carifairy
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Joined: 12 Nov 2005 Posts: 2610 Location: Charlotte n.c.
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Posted: 06-21-06 13:46pm
I am glad it well for you....
I do hope you recover well, and know that
you have friends thinking supprotive
thoughts about you =)
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sandyallen
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Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 06-21-06 15:27pm
We are here for you when you feel you need
us!
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toja
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2006 Posts: 34
Posted: 06-27-06 00:21am
It's me.. Back... I was feeling pretty
well for 4-5 days, both mentaly and
phisically. Then I started to feel
burning pain in my left side of tummy...
Kinda inflammation or what... It made me
think about consequences of abortion a
lot. I still haven't been to doctor, I
was about to go in 2-3 weeks after but now
I have I think to check up sooner.
And together with this I started to feel a
slight regret - that I went through
pregnancy for 2 months, and not much would
have left. That I could have get rid of
my work and go for maternity leave. That
I might suffer from phisycal consequences.
That I was not strong enough to keep the
baby. Because I am starting to feel
something warm for my boufriend, I just
became sticked with him. Because I could
have avoided of all that. Basically, I
don't think about the baby or I don't
wanna it be back... I just want my
position be back because of it's
advantages... Ok I know it is not the
reason to regret. I wish that together
with physical healing my thoughts would
become more positive.
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Birch
Supporter
Joined: 07 Nov 2005 Posts: 4038 Location: Bliss,
Thanks: 142
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Posted: 06-28-06 23:53pm
toja
wrote:
it's me.. Back... I was
feeling pretty well for 4-5 days, both
mentaly and phisically. Then I started
to feel burning pain in my left side of
tummy... Kinda inflammation or what...
It made me think about consequences of
abortion a lot. I still haven't been to
doctor, I was about to go in 2-3 weeks
after but now I have I think to check up
sooner.
And together with this I started to feel a
slight regret - that I went through
pregnancy for 2 months, and not much would
have left. That I could have get rid of
my work and go for maternity leave. That
I might suffer from phisycal consequences.
That I was not strong enough to keep the
baby. Because I am starting to feel
something warm for my boufriend, I just
became sticked with him. Because I could
have avoided of all that. Basically, I
don't think about the baby or I don't
wanna it be back... I just want my
position be back because of it's
advantages... Ok I know it is not the
reason to regret. I wish that together
with physical healing my thoughts would
become more
positive.
please go to the doctor and get checked
out as soon as you can!!!
I'm not sure what you are saying...Do you
want the attention from being pregnant
back? I can understand that. I see
bellies everywhere now.
I wish you well during your healing and
hope you go to the doc's soon.
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toja
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2006 Posts: 34
Posted: 06-29-06 04:49am
birch
wrote:
please go to the doctor and get checked
out as soon as you can!!!
I'm not sure what you are saying...Do you
want the attention from being pregnant
back? I can understand that. I see
bellies everywhere now.
I wish you well during your healing and
hope you go to the doc's
soon.
i registered for the appointment at doctor
and going there in few days. One day I
feel good, next day I feel so-so, only
doctor will tell if something wrong is
with me.
I miss that secret about pregnancy I
had... For example my boss shouted at me,
but I knew I was pregnant and it made me
not worry about anything (except the
pregnancy).
I am meeting my boyfriend next week and we
would consider together what we want from
the future and when we want our baby. I
am so glad that he has been so supportive.
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cherry88
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 May 2006 Posts: 633 Location: ,
Posted: 06-29-06 05:26am
toja
wrote:
birch
wrote:
please go to the doctor and get checked
out as soon as you can!!!
I'm not sure what you are saying...Do you
want the attention from being pregnant
back? I can understand that. I see
bellies everywhere now.
I wish you well during your healing and
hope you go to the doc's
soon.
i registered for the appointment at doctor
and going there in few days. One day I
feel good, next day I feel so-so, only
doctor will tell if something wrong is
with me.
I miss that secret about pregnancy I
had... For example my boss shouted at
me, but I knew I was pregnant and it made
me not worry about anything (except the
pregnancy).
I am meeting my boyfriend next week and we
would consider together what we want from
the future and when we want our baby. I
am so glad that he has been so
supportive.
hi toja im so glad that you have support
from your other half! How are you feeling
recently? Your not alone with the whole.
One day feeling good, one day feeling
so-so. Alot of us here feel like that.
Its one of the many things that happen,
that the abortion nurses didnt warn me
about. :roll:
but anyway what im tryin to say is your
aspose to feel like that, its just one of
those things you go through. We all go
through.
What's here? I guess krissy's links are
not congenial to my topic anymore. It is
5,5 weeks after I did abortion and I do
not regret, I feel relieved and I am ok
with my decision.
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JUNGLE JUICE
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Sep 2006 Posts: 82 Location: Barbados
After Reading All This Posted: 09-21-06 10:39am
How are you know???
Anyone.
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toja
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2006 Posts: 34
to Jungle Juice Posted: 10-09-06 08:18am
jungle juice
wrote:
how are you know???
Anyone.
surprisingly, I am ok and more than ok. I
have regreted much more on my first
abortion... I often think how pretty my
first child could have been (the father,
my ex, was a very handsome man) and how
life could have been.
I don't think about my second abortion,
though, which was this topic about.
Although I am still involved with the
father (my current bf), I don't regret at
all. Moreover, every time after sexual
intercourse I get into panic because I am
very afraid to conceive again. Maybe I
feel that he is not the right for me...
Unfortunately, decision for third abortion
would be much easier. But I hope that I
will never do it again. Even if you
think, that you are strong enough to cope
with abortion and do not feel
consequences, the body and mental system
reacts to it in other ways. My immune
system went down and it reflected in some
diseases I got.
But it is not so bad. I am still
pro-choice. I believe I harmed noone but
myself with my abortions but that was my
lesson I had to learn. I hope never,
never, never to have this experience
again.
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Carifairy
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Joined: 12 Nov 2005 Posts: 2610 Location: Charlotte n.c.
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Posted: 10-09-06 14:16pm
Thank you for checking back in toja...
Have you considered a form of birth
control called an iud? It is as effective
as sterilization, but you just take it out
when you are ready for a family.(not 'you'
but a doctor)
i know that feeling of being scared of
pregnacy.
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jenn_smithson
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Nov 2004 Posts: 808 Location: Texas
Posted: 10-30-06 23:53pm
**this is
an example of a thread where there was
nothing .B.U.T support for this .Woman,
toja, and her individual needs and
desires.**
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EugeniaBrown
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Oct 2006 Posts: 94
Posted: 10-31-06 02:23am
toja
wrote:
so my appointment (my
last chance) is tomorrow and I am going
there...
it has been long since toja posted. I
wander waht happend to her. Also, how
many woman do actually come back here
after they had an a bortion. Does any
one know?
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Carifairy
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Joined: 12 Nov 2005 Posts: 2610 Location: Charlotte n.c.
