I find that I am having even more trouble
getting things together in life now that
i'm finished high school after i'm
finished with my diploma. Um, where do I
start?
Well, a major concern for me is that I
really don't know how to do anything
right. You know I have to get a job real
soon and i'm just nervous about it. I am
really not good at talkin' with people and
followin' instructions, which are some of
the main things that are holdin' me back.
And they're really simple things as well.
People get mad at me for not bein able
to perform well and that includes family
members. I just get scared of these
people.
My dad wants me to a machinist, but that
is something that don't think I wanna
pursue. I'm afraid if I try to resist
his demands, that I would get a yellin' of
a lifetime and I might get kicked out the
house. A problem is that I have no idea
what career I wanna pursue myself. I
find myself to be a person that isn't
interested in very much things, so that is
another factor that holds me back.
Since i'm not a very interesting person, I
have trouble talkin' to people and makin'
friends. I've lost my firends and that
is just somethin' that is on my mind
often. I just don't know what to say to
people. I remember a few weeks ago I was
talkin' to this girl I really like. I
was tryin' to be friendly to her, but all
I could do was ask stupid questions and I
didn't present myself as a fun person, so
she would rather talk to this other guy
beside us and she laughed at eveyrthing he
said while I can tell she showed no
interest in what I said.
Something that could possibly contribute
to my lack of things to say to people is
my low intelligence. Believe it or not,
but there are some words that I should've
known a long time ago that I still don't
know now. I see what people contribute
and when I compare them to myself, I see
myself as a very useless person. Their
knowledge has so much depth while I still
don't have a basic understanding of things
(like politics and lynguistics). I've
had all these years to get to that level
and i'm not blamin' anyone but myself. I
feel so spoiled because I have shelter and
get food while other people are workin'
hard but end up dyin'.
Well, I think that's everything. I hope
it wasn't too long or whiny for y'all.
Please help me with all this and I will be
grateful.
One.
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luvkittykats
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Aug 2005 Posts: 69 Location: north carolina
Posted: 06-25-06 00:06am
Bump
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Aspiration
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jun 2006 Posts: 22
Posted: 06-29-06 18:06pm
Anybody willing to help? Thanks for
bumping.
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jun 2006 Posts: 60
Posted: 06-29-06 21:19pm
I have some of the same problems too..Not
very intelligent (because of my extremly
big learning disability I guess..), don't
know what to say to either guys or women
unless it's sports but you dont go talking
all sports like to the ladys...Little to
no intrest in stuff (i tend to get
intrested in something..Then I lose
intrest, my dad gets mad because of this),
no friends, don't like sitting at home all
day but that's what i'm good at and do.
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Aspiration
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jun 2006 Posts: 22
Posted: 06-29-06 23:01pm
Yeah, I wanna actually have a life. You
know, I wanna have enough friends to love,
have a beautiful wife, be smart so I know
how to contibute to the world. I don't
wanna be a waste of space. I wanna be
able to know what path I should take and
don't let anyone dictate how I live. I
just need assistance. I need to be loved.
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johnR
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 May 2006 Posts: 229
Posted: 07-19-06 19:36pm
Aspiration you are being way too hard on
yourself. I think the way you are looking
at yourself and judging yourself are not
accurate. See if you can find a cbt group
that meets by you because it is helping me
learn to catch my thinking errors that
cause a lot of my anguish and you sound
like you are beating yourself up like I
have had a habit of doing. You clearly
know how to do plenty of things because if
you didn't how would you have gotten on
the computer and posted these notes :d
if you learn how to stop being so hard on
yourself I think you will be just fine!
