Hey girls,
today has been one of those "days" for
me....My specialist wants my mom to weigh
me every week and call her with the
results...Well my mom just weighed me(im
not supposed to see the #s) and im now 108
1/2...I am absolutely disgusted right
now...I feel fat and havent eaten a thing
all day...Im also 10.3 weeks pregnant
which I know is absolutely horrible
because im denying my child the thing
he/she needs to grow! It makes me sick,
but at the same time I feel like I cant
control it...Its taken over my life
completely and I feel like I want to
scream because im so unhappy right now. I
feel like crawling into a corner and just
crying...Im so angry right now, I know I
have to stay strong but I dont know if I
can. I didnt think 5lbs would be as hard
to deal with as it is(was 103 last week).
It feels like 20 and I am so incredibly
tempted to just shut down and not put a
thing in my mouth again...I suffer from
ana and have just recently admitted to it,
but it hasnt made the process any easier.
I don't know what to do, i'm so
disappointed in myself for looking the way
I do right now....I just want to make it
all go away!!!
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KariM18
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Posted: 01-15-04 16:40pm
Hunny.-. . . Please please eat.. Thats
all I can say. U know im coping w/ the
same issues.. But it can be done..
Remember, its not about you anymore, u
just have to keep reminding yourself of
that.. Weight gain I know is so hard to
deal with but u know it will come off when
u give birth to a hopefully healthy baby.
. But u know if it doesnt get enough food
it could have a lot of problems.. Being
as young as you are, the last thing you
need is a baby with complications. Aim
for at least 1,600 cals. .And try to make
them mostly healthy things that u feel
more comfortable with. If you love this
baby, and I know you do, you have to do it
for the baby. This should be your
motivator to get better and fast. You can
do it... Remember, it doesnt matter about
your gaining right now, because its not
just gaining fat, its gaining baby..... I
know its hard. .But u are strong and u
can do it. . Basically what I had to do
was completely forget about my hopes and
fears. .Put them behind me and only think
about the little miracle growing inside
your belly, which is bound to grow too and
its not your fault!!! Goodluck hun .
.And please go feed your baby a good
dinner ***
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