Well my boyfriend who I have not seen or
talked to in over a year messaged me
claiming I gave him hiv but that makes no
sense because I was tested twice while
pregnant and hiv never showed up and he
joined the military a couple months after
we broke up and they test you for
everything and hiv did not show up in his
blood.
I know he slept with people after me and I
think he is just assuming I gave it to him
because I have herpes.
I am just worried, I am going to get
tested and hopeing to hear I am totally
fine but then I am afraid I am going to be
told I have it.
If I do have it which me and my family
really doubt, how long will I have to
live? Is it possible to live to an old
age and die of natural causes?
I heard some music guy named johnny cash
had aids and lived to an old age.
I am just so scared because I am only 19
and I have a two year old son. He already
does not have a father and if I have hiv
and die he wont have a mother. :cry:
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AST22
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Jun 2006 Posts: 9 Location: Arizona
Posted: 06-28-06 21:38pm
Im so sorry you are having to go through
with this. The best thing I can say is to
get tested and put your mind at ease. I
once had a boyfriend and when we broke up
he claimed I gave him something. Well I
went and got tested and sure enough had
nothing. He wanted someone to blame so he
didnt look bad when others found out. I
hope and pray you dont, please keep me
informed. Make sure you tell this man if
this is a joke its very cruel and not
funny in the least bit way
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Chrissy87
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Sep 2005 Posts: 53 Location: dundalk
Posted: 06-28-06 21:48pm
I keep trying to put my mind at ease but
every now and then hiv just pops in my
head and I break into tears.
I have a son who will be two july 8th and
he already has no father and if I have hiv
I may end up dying.
All I have really been doing all day is
laying around, I tried to get out and have
fun with my son but I just couldn't and I
can not even freaking eat because I am so
worried.
I was thinking earlier today that maybe my
ex boyfriend is confusing hiv with hpv
which is warts and yes I do have that as
well. My ex boyfriend is stupid enough to
do that.
I was looking at people with hiv stories
and I have seen many where people lived to
an old age and did not even end up dying
from the hiv, they ended up dying from
natural causes.
I am not sure but I heard some singer
johnny cash had aids since he was young
and he lived to be an old man.
My family is telling me I am worrying
myself for nothing and I am trying to go
with them on it and my dad was telling me
he had a cousin who slept with a man with
aids and died but his cousin and their 3
kids never got the aids.. Another words
if he did have hiv when he slept with me
their is a chance I did not catch it.
The doctor is calling me tomorrow to set
up a counseling section, for some reason
they do counseling before doing hiv/aids
test, I guess just in case you do.
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AST22
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Jun 2006 Posts: 9 Location: Arizona
Posted: 06-28-06 22:13pm
I know its hard just try to stay calm
until you find out. I know that the
unknown is more painful than the known. I
kinda feel your pain. I am worried that I
might have cervical cancer because of a
abnormal pap. I also have hpv and havent
had the colposcopy done that I should have
in over a year due to no insurance. So
now I am jumping the gun and feel I have
cancer and am going to die. I have a
little 9 month old girl as well. Just
take it easy and dont stress yourself or
you are going to convince yourself you do
have hiv and it will ruin your life
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Chrissy87
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Sep 2005 Posts: 53 Location: dundalk
Posted: 06-28-06 22:43pm
I hope everything goes well for you.
I remember when I was told I may of had
cervical cancer. I was 17 and had just
had my son a few weeks ago but luckily it
turned out to be a false alarm. My doctor
thought I had it due to unormal papsmears
but we later found out I had two std's and
that was what was causing it.
I have been listning to music a lot
because it seems like when I listen to
music I am just in a whole nother world
and it keeps my mind off things.
I find it so cruel this would happen now,i
have finally started being happy with my
life. I have went back to school to get
my ged and I am now driving and looking
for a job and I just got a really great
boyfriend.
:cry: go figure when I start getting my
life and think nothing more bad is going
to happen,,boom here comes one of the most
terrible things ever
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Chrissy87
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Sep 2005 Posts: 53 Location: dundalk
Posted: 06-29-06 13:50pm
Well I got my test done today and I am
going to get the results back tommorow or
monday and my doctor is very sure
everything is going to be fine.
She said a lot of the same things I said.
He could be confusing hiv with hpv and if
he entered the military they would of
tested him for everything and it would of
shown up then so he had to of got it after
he entered the military.
She also said that he could of found out
he had the std I have and had got really
angry and claimed he has hiv to upset me
and scare me.
My nerves are now almost totally calm
since going to the doctors and I am very
sure I don ot have it now, I could finally
eat something today. My nerves were so a
wreck I could not eat anything.
She ended up talking to me after the blood
work but when I went for the blood work I
bursted into tears..She should of talked
to me before hand..I felt so embarrassed
crying in front of people
