I don't know what to do anymore and that
is starting to scare me. I have been to
therapist all my life because of
depression, it seems like I have had it
since about age 5 and I am 18. I have
been on all sorts of depression medication
as well and nothing helps. I have to
hide that I am depressed from all my
friends and family because they all think
I am weird because the way I feel. Im
not suicidal or anything but I have
thought about it and I am running out of
options. I had a boyfriend for a while
and I feel in love with him and when we
were together I felt the best that I ever
have and he left me and I have been
miserable ever since and it about kills me
everyday. I live with my dad and he is a
alcoholic and never even notices I exsist
most of the time. My mom is to stuck up
her new husbands ass to pay me any
attention. I was going to move away to
go to college so I could get away from
here b/c I have to see my ex all the time
and it about kills me cause I love him so
much. I cant afford to move away so I am
stuck here in this town and I hate it. I
used to be into cutting myself really bad
but I quit b/c people always wanted to
know why I had cuts all over me and it got
hard to explain. I overdosed last year
when my ex broke up with me and my heart
about quit but my sister got me to the
hospital against my will and now im still
here. I have pretty much quit eating, I
never have an appitite and so I am really
skinny and I try to eat and I can't. I
know that is not healthy.
I dont really want to die, and I don't
want yall to think I am crazy I mean this
is just a very very short version of all
the caca I go through. I am running out
of options and I feel so alone, I don't
know what to do. Someone please give me
some advice or something.
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Eagle 9
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Jul 2006 Posts: 1 Location: EAST
Posted: 07-01-06 19:52pm
I know what you feel. Now is not
forever!! I do not have alot of words,
but I want you to eat..Ok? Look up!!
Everyone has crazy stuff to deal with. We
just take it to another level, but that is
only our thinking pattern.
Start thinking something
different....Whatever you want but
different ok??
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littlesqueaks
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 May 2006 Posts: 296 Location: Caldwell, Idaho
Posted: 07-02-06 01:02am
Move on your young and alive and this time
of your life only happens once. Live life
to the fullest and forget the bad things
that go on live for yourself not everyone
around you depend on your friends alot
because they will always be there and you
will gain more in your life time. Really
if you tink about it you have just started
a new life your 18 now so your a young
adult it is time to face the world on your
own so new opportunities will come your
way and you will meet so many new people
through out going to school and work that
you won't have time to think about the
negative things keep your chin up your
about to enter a whole new rehlm of fun
and excitement just get out there and
enjoy every new opportuinity in your young
life, "open new doors," take baby steps
though so that you may protect your heart,
for girls it is very easy to open our
hearts and let ones in that could easely
hurt us so make sure you can really trust
someone before letting them in. One thing
women need to have and have the right to
have is strong shoulders so be strong and
don't be affraid to wipe some of the
weight that you carry on your shoulders
off. I hope that I helped some and if you
ever just need to talk to someone I am a
adult women that went through alot of what
you are going through when I was younger
and it wasn't until I was 26 that I took
this advice that I just gave you to heart
so you can pm me anytime because this is
one subject that I reallly like to talk
about and am going through phsycology
classes to become a councelor. I will
listen and I also hope to help.
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johnR
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 May 2006 Posts: 229
Posted: 07-19-06 19:29pm
I think if you can get away and go to
college that would help you a lot and they
would probably have good counseling
services through the college's health
center. I am in a cbt group where I am
learning to help myself through the use of
coping strategies. There is an exercise
in the book we are using called a tea form
where you identify thinking errors and
counter them and it has already helped me
more than any of therapy or drugs I have
taken. Any help is better than none so I
hope you find some soon and or have
friends you can lean on until you find
something to help you out. Just remember
things can and will get better for you;
losing hope is the worst! I almost lost
mine several times and things are finally
starting to come together for me when I
least expected it.
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