Hi..Im a 19 year old male. Looking back
at life, I realize I acted like I was gay
without realizing it. In grade 8 I had
virtually no guy friends, but plenty of
friends who were girls... And yet I never
really attempted to do any with any of
them even tho they were attractive. I
wonder was it because I was to nervous, to
immature or perhaps gay.
I played piano as a kid and as I got into
high school I was always involved in band,
and choir. I told myself I did choir
because there was nothing but girls.. But
maybe I was showing homosexual tendencies.
Ive always felt like I was different from
all the other guys, but I thought I was
more mature and down to earth. They were
always suckers to the girls... I tried to
be the nice guy. In high school I was
always afraid to get beat up even though
im a pretty big guy, I wasnt very
aggressive, but I was very health
questiony like a girl. Ive been attracted
to girls before, but it seems I would
desperately liek a girl, until she liked
me.. Then I wouldnt like her any more and
move on to the next one. Ive been in 4
situations where the intention has been to
have intercourse, and in each, there has
been an erection prollem that has made it
impossible.. I get semi hard, enough for
maybe oral but not for satisfying
penetration.. I always had excuses for
these times ie.. Ive had to much to
drink. When I masterbate I think of
women, I look at women in porn, but I am
into anal with women, which leads me to
believe that my true interest is anal with
men, anyways.. Sory for the long post...
Any insight would be appreciated
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cyn
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Nov 2005 Posts: 87
Posted: 08-26-06 03:06am
Have you ever tryied anything with a guy?
Are you attracted to them? I have an
idea...Have you ever heard of manga?!
Well its a japanese graphic art book...I
know this pri sounds redickulous, but look
into. There are different types...(sexual
type) one is yuri...Witch is girl on
girl...The second (my fav) is yaoi guy on
guy(fake,gravition,only the ring finger
knows, and wild rock are the best in my
opinion)hentai witch is basicly just sexy
with girl on guy or kinky stuff(most is
not my thing....Alians is when I just draw
the damn line!) dont be shy to try
it...I'm a girl and i'm getting married to
a man(he rocks my kitty!) but I do
fanisize of being in a sexual relationship
with a female... I love girls...I always
have... Well I hope you find what your
looking for!Dont let life wait for you
cause it wont!
