About 3 months ago, I miscarried. It was
very early, but ever since i've found
myself really upset and stressed. I
noticed the other day, my eating habits
are messed up, and I didn't have any clue
that I was changing them. But this month,
I just had a pregnancy scare, and was glad
when my period came, I just cant
understand my mind right now, i'm going
craaaazyyyy. Sigh- thanks for letting me
rant... I'm just going nutso, i'm under
so much stress right now.
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Jules
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Joined: 19 Aug 2006 Posts: 3752 Location: Merrie Englande, UK
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Posted: 08-31-06 11:55am
Hello lovey, I don't think you're going
nutso, you're just recovering from a
really stressful experience. Even though
you were only early on in your pregnancy,
you have still lost your baby and that is
bound to affect you! Was your pregnancy
a planned one? In any case, I can
understand why you were relieved when your
period came. Even if you are trying to
get pregnant, realising you are not means
you don't have to worry about miscarrying
again.
Have you tried posting on the
'miscarriage/stillbirth' board? There
will be ladies there who have gone through
the same thing as you.
Best of luck, go easy on yourself. It
wasn't your fault.
X
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sometimesiwonder
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Joined: 30 Aug 2006 Posts: 16
Posted: 08-31-06 11:59am
It wasn't planned, and I wasn't even sure
if I wa going to keep it, or give it up
for adoption. I honest had just found out
about it...Then just found out that I had
lost it, it was in sequence,one right
after another. It just kills me I didn't
have the choice of wether I wanted to keep
it to give it up... I still would've been
able to see the life I created. Now I can
never have my first child, I feel like
that's always going to be empty..
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sandyallen
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Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 08-31-06 12:14pm
I am sorry for your lost! I understand
what you are going through, I myself had 2
it seems like something you never get over
but then you do realize that you must go
on and their are times that things happen
for a reason although we may never know
why. You do need your grieving time but
then you have to tell yourself that it is
not my fault and I must move on or at
least that is what that is what I had to
do and it was not easy, I was the same way
for awhile, I could not eat and did not
care about much.
My thoughts are with you!
Take care!
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Jules
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Joined: 19 Aug 2006 Posts: 3752 Location: Merrie Englande, UK
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Posted: 08-31-06 13:02pm
There will always be a special place in
your heart for the child you lost but you
won't always feel empty. Let yourself
grieve. I hope you don't feel guilty
about your baby passing away; I like to
think they are just too special for this
life.
