Permanent Panic/anxiety From Marijuana? Please Answer Posted: 09-15-06 20:39pm
First off I want to say that marijuana
isn't the devil, if used properly and
under control.
I chosed to be a "addict" I wasn't
addicted to it the way I am from
cigarettes and other people to other
drugs...
For me it all started right before I
turned 15, a friend introduced me to
marijuana, the first 2-3times I smoked it,
I had no problem whatsoever, I didn't even
feel high.
Ofcourse this is completely normal.
Then the 4th time, I smoked more and I
guess my body was ready to "accept" the
high.
It hit me like a thousand pounds, I was so
high, I didn't even realize what was going
on. I remember being terrifyed and
having all these images rushing through my
head.
Everything felt so weird and foreign, even
though I was in a secure and well known
environment.
I guess this was a panic attack, I
accepted it as me just being scared of the
high, the next times I smoked I had
nothing like this and I got completely
inlove with this herb.
My life was falling apart in every
direction with parents, girlfriend, school
and other personal things, I needed
something to escape through.
I turned 15, and started smoking
seriously, there wasn't room or time for
anything else in my life, this was the
only thing I wanted.
I gave up friends, food, school and
everything.
People will tell you smoking a joint a day
is way too much, well I smoked 20 joints
everyday.
When I woke up, I had already rolled a
joint ready to smoke the night before, so
I could get high before I got out of bed,
take a shower, and smoke some more 'til
night when I passed out from smoking so
much.
I probably consumed around 3 grams a day
everyday for 2 years.
Then for the first time I didn't have any
for 2 days, this was going fine, no
craving or abstinence at all, like I said,
I chosed to do this 100% on my own, I
wasn't "addicted" like you get from
cigarettes, I just wanted to escape
through this high.
Then after the 2 days I smoked again, and
was struck with a panic attack so bad it
left me shaking on the floor for hours
thinking I was dying.
After that I had fullblown panic attacks
10 times a day for 6months.
Everyone who's had a panic attack knows
there nothing in this world more
terrifying than that. It's like sitting
on a plane and hear the pilot scream on
the speakers were going down.
The world started looking weird, I was
depersonalized/derealized for months.
I know this is psychological and the more
u think of it, the worse it gets.
I managed to get "over it" on my own and
didn't have more panic attacks for
2-3months.
Then I started having these panic attacks
popping out from nowhere, manifesting me,
leaving me in incredible panic and fear
again, also felt a little depersonalized
and derealized.
It happens only maybe twice a week, but it
keeps me from getting a education, and
experiencing things.
I rarely go out in fear of having a panic
attack, which I often get if i'm away from
home for more than 20 minutes, I don't
feel safe. Like the world has changed,
even if it is the same:p
i know this sounds completely nuts, but
it's the truth.
I need someone who's experienced something
similar and got through it and got their
life back.
Please, someone answer me.
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mrwhat
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Sep 2006 Posts: 17
Posted: 09-17-06 15:16pm
Any one?
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mitch7654
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Dec 2005 Posts: 170
Posted: 09-17-06 20:54pm
Hey whats up man. My story is pretty much
the same as you with a couple of different
turns. I smoked about as much as you
started when I was like 12 then about at
13-14 started everyday the more I smoked
the more it was too gettting high was
fun.
I can relate too as the first couple of
times not getting high then getting real
high lol what a trip.
Neways I quit smoking aftre a bad trip and
as u say acouple of days aftre I had a
sober bad trip that freaked me out I dint
what was anxitey attacks.
I struggled for months eith dp the world
was so strange.
It went away after a while but still would
get them like once a month and I remained
axious about my health for the next 7
years.
Then I sarted getting them again but worse
100 worse everyday and still to this day I
have troubles getting out sometimes.
Its gettting better with a little therapy
and talking to people and not being
afraid. You can get better too dude.
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Longball13
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Sep 2006 Posts: 5
Posted: 09-19-06 10:28am
Hey dude what's up.. I'm 20 years old and
i've basically experienced what you're
going through, maybe mine was even a
little worse. I'm sure you can get your
life back and you're probably not as bad
as you think are. You just can't give
up.
Let me start by telling you some things
about myself. I was an only child, I had
a lot of friends, and I wasn't a loser, my
parents were really passive, I still love
them, but they were stille really passive,
I never got "a talk" from my parents. My
girlfriend and I broke up after 2 years of
a serious relationship, and I was alone at
a new school, my life wasn't horrible, not
by any means.. I just smoked weed for the
heck of it really.. Sometimes i'd smoke
for fun and other times i'd smoke to take
my mind off the things that got me down..
I started smoking daily, more and more
as time went on, for about 9 months. I
was smoking the dank too.. 60-70$ an 8th
shipped in from pennsylvania. I smoked
every day for 9 months.. Sometimes with
friends and sometimes by myself. Then
one day something just sort of happened
out of nowhere, I began having anxiety
attacks at night. They were terrible..
I would get paranoid about the littlest
things and overanalyze things and my mind
would just race.. It was bad. I then
realized that this was probably happening
because of weed.. So I decided to quit..
100% on my own, with an "i don't want to
do this caca anymore" attitude.
Things were bad at the time.. Especially
when I quit.. They weren't right away but
as a few weeks passed and then months.. I
started experiencing slight depression and
anxiety and depersonalization, where I
would be very anti-social and very anxious
around everyone, even my parents.. There
was a point where I didn't want to leave
the house, I was like that for about a
week. I had problems with stuttering and
would get confused with words.. Yeah..
It sucked..
I've talked to a few counselors and my
parents and a few friends about what I
went through, and was going through.. And
they all basicallly said the same things..
Some of it helped.. Some things that
helped me the most were talking to people
you can trust about it.. I'm not saying
spill everything at their feet on every
conversation.. But find someone you can
trust.. And sort of free your soul.. Get
it all off your chest. If you find
someone you can trust they will try and
help you, they may not act like they want
to hear it, but they'll understand. So
talk to a few people about it and it will
help, another thing is it's going to take
time, mentally and physically, you're
body's not use to being weed free.. So be
patient, take your time with things..
Learn to relax.. If you have an anxiety
attack or feel one coming on.. Take a
deep breath.. And slow down and talk to
yourself calmly.. :: on a side note I had
an anxiety attack last night.. Out of
nowhere, I hadn't had one in about 2
months.. The first thoughts I thought
were.. "this is stupid.. I'm not even
worrying about anything why is this
happening." so I got up and did some
laundry and cleaned up my room a little
bit and layed back down and fell asleep in
5 minutes.. Learn to relax in a stressful
situation, but don't avoid them or be
afraid to put yourself in one.
The jist of it is it probably is in your
head, you just need to focus on life
rather than your problems.. Some things
you can do for that is to hang out with
friends, study, help out a friend, start a
conversation.. Just do things that help
take your mind off your anxiety.. I
would recomend staying away from drugs and
alcohol for a while too.. Yeah your
friends might give you the rasberries and
call you a puss, but you gotta do what you
gotta do man.. Hang around comfortable
and confident people, have fun.. One big
thing for me was I stopped getting on the
internet and reading about anxiety.. That
was a big one for me.. Just try not to
think that you have anxiety.. And you'll
be suprised.. "if a man thinks he is,
then he probably is." a great quote and so
true..
You'll be fine dude.. Hope this helps
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Lamb Rack
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Sep 2006 Posts: 2
Posted: 09-20-06 20:33pm
G'day
i am going through the same caca at the
moment I am 5 months into quitting and
still have bad anxiety but the worst of it
is over. My main problem is that I am
hgaving trouble sleeping. I am 26 and was
smoking for aboout 10 years everyday.
The best advice I can give you is to do
some exercise daily and stay of drugs and
alchohol for a few months. Drinking was
the worst for me it would almost definitly
trigger a panic attack the next day after
a big night out.
It will take a fair while to get better
mentally so dont worry if you still feel
like caca a few months after you quit.
All the best
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mrwhat
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Sep 2006 Posts: 17
Posted: 09-24-06 18:38pm
Thanks for all the responds, helps a
lot.
Anyone of you ever worried that you was
turning crazy? Like schizo or
something?
I've been worrying about this for months
and I can't shake the thought of it from
my head
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Longball13
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Sep 2006 Posts: 5
Posted: 09-25-06 11:23am
Hey I have experienced that as well, it
eventually went away. Don't let your
worries keep you from doing daily things.
Like the person above said stay off drugs
and alcohol because they can trigger
anxiety. I thought I was a schizo
sociopath you name it for a while and it
kept me from going out. The more you go
out and do simple things the less time you
have to worry about it. It's gonna take
time but you will eventually get better if
you take care of yourself and do things
right.
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mrwhat
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Sep 2006 Posts: 17
Posted: 09-26-06 14:45pm
Eventhough i've heard it from a few other
people on other boards and with
conversations with doctors etc. That
going schizophrenic etc. Is a common fear
from panic it still feels incredible to
hear it here too.
I've been obsessed with the thought of
going schizophrenic the last year, and by
reading about all the symptoms I feel I
get more n more of them.
The "reefer madness, marijuana triggers
schizo" isn't really helping my cause as
my panic was triggerd by marijuana.
So how long did it take for you to
convince yourself you were normal and
regain your life?
Thanks so much, it's really helping.
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swoz
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Sep 2006 Posts: 9
Posted: 09-28-06 15:47pm
Yea m8 I think I am going skits to. But
my mum n dad both got shicophrenia or
somthing so I kinda got a excuse but then
again it all start after I start smoking
canabis, first I thought it was the
canabis to but then I stoped n now feeling
worse than eva b4 and I keep getting panic
attacks and everything to.
Worst feeling in the world aint they,
expecailly when your doing loads of stuff
in tht day n ave a panic attack while in a
class, starts u rite up n everytime u go
into a class u get scared of getting 1
then u get 1
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mrwhat
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Sep 2006 Posts: 17
Posted: 09-29-06 23:13pm
Yeah I kno exactly what you mean man.
But I can't go schizo, my life can't be
over already....
I deny it...
U got msn?
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swoz
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Sep 2006 Posts: 9
Posted: 09-30-06 01:28am
Nah dnt think am going skits accully n I
dnt think your going tht 2, all am gunna
do is try n wait n c if it passes. Just
get on with me normal life and try n
forget bout it.
I just came on here to see exactly what I
did have and if it wa anxiety and does it
last forever. Its probably worse for you
seen as u smoked longer than me but if
your going thro the same thing then I dont
think were going skits.
Also I found weird I do accully match
symtoms of shicophrenia and anxiety. But
as I also read somwere anxiety can also
mimik or somthing your worst fears
Last edited by swoz on 10-01-06 10:04am; edited 1 time in total
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swoz
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Sep 2006 Posts: 9
Posted: 09-30-06 01:34am
Oo and I forgot to add thts probably why I
thought I had cancer once. Was having a
heart attack b4, wen sum1 said bout a
broken leg I evan thought I had tht 2. I
am only 17, workout everyday (unless I
have a anxiety attack or wot eva its
called at the gym which has happend
several times then I will stop going for a
few days but as soon as I go back I start
feeling great again.
One advice thats helping me is working
out. Doing cv work, but dnt over do
becuase that will make worse. Tea makes
it worse, alcohol does 2.
That the same for u??
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Soni-Token
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Sep 2006 Posts: 1 Location: TX
Anxiety & Stress Posted: 09-30-06 04:51am
I don't care what drug it is! Once you
start u are never the same. Perspectives
seems to blossom & the world is your
oyster! That may seem all fine &
dandy with whatever you are game to keep
track of or focus on at the time but you
lose reality. If not so then why such
chaos with life & the family even more
so if you are the black sheep to begin
with. Things fall apart but they are not
as important than cash for the next bag or
the next sale so your stuff is free. So
you think. Over time control is so far
out of reach. Why not panic. Why not the
desperation. Is it not natural for us to
want control. As children we did the
same. Our strut & passive faux
reality dictated the differ. Then a
moment. The moment. It is different for
each, but the same. The depth is not
measured by feet beneath the feet, but by
your moral code. How deep that runs
varies. A heart attack to some may be a
chip on the shoulder to others. You may
find yourself testing how many hits can
you take before finding yourself in a
fetal position praying to god. You may
not. I did. I am a result of my drug
abuse. I can blame no other but me. I am
not the same as the person who saw a joint
for the first time. I stole, I lied etc,
etc to get "high". Afraid? Always. That
is the price I pay. We never see the
price till its time to pay. It is paying
we do not understand. It is paying that I
am afraid of. To admit to. To be
responsible for. I put the joint to my
mouth. I rolled my first joint. "no"
will always be an option. It's power!
May not be seen at that moment, but now
"no" is so strong! I wonder how my life
would, lets say flex, in this world if I
said "no". I am getting better at facing
my fears. That is the reality of it.
Indeed! Think of of who or the situations
you influenced then. Seriously! It will
hurt your heart. Do not be afraid! Share
your story. Keep others from our path.
It may not be right away, but at some
point what you say will make sense to
someone. It will.
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swoz
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Sep 2006 Posts: 9
Posted: 10-01-06 10:56am
Ermm I think your a bit wrong becuase I no
a lot of people that come out of drugs
fine just had trouble quitting, just some
of us come out with a mental problem,
there the ones u hear about. Also I bet u
could find a accual diagonise for your
difficultys u experiencing just first
reaction is that its the drug.
I have found a few sites about anixety
that may help
