Hey ladies.
Boy oh boy, tonight was not my night.
Things are stressful in my house-
very stressful.
My sister has a number of physchological disorders,
&it's extremely trying &stressful on our whole family.
&.Both my parents are alcoholics.
Add in a jobless 20 year old who is pregnant,
&you've got a recipe for disaster.
Just a little background- .I have extreme anxiety disorder.
Well. Tonight, my sister had one of her mental breakdowns.
Where she screams, throws things, curses, gets very violent, etc.
Well, .Chris was over, &my bitterly angry father was also home.
Things got way out of hand, &to make a long story short,
.I was extremely distressed &trying to be civil,
.Chris &my sister were going at it big time,
&my dad up &walked out.
&.For the first time in months &months &months...
I had a panic attack. Yay!
.It was the worst one .I've ever had.
I collapsed in my front hall &sat there hypervenilating for about 15 minutes. My arms, legs, &my face were all tingly &numb. It was so horrible. When .I collapsed, .I had enough sense to fall onto my knees, though.
But .Chris is really worried, he's never seen me have one before. I'm going to call my doctor in the morning, to tell her what happened, &to make sure they aren't worried about it or anything. But .Chris is like "well shouldn't we take you to the emergency room!?" &.I really don't think it's necessary.
What do you guys think?
I don't want to go through the hassle of
running to the .E.R if .I don't need to.
Which .I don't think .I do.
I know panic attacks are harmless.
But .Chris is all cute &concerned
&worried about the baby.
(.I'm 19 &a half weeks, now).
Oh, &ps.. I'm ok, now!
Things have calmed down.