Joined: 28 Oct 2006 Posts: 2 Location: oxfordshire
Help Whats Wrong With Me? Posted: 11-04-06 18:41pm
Since I was about 12-13 I started lying.
Lying about everything. Big and small. I
told people everything from the fact I had
a twin brother, my dad had died to little
things like what I had for dinner. People
say its easy and I should just stop but I
find it really hard. I dont do it with
any malice at all I dont sit and plan it
it just happens. I hate being like this.
I always no what im saying is a lie but I
know on a different level first and
formost in my mind is that its true. I
live speak and breath the lie. I told my
boyfriend that my dad and brother died I
believed this so much that I would have
nightmare every night and scream out there
names in my sleep. Like I said I no that
there all lies but that fact gets buried
deep inside me just a passing thought and
the lie becomes real. Its really hard to
explain. These lies have ruined my life
ive hurt everyone I no ive lost all my
friends my children the only member of my
family that talks to me is my dad and I
almost lost my boyfriend. He said hes
going to stick by me till im better.
Please what is wrong with me I need help I
need to no whats wrong with me. Also can
you tell me what to do about depression
obviously I feel alienated at the moment
and its making me very depressed I even
tried to commit suicide once what should I
do about this
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Fairy*Godmother
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Go For Professional Help Posted: 11-04-06 20:45pm
This is something you are not going to be
able to do alone. You are going to have
to have professional help in order to get
your life together. You stated you have
been telling lies from a very young age
and these lies have progressed to the
stage you actually believe them. This is
not a healthy mind thing! Telling a lie
can actually be a cry for help or a cry
for the need to be recognized. Depression
will not get any better either without
help. Not srue where you are, but here in
hte us there are several places a person
can go for psychological help. Its not
anything you need to feel ashamed about,
you have cried out for help here! Thats
the first step.......Admitting you have a
problem. I hope you find your answers!
