I have been in recovery for
anorexia-purging type for 4 years now.
Four long years, too long if you ask me or
anyone who knows me. And i'm not better.
I do well for awhile and then the
depression gets worse and I plummet again.
And i'm sick of it. I just want to
live a normal life, and finish school and
work. But this interferes with all my
plans. I know i'm never going to
completely recover and i'm sick to death
of being in therapy. Maybe recover isn't
an option for me. Maybe I just need to
learn to live with it until it kills me.
Because I know that is ultimately what is
going to happen.
I don't know what my purpose is for
writing this. I just think maybe
recovery doesn't work for everyone, not in
the traditional sense anyway. Maybe some
people get better on their own. Or maybe
it's just their death sentence and there's
no way to fight it. I don't want to do
all this recovery stuff. It's too much
work and it's useless.
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 11-29-06 19:22pm
I can agree with you when you say recovery
isnt for everyone since my older sister
has been recovery for years now and she is
no where reaching the goal, but maybe it
is fate for some people to die, but do you
really want to let this win? Dont get on
your death bed just yet, I recovered from
anorexia not by doctors, I know it may be
weird to say it but I had adopt a cat
which was there through the beginning of
it and to the end, it all stop when I just
watched her die instantly, watching her
die brought me to my senses and realized I
most stop, maybe you just need to find
something soo special that will bring you
comfort and hope, im not saying your
special thing or person or animal has to
die for you to realize it, but im saying
if you find the right support you'll make
it, dont give up just yet!
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