Ok, right now, I have no one to turn to,
for the moment. I grew up as a loner,
kind of homeschooled and such, never had
much contact with girls so we left
socially awkward, yes, big deal, this
isn't the problem i'm facing. I was still
a virgin at twenty.
I was always looking at porn and reading
erotica, the usual from what I understand.
Masturbating once a day really with some
days of none or periods of none due to
family being around for the holidays as
well as some days where I woke up with
wood and would crank one out and then
would be up late enough that night to want
to do such a second time. Big deal,
right?
So, I guess, what I am getting at is , I
was kind of desperate. I had never gotten
head. Always hear about people with their
girl friends and how much of a loser
someone is if they don't have a girl
friend, all that. I suppose you may have
an idea where this is going, and yes, its
not good.
I was in the city about a month ago, on my
own. I have a car, I am an adult. I met
a girl who seemed rather slutty, she
wanted to give me head and was sort of
leading the way, I normally medical
question things up with girls so I was
kind of like thank god finaly!
I wasn't thinking. She assured me she was
'clean', but, I have no way of knowing.
She was getting annoyed that I was worried
about condoms and such, but, said she
would just give me head, and, oral has
like "no chance of passing on anything
anyways". I was hormonally thinking. Let
my dick and fantasies take me about.
Five minutes in, she changes her mind.
She is annoyed with me that I am not
"quick", I tell her it takes me a while
when I masterbate and such, and, she is
suddenly disinterested in the activity
(what ever, no blow to my self esteem). I
don't really care about it because I
didn't really want to be in this situation
with her, the sheer thought of stds was
making me want to stop asap anyways.
I never saw her again. This was, well
before thanks giving. Maybe the final day
in october? 30 days ago? Ish?
Everything was fine. I went home, washed
my dick off asap. Slammed my head against
a wall wishing i'd never done that. And
got a bit worried but forgot about it in a
day or two.
Time went by. Things were normal. No
worries. I jerked off. I watched tv.
Everything was fine.
About, 2 weeks ago, I felt, a sudden wave
of panic. Impossible to describe really,
it is like a "feeling' of fear, not in my
head, not a fear so to say, but, I felt it
in my lower body and in my genitals and in
my whole body. It flashed through me a
few times and I began thinking maybe I was
having a panic attack? Who knows!
It stopped, it happened again a few days
later, and then a few days after that.
Now, it is happening all the time, but,
the feeling is limited to my groin area!
It was at this point that I began to
seriously consider maybe I have contracted
an std from this female. Two days ago, I
woke up, and from the time I woke up till
the time I went to bed my balls and the
inner shaft of my penis have had this
tingly fear-like feeling in them. It
scares the medical question out of me. I
have no idea what it is.
The feeling sometimes shifts, to where
ever I think. It may be stress related,
i've tried not thinking about it, and I
cannot tell if taht works or if I am just
zoning out of my senses completely. The
second I think "aha! It has gone away!" I
feel it again much worse than before.
There is no pain. No pain at all. No
discharges. No itching. No burning. No
warts. None of that. It is just this
feeling in my testicles that runs up and
down then stays in one spot and then moves
around again.
My god. It scares the medical question
out of me. I didn't even want to be
there! I don't even know who she was!
Today, it has happened all day long. No
breaks. Not one. I feel very very very
stressed. My hands are even shaking I am
so worried about it. I don't want to tell
my mother who I live with that I think I
have contracted an std or something!.....
what!!!
Today I began researching, the second I
typed in genital tingling about five
million pages on herpes popped up. My
god! I don't want to read any more! It
makes me more nervous, more stressed!
Makes me think of it even more!
Herpes seems to be all about warts and
discharges and pain, this isn't pain. So,
I sort of keep myself assured that "it
can't be herpes.... It can't be...."
i look for other things, I find some
bacteria that is curable named "ngu" -- it
sounds like what i'm having, I mean, I
have this terrible fear tingle running up
and down my dick and body... Though, it
could have been stress to? Can anyone
here verify information on ngu to see if
it applies? I tell myself -- like herpes,
ngu relies on discharges and pain and
irritation and burning when pissing, I
only have one symptom really!
I also found chlamydia which is the same
as ngu but only a virus I support, also
curable. This one scares the caca out of
me but I tell myself again and again --
its only tingling! Nothing else! These
symptoms don't apply to me!!!!!!!
Still worried, not satisfied with my self
assurances, i've contacted an std hotline
for my local area and scheduled a
free-test for thursday morning. God. It
seems like it will be years before
thursday.... On top of that, they've
informed me that it will take one week to
get the results back... One week!!!!!!!
My god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Really, what the medical question! I am
going to get my doing it dick removed when
this is over, std or no std! I am so
doing it worried about this. The stress.
I cannot think! I cannot think I cannot
think I cannot think! I even threw up
today after making the phonecalls and
scheduling the appointments.
I tried sleeping after being awake for 18
hours, no cigar. I end up repositioning
myself trying to "not think about it" the
second I succeed I say 'ahaah! Its gone!
I can relax!" and then a wave of the
tingles hits me.... My god. I am so
scared. I do not want to be some gross
disgusting filthy doing it piece of caca
with some doing it gross virus that never
goes away.
Of all of the ones i've read about, two
are curable, one is not. That gives me...
Some hope... It also has a slim chance
of being stress. Which, I doubt... I am
doing it scared.
It feels like guilt. It feels like fear.
But it also tingles.
Lastly.... If it makes any difference...
I woke up this morning without the
tingles. A few horus went by, I was so
relieved, I started surfing the web and
jacked off, then, imidiately after, it
made me think of yesterday and all the
other days, I began worrying about it,
then, they started up and went on and on
and on. I'm trying to sleep right now,
can't, so I came on here and found this
forum.
This won't effect my decision to go get
tested. I am getting tested, trust me, I
don't care what the medical question you
say, I just want to hear what you think.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-05-06 22:11pm
Update:
symptoms:
stress / fear / guilt
tingle in balls / shaft
inability to become erect, my penis has
nearly shriveled. Very tight
problem:
don't want to tell parents
want to talk to a doctor immidiately, but
have no health insurance and would need to
talk to parents first!!!!!!!!!!!
What i've done so far:
i've scheduled an std test for thursday
morning
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maia
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Sep 2006 Posts: 49
Posted: 12-05-06 23:07pm
Doesn't your city have a free clinic of
some kind? It could be a mental thing,
maybe. I don't know. But if there is a
free clinic or maybe even the state health
department, they will help you with
counseling.
I don't mean just the kind of free clinics
for birth control/ std meds .. There are
many that help with every type of medical
necessity.
You do need to see a doctor though,
preferably your family physician, but if
that can't happen then you need to see
someone.
Or lie and tell your parents that you
think you have a bladder infection or
something and go see a doctor... I doubt
that your parents will come in the exam
room with you, so they'll only see the
bill and that doesn't include details.
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Kia
Supporter
Joined: 23 Jun 2004 Posts: 6594 Location: Planet Tampaxia,
Posted: 12-06-06 08:19am
First let's get somethings straight...
You did not have sexual contact with her
genitals?
The only sexual contact was your penis and
her mouth?
Ok so now we have ruled out the
probability of most sexual transmtted
diseases.
There is a greater likely hood of you
giving her a disease in this instance as
she is the one in contact with your sexual
fluids.
But let's assume your cleanness.
There is a remote (and I mean remote)
chance of passing on hiv, but you would
have needed to take on a substantial
amount of her saliva or blood.
The greatest possibility of this would be
if she had cuts in her mouth that were
bleeding and she bit your penis allowing
her blood to pass into yours.
(see - very remote - you'd have noticed if
she bit you and you'd have mentioned
it).
Also hiv isn't commonly indicated by
"tingling genitals".
Ok so lets look at the next possibility.
Herpes.
For her to give you herpes she would have
had to have oral herpes (remember the only
contact was your penis to her mouth). Did
she have any visible cold sores on her
lips?
Add to that, that herpes typically breaks
out within 21 days of infection.
Symptoms of herpes are blisters on the
head of the penis/foreskin and possibily
the shaft (they can spread though the
genital area) and trust me you would
notice these little sore blisters.
So, I conclude that in all likelyhood you
are suffering from guilt, panic, anxiety,
type effects.
To be sure you can go to your nearest gu
clinic (look in the phonebook) or similar
(ring your local hospital and ask where
the nearest one is).
You should be able to go anonymously. You
don't have to tell your parents (thought
you said you were an adult??? Were a
virgin at 20 implies you are over 20???)
and get tested for sexual diseases to put
your mind at ease.
Request that you be tested for hiv, hsv
(herpes simplex virus) and hpv (human
papiloma virus - genital warts) as well as
chlamidya, gonnorhea, etc.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-06-06 11:09am
Thank you so much for the replies even if
they don't clear things up. The only
contact I had with her, or anyone, in my
entire life was her mouth on my dick. I
am twenty years old, still a virgin, have
only gotten head, from her, one time,
about a month ago. The reason I would
likely talk to my parents is because I am
not financially independant -- I am
starting to goto college just now, and, I
live with them. My mother is a nurse for
labor and delivery.
I cannot be sure, but, she went on for
about five to ten minutes with no sign of
me cumming soon, so she ended it. After
very introspective analysis, i've found
the feeling of discomfort / panic / tingle
is almost exclusively in the following
areas: right testicle, right vast
deferens, right kidney, right-side of
penile shaft, and the bladder. I feel a,
"wavey" feeling of discomfert that focuses
on one area and then shifts around to
another always staying within the areas I
listed above. I can palpate my lower
abdomen and feel the different parts of
either side, one side feels perfectlly
normal, responds to my touch perfectly
normal, the other has this "discomfort"...
All of this is internal, none of it is on
the skin.
When this is over, if this ever ends, if I
am cured, if it goes away, if it is some
virus that I will have forever, I am going
to be abstinant for the rest of my life.
I do not need a partner. I do not need
"someone". I've been alone all my life
and am seeking a career that promotes a
loner lifestyle. This has so far been the
scarriest event in my life. Even if this
is some how not an std and just a urinary
tract infection -- simply reading these
forums and all the internet material on
stds has scared the caca out of me!
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-06-06 11:20am
Mentally, I feel so disgusting. I feel
nervous. I feel scared. I am worried. I
feel guilty. It is like a very very
strong and bad guilt. It makes me hate
myself. Why would I be so stupid? Why
would I act on hormonal thinking and not
use my doing it brain? I doing it do not
even care for sex, I consider myself
asexual but capable of pleasure, I just
wanted to see what it was like to be blown
and she was practically forcing the offer
on me!
I am such a healthy person in real life.
Maybe not socially. I am pursueing a
career as a male nurse, I eat only foods
recommended by the american heart
association becuase there is a history of
bad hearts in my family, I exercise in a
systematic way rather than a contact sport
or anything prone to injury. I read alot
of books. I love to read. I normally
feel as if people in a social situation
are only comfortable with me if I "act"
dumb rather than try to engage in
intellectual conversations. This makes me
feel as if i'm an intelligent and healthy
well thought out being.
This feeling, this event, this is the most
disturbing, most disgusting thing i've
ever experienced. These past three days
have me almost pulling my hair out. I
just want it to be over! I want it to be
done with!
I can't help but think everyone reading
this thinks I am a disgusting horrible
person. I hate myself right now. I think
she may have even done this deliberately,
she practically did not allow me to say
no, and, I am a male, so, if I am
hormonally thinking then my will power is
almost non existent. I hate my dick, but,
I hate this feeling more!
i tried to take a picture and edit it.
The areas spraypainted in lime green are
the areas that I feel this in. I tried
to draw in a set of ribs and hips and an
outline of the penis so you know exactly
what is what and where it is. I then
outlined the "generally effected regions"
in a dark green.
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Kia
Supporter
Joined: 23 Jun 2004 Posts: 6594 Location: Planet Tampaxia,
Posted: 12-06-06 11:45am
Ok viruses do not affect only one side of
the body.
It's possible that you (coincidentally)
have a kidney infection on the right hand
side or something, but without being the
doctor that examines you there is no way
for anyone to say 100%.
I think your risk of any sexual disease is
negligable to be honest. And that this is
more psychological based on your sexual
fears and anxiety.
Go to your doctor for a general health
check, just in case it is a kidney
infection or something like that, a then
you can tell the doctor at the time you
have fears of an std (i really don't think
this is your case though), your doctor can
not tell your parents anything without
your consent - if that's what your fear
is.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-06-06 12:27pm
I'm not on anyone's health insurance at
the moment. This is why i'd have to tell
my parents. The idea is, since I am not
yet a full time student (have only just
taken placement testing and such and am
awaiting orientation) that I am not
legally on their health insurance.
About 4 months ago I dislocated my ankle
and ripped three tendons -- also on my
right side coincidentally (damn that sides
luck!). Instead of going for a checkup or
going to a doctor, I had my ankle
inspected by my brother who is a do and my
sister who is a phd and then my mother who
is an rn -- they set me up with pain
killers and a wrap as well as all the
proper instructions and information for
how long not to walk on it and such. The
reason we didn't just goto a doctor was
because I didn't have health coverage and
the family more or less knows the drill
for tehse procedures anyways. At present,
i've been trying to push for a doctors
apointment regardless of costs and saying
I will pay them while I go to school
because the tendons are taking a long time
to heal and such is painful even when
doing something as simple as just pushing
the gas pedal.
I was so fed up with this moments ago that
I decided to just explain the story to
her. She has gotten me a prescription of
nitrofurantoin-macro antibiotics, she
thinks it is a bacterial "urinary tract
infection" -- although, there is no
problem when urinating, there is no
burning sensation when I pee and this
feeling isn't really one where I feel I
must urinate at all times, so, I am not
comforted nor convinced by this pill
alone.
I scheduled a test for stds for tomorrow
morning at 830 am. I intend to go
anyways. Best case scenario they simply
tell me I have nothing wrong and that it
is probably a uti as well -- and then I
have peace at mind.
If it turns out to be nothing, i, am still
never ever touching another human being
again. I will never forgive myself for
not running for the hills. Reading all
the material online when you try to
self-diagnose has made me absolutely
despise the idea of sex in its entirety.
Sorry folks! My hand is good enough!
Reading the stories people have posted
also disturbs me. I don't want kids! I
don't want diseases! I don't want sex!
Please god. Forgive me. Please please
please please please. Let this just be a
curable bacteria. Please let this pill
cure it. Please make me shrug and laugh
at this a month from now. Please please
please. I love my life. I love the
future I am working towards. Please god.
Please not me. Please no one.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-06-06 12:44pm
Kia b, when this is over, when I find out
what it is or if its cured or if its gone,
regardless of what the outcome, you've at
least given me feedback. Made my day a
little bit easier.
If I was a millionaire i'd buy you a house
right now. Granted, you cannot say nice
things to everyones situation, some people
have bad situations, some worse than
others, but, what ever!
I am not a bad person. I am going to be
a travel nurse and be helping people
twenty four hours a day. I am not just
some random guy that screwed a million
girls and has a list of phonecalls to
make.
You've made a difference, even if it
hasn't changed my problem. Thanks.
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Kia
Supporter
Joined: 23 Jun 2004 Posts: 6594 Location: Planet Tampaxia,
Posted: 12-06-06 13:45pm
Good luck - send me an update when you
find out.
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Makoto
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Jul 2006 Posts: 263 Location: Japan
Posted: 12-06-06 23:29pm
You are imagining this. The syptoms are
pseudo symptoms. You do not have an std.
You are freaking yourself out.
Been there done that. I know your
feeling. Your panic is causing the
symptoms.
Believe me or the doctor. Both are going
to tell you the same thing.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-07-06 10:25am
makoto
wrote:
you are imagining this.
The syptoms are pseudo symptoms. You do
not have an std. You are freaking
yourself out.
Been there done that. I know your
feeling. Your panic is causing the
symptoms.
Believe me or the doctor. Both are going
to tell you the same
thing.
no. I had been experiencing some of these
symptoms for just quick flashes and then
they became more and more constant until
it became four days on going of non stop
wavy tingly feeling between right kidney,
bladder, and right testicle.
The feeling itself was real, but, it was
causing other pseudo side effects such as
forcing me to go into panic and be
searching for answers. I've seen other
people with these same exact symptoms
posting on forums just like this one.
After 24 hours on the antibiotics, my
right kidney and bladder are sore, my
testicle and shaft are still "slightly'
feeling the feeling. It is clear to me.
I can feel it. I know it is there.
However, the feeling has retreated from my
kidney / bladder, which, is a sign that
the antibiotics are doing at least,
something.
The picture I posted shows almost exactly
how and where I was feeling it. The idea
of it being a green tingle seems to be on
par with it exactly.
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deebaby621
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2006 Posts: 251 Location: North Carolina
Posted: 12-07-06 10:50am
Not to sound mean at all. But in all
honesty, you sound like you're freaking
out about nothing. You did something you
probably shouldn't have and now you're
[imagining] that you're going to have to
face the consequences about it. You're
tricking yourself into believing that
you've got something when in actuality
everything is probably normal. The
symptoms you're describing just don't
sound like valid std symptoms. You should
try to relax yourself & stop the
constant worry about what's "going on."
the stress you are putting on yourself is
only going to make you feel even more
paranoid right now. Chill out.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-07-06 12:14pm
Wow, you really are out of line, the two
of you. Granted, i'd love nothing more
than to believe it is stress and fear
related -- but it isn't. It is a
bacterial infection that has spread to the
bladder, kidney, tasticle, and urinary
tract. There wasn't bleeding, but, there
doesn't have to be.
The reason I was concerned that is was an
std was because the above events did occur
-- and, this may have very well been the
cause of it even still.
You aren't experts, and, even if you are,
don't you dare tell me I am imagining
things. I have gone through a little bit
of hell with this because the first
symptom I googled was "genital tingling"
-- go try that, see what the results
consist of. I've never had problems of
any sort in my nether regions, having
something wrong with a testicle or shaft
that results in ed and an unexplainable
recurrent "tingle" was frightening the
hell out of me.
Even worse, trying to self diagnose via
the internet was coming up with all sorts
of disturbing possibilities. Hundreds of
forums where people explain my exact
feeling being told they'll likely see
bumps in a few days and that they're
screwed for life. Not a good
experience!
But, the fact is, though it may be on its
way out, or may not be, (it seems to have
dampened), I still feel it in the shaft
though not so much the testicle. Any more
which was the epicenter earlier on.
The past two days were characterized by me
puking anything I attempted to eat, this
is the first day that i've swallowed
something other than water and had it not
come back up.
Say what you like, I don't think I was
imagining things.
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hi2u22
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-07-06 17:04pm
Epoh,
you came here asking for answers from
regular, everyday people. We gave you
our educated guesses, but we two know that
we don't have a phd.
If you want an answer for certain, you
should go and see a licensed physician.
Don't act as if you are too good for a
mental issue. And most importantly,
don't be so closed minded as to not listen
to the advice you asked for yourself.
Even if it is a psychological issue, you
aren't "imagining" things. The pain is
very real, but it is caused by another
source.
On to the throwing up, that is more
evidence to support our hypothesis. A
urinary tract infection would not cause
tingling of genitalia all the time, only
while urinating. Also, throwing up all
the time shows how stressful you are.
You are just finally calming down.
You sound like a very high strung person,
so just do what you like to do for the
next days and take it easy. You'll get
through this fine if you just put it in
the back of your mind.
About your idea: if what you say is true,
you have decided that you have a urinary
tract infection (this includes anything
from the kidneys to the bladder).
Vomiting is a symptom of this, but heres
the issue with it: you aren't having any
dysuria, it is only an ambient pain. Nor
do you have hematuria, bloody urine.
Sure some of these are asymptomatic, but
you are experiencing some pain that is
unclassified. Check to see if any area
below your naval is tender/painful to the
touch.
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epoh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 12
Posted: 12-08-06 05:38am
There was bits of blood in my vomit, but,
such is over now.
I was able to cook up some eggs and such
yesterday and have them go down. Then ate
some cereal. Then made some soup. First
three meals in three days.
Yesterday morning and onward, I had
virtually no problems with my kidney, only
a slightly sore bladder, sore testicle,
and still a "dampened" tingling
right-shaft. Continueing to take the
medications and such, even the shaft began
to dampen, though, not completely.
By the end of the night, I had, out of no
where, a hard as a rock erection, which,
was the first sign of life below the belt
in over a week! I was so relieved. This
whole event has caused it to more or less
retreat-into-the-body, sort of like a
turtle head. Now, it was out! Finaly! A
sign that such was working.
This morning I woke up, my dick is
working, thank god, but, as with the
bladder and dick yesterday, the shaft now
remains sore and dare I say it the feeling
hasn't fully fled from the shaft, yet.
As such, I am able to eat. I have an
appetite again and haven't been puking
what I eat. Granted, yes, I want peoples
opinions, but, if they are simply going to
doubt my sanity they can keep them to
themself becuase telling me i'm crazy
doesn't get me anywhere.
