Enough of Being Like This!

Ill try to, ill give her acouple more tries and if it doesnt ill cancel

Ok
relax then.. It's worth it. I just regret that I didn't take the chances I had, it's my fault it didn't go well :s

Im scared though, im scared she will betray me like everyone else has around me

I don't think she will...

Well and i've lost2 to 4 pounds these days - yay! - hope to lose some more..

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But for me people that I believed that wouldnt did, so im pretty much in the situation where its like I cant trust u know matter how much u say u will not betray me, haha just checked my mail and my sister sent me this

if you want someone who never criticizes what you do, doesn't care if you are pretty or ugly, fat or thin, young or old, who acts as if every word you say is especially worthy of listening to, and loves you unconditionally, perpetually

then buy a dog.

I watched the lil intro for thin when that girl was crying I just really wanted to cry too and pretty much thought of myself

Ive never fainted yet, I just get dizzy but I used to not be able to get out of bed due to being so hungry, and when I tried I pretty much lied down where ever to gather my strength back

This morning I had an exam and I almost fainted when I was going to college, so I had to have breakfast... A bread with cheese and ham and milk (a low cal yogurt, in fact).
But then, I still didn't have lunch until now (it's half past threee ;d).
****

Ok, ok, this is sad and I feel awful. I ate a whole cereals bread with cheese and a kiwi. I feel awful! I am fat

Omg ur not fat, u wanna know what I had for breakfast(i usually binge in morning when there is no school) 3 pieces of toast with lots of butter, 5 eggs(scrambled), and oh god lol like 10 pieces of bacon and to make it sound better a diet coke :p now thats bad!!!! So ur not fat and dont feel bad, I havent had lunch yet, one I dont want too and im not hungry either

*hug*
i need hugs.. I've got a brithday party on wednesday night, but i'm not going.. It's a dinner (buffet... ) and then party at a gothic bar ****

Omg I wouldnt pass up a buffet okay maybe if I was people I didnt really know b/c I would be to afraid to eatbut yah here *hugs*

yes school is canceled due to bad weather, well got in a fight with my parents due to them telling everyone my business, my older brother called me and was like how was therapy and then after that I yelled at my mom and was like I dont understand whats the matter, she was like I thought u and him shared everything, I was like yah he already knew but I dont need you running to him and telling him everything about my damn life, she was like why he loves you and cares about you, grrr inner me: I dont care its my freaking business, then I went into the kitchen my dad was like come closer I was like why, he was like how much you wanna bet you mom's whole side of the family knows about it too, me

You lucky girl, no classes!
Well, I can't complain a lot, because I don't have classes now, but I have a lot of assignments to do and to study for the exams :s

yesterday I had to opportunity of talking with a friend and he turned out to be very understanding and supportive.



sometimes they use that argument in other occasions to see if we do the opposite of what we're doing, not because others may know but because they want us to get well.
I also had an argument with my mother after dinner, because I only soup and she wanted me to have pasta and meat or fried codfish.
I hope today is a new day after all

*hug*

Okay well yah I got screwed over, school was back on, so I was already in a bad mood about having to go but yah I had the another horrible sleep due to over thinking about whats going to happen at school, and after I fell asleep I woke up every other hour which got really really annoying

one of my friends was like you know you can talk to me about anything, she was like you can b**** about anything I dont care, just talk to me, I was like I know

okay so yah ive only been to one therapy session and my dad is like I bet ur talking all this s*** about me, omg I went one time and talked about me and my problem, but already he thinks im talking about him and saying that hes a bad parent, and last night he was drunk and he came up to me he was like u better straighten this up right now or u wont have any future..Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I hate him sometimes!

[quote="catt101]i had the another horrible sleep due to over thinking about whats going to happen at school, and after I fell asleep I woke up every other hour [/quote]

the same thing happens to me. I get up so tired when that happens, which is frequently :s

[quote="catt101]i went one time and talked about me and my problem, but already he thinks im talking about him and saying that hes a bad parent, and last night he was drunk and he came up to me he was like u better straighten this up right now or u wont have any future[/quote]

i'm sorry that happen, it's so lame... =(( I hope it gets better; I hope you get better. How your eating and weight and that stuff? If you ever feel in need, send me a private message or so
sometimes I feel bad and i'd like to have someone I could call or talk to in that particular moment, so I know it's hard not to have anyone...

I'm pretty sad again today... Same thing as yesterday.. :s

Hi there, im new to this so bare with me. Ive suffered with bulimia since I was 16, I am now 38. I went through many years of being depressed but the last 6 years ive not been depressed. My problem now is that im getting fatter and fatter because I eat large amounts and dont always throw it up. Im always thinking about food, I go on diets and that makes it worse and I overeat again. I feel bad when ive eaten but then it goes away until I eat again. I dont feel in control of this at all and am getting really angry with myself. I suffer with a really bad body image, always have. I am so sick of feeling like this, and am now so so worried what I have done to my body. Im going to the doctors tomorrow but I dont think he will be able to help me as they never have done in the past. I live in england and I dont have alot of money to pay for help.........Can anybody give me ideas where I can get help that works........I look forward to any replies

Hi.. Welcome to this forum...
What do you think that may have triggered those feelings? And how have you overcome depression?

Ah todays a good day, school actually got canceled today which made me feel soo relieved, and so far nothing bad, ate breakfast got rid of it and just sitting here deciding what to eat for lunch/dinner, and what makes today a better day is one tree hill is back on after its winter break

welcome to the forum

Today I had a bread for breakfast and skipped lunch. But I went to the college and by 3 in the afternoon I ended up messed up - had a croissant, 6 oreos and 3 crackers...
then only had a soup and a kiwi for dinner...