Im New...here Is My Story. Posted: 02-04-04 23:59pm
Hey everyone, I just joined this forum in
hopes of finding people I can relate to
with this horrible eating disorder I
have,. I was never fat, but after my
freshman year in college I gained 30
pounds and became extremely obsessed with
weight and food. I lost the weight and
began to purge meals. To make a long
story short, it's been about a year and a
half. I binge and purge every
day...Sometimes 4 or 5 times a day... I
am so depressed I feel like this will
never stop. Sometimes I just wish I
would die so I dont have to deal with this
anymore. My mother knew about this, but
thinks I stopped puking long ago- she
think's its over. I spend all my money
on food...I'm broke....I dont know what to
do. There's my story.
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amanda_212
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Feb 2004 Posts: 4 Location: new york
Posted: 02-05-04 00:06am
Another thing....Does anyone think it's
possible to recover from bulimia on your
own???? I dont have enough money for a
counselor, and I dont really have anyone
to talk to.....
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8tzgurl
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 31 Jan 2004 Posts: 2
Posted: 02-05-04 00:44am
Oh my hun, bulimia is very hard to almost
impossible to kick on your own.There is
absolutely no one you can confide in that
can help you.You need help and now!
Before it's to late.I think you should let
your mom know whats going on and ask her
to get you some help. It saddens me to
see that you are going threw this
alone.Please,please get some help.
Wishing you the best!
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 02-05-04 12:11pm
Talk to your mum, be totally honest (it
may be hard & she may be upset but
she'll be alot more upset if she has to
plan your funeral !! So tell her &
get her support.
Also there are support groups for people
with eating disorders or if there's none
near you try support groups for
stress/mental health/depression these are
usually free so you can afford them.
The question you have to ask your self is
what choice you are going to make life or
death?? Then take the right actions to
fit the choice you made.
It will be hard but can be done, if you
are honest with friends & family &
get their support & attend support
groups. Also try doing some relaxation
therapy (alot of what you're feeling is or
is caused by stress) like, yoga,
meditation, pilates,(tapes on these should
be available in a library) gentle walks
somewhere peaceful, get involved with a
group doing something just for fun(i'm not
suggesting you do all these things at
once, just trying to give you a range of
types of ways to relax since we are all
different & so respond to different
things.
Good luck.
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amanda_212
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Feb 2004 Posts: 4 Location: new york
Posted: 02-05-04 18:43pm
Thank you guys so much for responding, it
means alot to me....This is a great place
to come when no one in the "real world"
without an eating disorder could ever
understand what i'm going through.
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Sparkles412
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Nov 2003 Posts: 65 Location: NY
Oh My!! Posted: 02-06-04 12:29pm
If you are still in school, you should see
if your school offers counseling, I am
going to a 2 year college, and they have
counselors right on campus, and it doesnt
cost anything. If not then you should
definately tell your mother, because if
you can't afford to get help, she could
help you. I'm sure she is not going to
ignore your problem and not get you help.
The first step to recovery is realizing
that you have a problem. The second step
is telling someone, and then getting help,
but the hardest part is that when you
actually get help, you have to do what you
are told, you have to follow through with
the plan. One of my best friends is
suffering from bulimia, and it kills me to
see her. Because even though she denies
still purging, I know she is, and she is
embarassed to tell me that she started
again, because she knows I will be mad.
She was doing so well for the longest
time, she stopped purging she was eating
healthy, then all of a sudden she got
really depressed and she is starting all
over again, it's a vicious cycle. And
what scares me the most is that, this
disease might get her first before she
ever fully recovers. I hope you realize
that what you are putting yourself
through, it's not a joke, it's fatal. The
sooner you get help, the more of a chance
you have in beating this disease, before
it beats you!!!!!!! Please think about
this, and I wish you the best of luck!!!!!
