I live in morocco, where I moved from new
york about a year and a half ago. Until
now, I have enjoyed my life here. A few
months ago, I became constantly dizzy and
got an mri. (for what it's worth, so far
everything has basically been the same as
in the us. For example, the mri machine
was made by siemens.) the scan showed
spots all over my brain. Lacking
insurance, I was not officially diagnosed,
but my neurologist was confident it could
not be anything else, and all of my
symptoms fit. I am constantly dizzy and
tired, and lately I have been having some
trouble speaking and walking. This is all
very depressing for me, since I have
enjoyed good health until now.
I don't really have any answerable
questions. I want to know what will
happen to me. I want to know if I will be
unable to speak and move in the future. I
generally feel quite isolated by this, and
I want some assurance that I am not alone
in this. I know this is true, but it
would be good to hear it.
I was in the hospital over christmas to
receive 5 g prednisone. I know I need
interferon next, but it's damn expensive.
Next I need a job with insurance, and a
stupid spinal tap.
I am writing really just to vent some of
this. The whole thing puts me in a bad
mood, makes me mopey and angry. Does this
ever get better? What should I do?
