a New Day, a New Disease! Posted: 01-15-07 22:24pm
I don't know what to do anymore! I am
getting so frustrated and I know the
people in my life are getting frustrated
as well. I feel as though I haven't felt
'normal' or really good in like a year and
half. There is always something that
doesn't feel right with me. For a long
time my chest was very tight and I thought
I had cancer. I went through all the
tests I could possibly get done with that
and nothing was found. Then I started to
get panic attacks, which of course during
these moments I thought I was dying and I
just felt so helpless. Then I started
getting tingling and muscle spasms all
over my body- I looked online and
convinced myself that I had ms- I went and
got the tests done for that and they came
back negative. And I can't help it but
everytime something is wrong with me it
drives me crazy and I will convince myself
without a doubt that it is this horrible
disease. I just wonder if anyone else out
there goes through this. I try so hard
not to look things up online because I end
up just freaking myself out more and
getting ten times as anxious as I already
am. So for a while now my left arm has
really hurt. It hurts below the shoulder
on what feels like the muscle. I will try
to massage it or ice it to make it feel
better but nothing really seems to help-
(i have had ekgs last year to rule out
heart problems) but somehow I still think
it's my heart somehow- I also get
palpatations not only in my arm but other
parts of my body as well. Along with that
sharp pains in random places- including my
chest, legs, knee, you name it- they
usually do not last long but it does get
annoying. So my latest thing I looked up
is that I think I have a disease where
your arteries harden- don't remember the
name off the top of my head- but now I
think that is why my arm and leg have been
hurting. I am only 21 years old and this
is how my mind works- I don't want to be
like this anymore- I see everyone else and
they just seem so carefree! If I am like
this at 21 I can't even imagine what I
will be like when I get older. My mom
says it's like I won't be happy until
something serious is wrong with me- but I
know that's not true because I just want
to feel normal again!
So I guess I was wondering if anyone else
out there drives themself crazy like I do
going online and finding what could be
wrong with them, and also if my symptoms
could be part of anxiety (the random
pains, palpatations, tight chest, and pain
in left arm)
thanks for listening to my rant- my
boyfriend and parents can only hear it so
many times before I know I drive them
crazy! Any help would be greatly
appreciated!
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Jenna2
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jan 2006 Posts: 41
Posted: 01-17-07 23:27pm
Wow lilash,
its like I just wrote this forum,
everything you described is how I live my
life day to day. Its always I new ache or
pain. I too am 21, and I have been
suffering with anxiety/panic since I was
15. Its ruled my life at times. I have
my ups and downs with it and I have tried
medications, but I find that with
counseling and a healthy lifestyle I do
pretty well. Even though I find the
panic attacks are under control I find
that it doesn't make the anxieousness go
away. Im always tense because im worried
I have some kind of disease or cancer or
something. From the months of
october-march is the worst ever! It is
only in the warm spring and summer months
I find myself worry free. I stay home
alot, and find it difficult to do things a
normal 21 year old should do, but I
convince myself there will be sometime
soon hopefully I can overcome all of this.
Best of luck to you lilash.
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Kitz
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jan 2007 Posts: 17 Location: Canada
Posted: 01-18-07 11:45am
Thats amazing.
I am a 21 yr old female, i've had panic
attacks and anxiety for years now, when I
got the panic attacks under control it
began to manifest itself into
hypochondria. I spend hours a day
worrying about diseases, viruses, germs,
you name it. I call myself a 'superficial
hypochondriac' because I dont always worry
about the most deadly diseases, but the
superficial ones. My panics range from
thinking I have lice because my head is
slighty itchy, thinking I have pink eye,
cold sores and stds are the most common
fear of mine actually. I've self
diagnosed myself with melanoma, multiple
sclerosis, fibromylagia, brain tumor,
gastro perisis, cancer of the
esophagus...None of which are true - i've
had about a million tests done. I became
like this because I have severe symptoms
that disrupt my every day life that have
no apparent cause. Extreme and frequent
headaches and migranes, dizzyness and
fatigue, vomitting, nausea, constipation
and painful bloating. These have been
consistant over the past 5 years with
seemingly no cause or solution, so all I
do is worry !
In fact - much like you jenna2 I find the
months of october/november and jan/feb to
be the worst!! I hope there is something
maybe that could help us, I dont know.
I've taken medication for anxiety and it
only made my headaches and nausea worse so
I feel as though im stuck in an endless
cycle.
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