Ok so neil came round to see logan for his
birthday. I just knew it would end in
tears but I gave him the benefit of the
doubt.
When he came in he had a big smile on his
face and announced 'i'm going to the army
in april' I laughed thinking he was joking
but he was deadly serious. He hasn't
signed up yet but his contract with the
company his working for ends in april so
he said it's the ideal oppurtunity.
I was speechless. He has talked about
joining the army in the past (whilst we
were together) and I told him if he ever
did I would leave him cause he would be
turning his back on me and the kids.
He has
no logic behind joining the
army. He is not doing it for his counrty
(he is portuguese) he basically just wnats
to do it for him so he is going to risk
never seeing his kids again.
I said what about your kids? Aren't you
going to miss them?!!! He said I will
visit them twice a year. I said no to
this because I think it will break the
kids hearts seeing their dad twice a year
for a week. They will miss him like
crazy. I'd rather they never see him.
All he could talk about was how he has to
break up with his new girlfriend. I said
I don't give a f**k about maria. Your
kids should come before anything!
Including a stupid urge you have.
I'm sure he thinks it's going to be a
vacation or something! He said to me 'you
always knew I wanted my freedom' then
robbie said 'freedom? Are you serious?
You don't have freedom in the army. You
do as your said and work like a dog'
i don't even know if he'll get in as he
has a problem with one of his eyes and he
can't see 100% out of it. But the way I
feel I said to my mum and robbie that if
he even makes the application (even if he
doesn't get in) then i'm not going to let
him see the kids anymore because in my
eyes he has deserted them already in his
mind. I will fight it in court if I have
to.
He is such a selfish a**hole for putting a
stupid whim that he has before the kids.
I could understand if he had a valid
reason other than 'i just want to do it'
i told him to get out of my house and
then I burst into tears when he left.I
just feel so sad for my kids that their
dad is going to desert them. I grew up
without a dad so I know how it feels.
That is the only reason why I am angry at
him for doing this
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