Well, I am giving up hope right now. Since yesterday, midday, my period like cramps have been getting worse. They are mostly in my lower back dang it. I think I am leaking a little amniotic fluid now but it's hard to tell. My boobs hurt so much today and I wish they didn't. It just makes me more emotionally confused. I am so scared to have a miscarriage. I don't want to start having extreme pain knowing that I would probably lose the baby. Although I have this cramping, I still have that extreme small chance that I will be ok. Honestly, things don't look so good right now at all.

I keep wondering what went wrong. I read that with premature rupture of membranes, a lot of people have infections that weaken the membranes. For one, I had the flu for three days straight and then this happened a week later. I also had a yeast infection the same time I went to the doctor, which was about four days before this happened. So, I am wondering if one or the combo of those two things did it.


Also, I my mom stated that she had the same thing happen with my brother. However, it is unclear whether or not she was pregnant with twins or she passed a blot clot. She was around 13 to 14 weeks - the same stage of pregnancy as I am in. Then when she was pregnant with me, her sac was leaking at 5 to 6 months and she delivered me at 8 months. She could not have anymore children after me and she was 32 years old, my age. So, I am a bit freaked out about that as well. I am wondering if weak sacs run in the family. I carried my three year old just fine. It was actually the best pregnancy as I had absoutely no problems.

I wish this nightmare would be over. I wish that I can go into the doctors and they tell me that my membranes have sealed, my pains are not labor and the baby will be fine. I want out of this nightmare