i’m a 20-year old guy and I live in
holland. Y’know, amsterdam, the city
where you can get weed en go to hookers
without being arrested. But I don’t do
that, nor I live in amsterdam. I live in
a small city near the south, near the
border of belgium.
Anyway. You might guess why i’m here:
i’m single and unhappy. To explain this
a little history.
15-years old: a friend of mine said he had
a girlfriend. That’s where it all
began: I wanted a girlfriend to.
16-years old: although I still didn’t
find a girlfriend many other were single
as well, so why bother?
17-years old: it got bad. Many of my
friends got girlfriends but what about
me?
18-years old: it got even harder! Now it
went totally wrong, everybody got a
girlfriend except me! What the hell was
wrong with me?
19-years old: all of my friends got rid of
their virginity and I still didn’t kiss
any girl. Can you imagine of worse
humiliation? But it did happen. I kissed
a girl, she became my girlfriend. It just
happened so easily. Couldn’t understand
how but hey, I got what I asked for. But
it went wrong because several months later
she dumped me. Possibly she played me
just to have a boyfriend around without
really caring for me. Still a virgin, I
was back at the beginning. But the worst
was about to begin because after I had a
girl I was convinced I would find another
one soon and easily. Not!
20-years old: feeling bad, real bad. It
all makes me so sad, makes my cry
sometimes. I got back to the situation of
18. Perhaps even worse! My 15-year old
brother now has a girlfriend. I feel
ashamed, humiliated and guilty (guilty to
everything that happened, or to be more
precisely: what did not happen and should
have happened). And even my ex-girlfriend
has another guy. Alright, I don’t like
her any more. She wasn’t perfect but I
liked her as she was. Why won’t they
like me?
Why is this happening? I mean, I have
good qualities, qualities that should mean
something! Love, humour, lasting
loyality. But appearently they don’t.
Sad thing to find out. Although i’m not
looking perfect (hare-lip, skinny) I
don’t think i’m really ugly… I know
that i’m a good person but appearently
girls aren’t interested in me, at least
no love intrest.
I just can’t stop thinking about it. I
don’t think I can ever escape from my
thoughts. Reading stories here makes me
more sad. Sad to know there are others
suffering the same or even worse!
Especially the story of an 43-year old
guy. I am too weak to withstand the years
of pain and agony ahead. That’s why
i’m sure I don’t reach the age of 43.
Yes, I am thinking of killing myself. Not
only for myself but also for others.
Because all the frustration I react that
to other people like my family and
friends. They are also suffering under my
frustration. But when i’m gone they
won’t have that any longer. I know some
people will be sad but I don’t think
that will be very long. I think they soon
except it and get along with their better
life without me.
Honest, I wish this has never happened.
But it did happen. It’s incredible to
see that just one tiny thing managed to
mess me up so badly. That just one little
thing keeps my busy in a negative way. It
looks so innocent and it was, at the
beginning. But now, all those years later
it’s horrible. I hate the facts. I can
lie about the facts. I can be angry about
the facts, but they’re still the facts.
I don’t accept myself as I am. Simply
because it’s not fair the way I was
born. All the other are better off, at
least most of them. Stupid reality. I
wish I was someone else.
But i’m not someone else. I’m just
me. And I believe all this has a reason.
I don’t think it’s just ‘bad
luck’. So I am trying to find out what
it is. I don’t know how yet but I will.
And when I finally know the answer to the
riddle I think I can say goodbye to this
world. Although I don’t know how yet.
Where you guys live you can take a gun and
get it straight over with.
I am sorry for the long pessimistic post
but I was suprised to see a forum like
this and I wouldn‘t leave it
unnoticed.
Any responses will be much appreciated.
Thank you.
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The Godly One
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Jan 2006 Posts: 76
Re: So Unhappy Posted: 01-26-07 23:42pm
ivo
wrote:
hello there,
i’m a 20-year old guy and I live in
holland. Y’know, amsterdam, the city
where you can get weed en go to hookers
without being arrested. But I don’t do
that, nor I live in amsterdam. I live in
a small city near the south, near the
border of belgium.
Anyway. You might guess why i’m here:
i’m single and unhappy. To explain
this a little history.
15-years old: a friend of mine said he had
a girlfriend. That’s where it all
began: I wanted a girlfriend to.
16-years old: although I still didn’t
find a girlfriend many other were single
as well, so why bother?
17-years old: it got bad. Many of my
friends got girlfriends but what about
me?
18-years old: it got even harder! Now it
went totally wrong, everybody got a
girlfriend except me! What the hell was
wrong with me?
19-years old: all of my friends got rid of
their virginity and I still didn’t kiss
any girl. Can you imagine of worse
humiliation? But it did happen. I
kissed a girl, she became my girlfriend.
It just happened so easily. Couldn’t
understand how but hey, I got what I asked
for. But it went wrong because several
months later she dumped me. Possibly she
played me just to have a boyfriend around
without really caring for me. Still a
virgin, I was back at the beginning. But
the worst was about to begin because after
I had a girl I was convinced I would find
another one soon and easily. Not!
20-years old: feeling bad, real bad. It
all makes me so sad, makes my cry
sometimes. I got back to the situation
of 18. Perhaps even worse! My 15-year
old brother now has a girlfriend. I feel
ashamed, humiliated and guilty (guilty to
everything that happened, or to be more
precisely: what did not happen and should
have happened). And even my
ex-girlfriend has another guy. Alright,
I don’t like her any more. She
wasn’t perfect but I liked her as she
was. Why won’t they like me?
Why is this happening? I mean, I have
good qualities, qualities that should mean
something! Love, humour, lasting
loyality. But appearently they don’t.
Sad thing to find out. Although i’m
not looking perfect (hare-lip, skinny) I
don’t think i’m really ugly… I know
that i’m a good person but appearently
girls aren’t interested in me, at least
no love intrest.
I just can’t stop thinking about it. I
don’t think I can ever escape from my
thoughts. Reading stories here makes me
more sad. Sad to know there are others
suffering the same or even worse!
Especially the story of an 43-year old
guy. I am too weak to withstand the
years of pain and agony ahead. That’s
why i’m sure I don’t reach the age of
43. Yes, I am thinking of killing
myself. Not only for myself but also for
others. Because all the frustration I
react that to other people like my family
and friends. They are also suffering
under my frustration. But when i’m
gone they won’t have that any longer.
I know some people will be sad but I
don’t think that will be very long. I
think they soon except it and get along
with their better life without me.
Honest, I wish this has never happened.
But it did happen. It’s incredible to
see that just one tiny thing managed to
mess me up so badly. That just one
little thing keeps my busy in a negative
way. It looks so innocent and it was, at
the beginning. But now, all those years
later it’s horrible. I hate the facts.
I can lie about the facts. I can be
angry about the facts, but they’re still
the facts. I don’t accept myself as I
am. Simply because it’s not fair the
way I was born. All the other are better
off, at least most of them. Stupid
reality. I wish I was someone else.
But i’m not someone else. I’m just
me. And I believe all this has a reason.
I don’t think it’s just ‘bad
luck’. So I am trying to find out what
it is. I don’t know how yet but I
will. And when I finally know the answer
to the riddle I think I can say goodbye to
this world. Although I don’t know how
yet. Where you guys live you can take a
gun and get it straight over with.
I am sorry for the long pessimistic post
but I was suprised to see a forum like
this and I wouldn‘t leave it
unnoticed.
Any responses will be much appreciated.
Thank you.
it is actually easier to find success with
women than getting a gun and killing
yourself.
I can give you plenty of tips, but you
really don't need me. The information is
out there, and psychology is everything.
You are quite correct when you say that
this is not "bad luck".
If you actually want to listen to what I
say then pm me.
I posted some advice but a lot of it got
deleted because people were hacking the
site.
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spectermonkey
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Dec 2006 Posts: 59 Location: Somewhere
Me Too! Posted: 03-10-07 21:02pm
I have the same problem. 'Cept the
circumstances under which i had to break
up with my first and thus far only
girlfriend were somewhat different.
It's all about your mentality. If you
consider yourself weak, girls are gonna
see you as weak..and not be attracted to
you.
If you hold your head up high, walk with
your shoulders back and act in a way that
suggests you respect yourself, you're
gonna get noticed. In a positive way. It's
not hard at all to find women. go out and
have fun, party, etc, etc. It's the best
way to meet lots of chicks.
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Ivo
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jan 2007 Posts: 8 Location: Holland
Posted: 04-12-07 15:34pm
I've heard those things lots of times. And
I believe some of it maybe true. Stills, I
do not believe women have special gifts to
see someone feels bad.
Anyway, I think I'm doing OK. Because when
I'm with women, when I talk to them, I
just enjoy it and forget my griefs about
my single life. But when I come home alone
I feel so bad. It keeps annoying me. I
meet girls, but the one which became my
girlfriend for a few months... that's just
not happening anymore with someone else.
And I don't understand because I believe
I'm a nice guy.
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nightangel73
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Nov 2005 Posts: 2764 Location: ,
Thanks: 19
Thanked:18
Posted: 04-12-07 18:31pm
my god you guys whine like babies.
Hey i'm 34 and will be getting married for
the first time. I was on square zero for
more years than any of you. I guess some
of you would have probably shoot yourselfs
for that long being single hahahaha.
Look guys it's not the end of the world. I
thought by my age i would have been
married with a couple of kids already. I
thought it would have been terrible to be
my age and still single. But once you get
here it's not like that. It is not
terrible. I quickly got out of that
thought when I was 30 years old and got
very sick and thought i was never going to
recover from my sickness. Then I wished i
was crying for not having bf's. I realized
how happy I was for being alone. When you
loose your health then you value life. And
a friend of mine, a cancer survivor had
told me so and I agreed on how right she
was when that happened to me.
If you have suicidal thoughts for being
alone I believe you really need to be on
medications because that is a mental
disorder.
