Broken Hearted Forum - Its Been Almost 2 Years~~~

Its been almost two years since 2 of my best freinds were killed and I cant get over it!!! Here is the history of the accident wi rote this in school for school thinking it might help me get over it

in december I started dating a guy named shane and with most teenage relationships you usually hang out with your bf/gf’s friends. Shane and me would often hang out with a guy named dayton unger and sometimes simon featherston. We were almost always with devon heath. Devon for a few months became our ride to wherever we wanted. Devon drove a 2002 silver mustang with a very good sound system. It became a ritual that devon would pick me and shane up from my school at 3pm then go drive around for an hour or so and drop me and shane off at my house. Shane would stay till about 9 at night and this would happen everyday.

On april 4th it was pouring rain and devon was already 15 minutes late so shane called him to see if he was coming to get us. Which he was. He had to pick up his gf first. Devon picked us up and like normal we drove around and then at about 430 devon dropped us off at my house. Shane stayed until about 915 that night. It was cold out so he wanted devon to come and pick him up. He called devon at about 850 devon said he would be there in 15 minutes. When he showed up he had two guys in the car with him. I wanted to stay inside because it was freezing but devon and the two guys in the car were telling me to come out and talk to them for a few minutes. The two guys in the car were dayton and simon.

I stood outside and talked to them for a couple minutes. Then devon told me he had to go get some stuff done before 10pm. Devon has a driving curfew of 10pm. So shane and I said our goodbyes and shane got into demons car. The funny thing about shane getting in devon’s car was that shane sat in the backseat. Which he never did because shane is about 6’2’’ and the backseat doesn’t have enough legroom for him. He got in the back because dayton was sitting in the front. I found this weird. A few things happened that night that made me think something was wrong. Shane kept throwing his cell phone up in the air and it kept hitting him in the head in this one spot. He smacked his head on the corner of a cabinet I have above my bed. Then we broke my brand new bed. I was standing in front of him and he pulled me down when he sat down on the corner of my bed, so the weight and the pressure that was applied made my bed break. We laughed about it for a while.

When shane left he told me to call him after I finished my homework. Since I didn’t have that much to do I called him at about 9:25 we talked for a few minutes and he said call me back in about 15 minutes. They were by the otter co- op in aldergrove at that time and him and dayton were switching seats. When I called him back it was roughly 20 to 10:00. He didn’t answer. So I called again and again till about 9:53 when I finally gave up and went to bed thinking I would see him the next day after school.

When I went to go to bed I couldn’t fall asleep I was halfway awake and half asleep. At 1158 I heard the phone ring I immediately thought it was one of my friends. I heard my mom answer the phone. Then silence. A couple minutes later at 1203 I got the feeling someone was watching me when I turned my head to my door my mom was standing there with the phone in her hand. The first thing that I said was devon. She came over to my bed and told me there had been an accident. I knew it was devon’s car. She told me that dayton was pronounced dead at the scene and shane was in bad shape. Aswell as simon wasn’t doing good and they didn’t expect him to make it. I was in shock I didn’t cry I didn’t talk. 5 minutes later my mom and me headed out to new westminster. Shane and simon were at royal columbian hospital. When we got to the hospital I saw cindy (shanes mom
) shandy (my best friend, shanes cousin) and shandy’s mom. I still had not cried or lead on that I was upset. When cindy came to the truck and opened the door and I saw the look on her face I broke down crying. After a couple minutes I asked to see shane. Cindy told me that shane has been asking for me since the paramedics found him. When I went to see him he was a mess. His head was cut open so deeply that u could see his skull. The side of his face was scraped up and he had road burn all on his back and chest. Simon was completely clean no blood no cuts anywhere on him. It made me feel that he was suffering on the inside. Simon was on life support although he was brain dead. I watched his mom walk around the hospital like a zombie she went from his bed to the bathroom over and over again.
At about 2:30am they took shane into his own space, which was actually on the other side of the room. They had stitched up his wounds and wanted to monitor him but would release him in the morning which was only a couple hours away. At about 4 in the morning cindy and I and shanes step dad headed home. On the way home cindy wanted to stop at the scene to try to find shanes shoes and cell phone. Which he had lost in the accident. We headed over to where the accident happened. When we got there police and paramedics and firemen were still on the scene. We pulled in right behind one of the cop cars. Cindy and I got out to talk to him about finding shanes stuff. The officer had shanes cell phone and 2 others phones. One I recognized to be devon’s. We asked if we could go look for shane’s shoes and anything else in the car or around it. At this point the car was still in the ditch. The tow truck had just arrived. We had to wait till the tow truck pulled the mustang out of the ditch. When the car was finally out. It was not a very nice to see. To me it looked like a smashed up pop can. There was hardly anything left to the back end, they had to cut off part of the roof to get dayton simon and devon out. Shane was thrown from the car. We looked through the ditches first. On the sides of the ditch were mr chocolate easter bunnies not even opened. There were cd’s everywhere and dayton’s silver chain that he always wore. We ended up finding 4 pairs of shoes. Supposedly the first thing you lose in a massive car accident is your shoes. When we looked inside the car we couldn’t go through it. It was a mess it made u only imagine what happened to dayton and simon.

We left and they dropped me off at home at about 5 am. I didn’t sleep at all that night. Shane’s mom was supposed to pick me up at 9am to get shane but she didn’t, because she wanted me to get some sleep. When I woke up at about 830 I called my best friend shandy. She wanted to head up to the school and see if the news had been told yet. So we headed up there. As soon as we walked into that school it felt like death. Everywhere you went you would see students crying students walking around straight faced. You knew they knew and were upset. Many people came up to me and and shandy giving us hugs and saying how sorry they were. A tv reporter out front talking to the principal. After he was done talking to the principal me and shandy went up to him and asked him what he wanted? He told us he was doing a story on the accident. He asked if we had anything to do with the victims. We said yes and he interviewed us. When we starting walking around back another camera crew pulled into our school. We went up to them and told them there is nothing to report on leave everyone alone.

The lady seemed too sympathetic and understood that we were upset and she asked us if we could state our opinion on what happened. So we did and told her our relations with the victims. We later found out that footage was aired on bctv. Shandy and I then went back to her house. While we were sitting there shane called, and said they were on their way back and wanted to see me so he told us to head over to his house and they would met us there. We went back to shanes house. We sat and talked cried. We asked shane if he remembered what happened? He said he remembers everything from the time the camaro passed, to the time he went through the windshield. This is what he told us.

“ we had just gotten on to 264th and a camaro passed us then kept on braking going braking going. Devon was started to get ticked off so he went into the other lane to pass him when he stepped on the gas to get ahead of him the camaro did the same thing. We went on like this and then out the blue some white car comes towards us. Devon floored it and tried to switched back over which he did but when he did he lost control we skidded and started spinning then we were some how airborne and hit a rock. I think it was when we hit the rock that I went through the windshield. Then the car smashed into the tree backend first. I don’t remember hitting the pavement but I do remember waking up with paramedics around me. I knew that at least one of us was dead because when I looked at the ditch I could see part of the car.”

for the next few days I was at shanes house everyday he wouldn’t do anything without me. It finally came time for dayton and simon’s funeral.
The double funeral was held at christian life assembly. There was a viewing before the actual service. I wanted to see them to say goodbye. After I had done my viewing we went and sat in the sanctuary to wait for the service to begin. There was hundreds of people there most of them I knew or had seen before. Shane was glued to my hand the whole time. Devon and him cried the whole service. It was a very nice service though. The pastor who did it is an awesome guy and showed unlimited respect to the boys and the families…

this was and still is the most significant even in my life. To this day I can still not get over what happened nor forget what happened. It has been over a year but it still feels like yesterday.

It will be two years in april and I think I shouldve been over it by now or on the way of being over but it still hurts like it did last year help me!!!