Joined: 31 Jan 2007 Posts: 8 Location: Somerset-uk
So So Depressed...(really Suicidal) Posted: 02-03-07 07:27am
I went to the doctor yesterday, but they
didnt put me on medication the docter just
said she will referr me to a
phychiatrist... And knowing the nhs this
will take forever. All I feel like doing
is killing myself. I keep getting let
down by people, and this just makes me
feel less and less loved, like today I was
supposed to go to town with my best
friend, and she knows how im feeling, and
she let me down to go in with
mybrother/her bf. I cut my arms again
last night, it doesnt hurt any more, even
though the cuts are getting deeper and
deeper. My parents keep going out and
dont tell me, and I get really lonely when
no one is here, and this is when I feel
more suicidal. I rang up my mum to talk
to her, we talked for about a minute and
then she hung up on me. And so I rang her
back... And I talked to her for a bit,
but she didnt say anything and she hung up
on me again and turned of her phone, so I
tryed to ring my dads phone but he is
ignoring it, and my brother is ignoring
his too. I just feel like no one wants to
talk to me, and they just ignore me all
the time. Like my mum when ever I talk to
her she just ignores me. I have boy
friend who loves me loads and who I love
with all my heart, but even knowing this I
feel really suicdal. I dont know what to
do any more, and I dont feel I can tell
anyone without being called an attention
seeker it just feels like
noone cares any more, I know your all
going to say that people do care, but it
wont make any difference im just fed up of
people letting me down all the time, its
not just my family and my bestfriend, my
boyfriend does it too, when he knows
exactly how depressed I am, he'll change
plans we had to go out with his mates. I
just need some help. Please some one any
one?
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alliedog
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Feb 2007 Posts: 2 Location: East Coast
Posted: 02-03-07 07:48am
There is one who can fill your void, the
lonelyness, and the feeling that no one
cares. Jesus christ. He came here and
lived life just as we do, so he knows what
you are going through. More than that is
that after he died to take away our sins,
he was raised to be with god and is alive
today. There's power in that fact that
can help you overcome this depression.
Simply cry out to him and ask him into
your heart to be lord in your life. See
if he doesn't fill your heart with love
and healing.
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Poetry_Writter
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Dec 2006 Posts: 24 Location: Los Angelos, CA USA
Posted: 02-03-07 16:21pm
Ok yea u can try the whole religious thing
but if that doesn't work please just try
and find someone who will listen so matter
what. If you call their life will stop
and they are just there for you. Someone
you can call at 8 30 and still have
something to talk about till 2 o clock in
the morning. A guy or girl it doesnt
matter just someone...Even if its you
boyfriend idk thats wht helped me....I
started cutting at 12 and all I used was
my finger nails the paperclips then safty
pins and then my pocket knife...I thought
life couldnt get wores...But then my dad
got married to someone I hate who has a
daughter who hates me...I left the school
I went to for 9 years and I left all of my
friends...And I moved out of the house I
lived in since I was born...I found out
life could get worse....My new step mom
verbally abused me even if she didnt
reaize she was doing it....The cutts were
getting worse...But then I met this kid
who shall remain nameless...We started
talking more and more everyday...Then we
started talking on the phone for and hour
or so a night...And now we talk from 8-2
about anything and everything...Well back
in november I told him I was a cutter and
he just stood by me...His feelings for me
didnt cahnge and he told me that when ever
I got the urge to call him no matter what
even if he is sleeping he wouldnt
care...He hates that I do it so I am
stopping for him...Its been like a month
now so it's going well...So just trust me
thats all you really need even if it's a
phyciatrist...Just find some one...You can
even message me and I promise I will try
and be on here as much a possible so I can
answer quickly if you do message me...Good
luck and I hope that you can beat this
depression and you cutting
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tracid24
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Feb 2007 Posts: 6 Location: wv
Just Taste! Posted: 02-06-07 00:20am
There is 1 and only 1 thing that will
help, and its no fake gimmick, happy go
lucky~ dorky thing to do if your not cool,
it an actual truth and it has to be real
or people wouldnt fight to have it not
talked about, and it is that god came down
as his son jesus to die and pay a debt
that he did not owe, for a world who owed
a sin debt that they could not pay, he
loved us while we were in our sin so you
dont have to change to have him in your
heart. He takes you the way you are, but
loves you enough not to leave you that
way.
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Color of Paper
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jan 2007 Posts: 171 Location: Long Beach, Ca
Posted: 02-06-07 11:05am
Hi xemmy, not sure if your still active on
these forums but sounds like you need
someone to talk to. This is an awsome
place to come for advice and just a genral
sense of welcome.
Relax for a min. Focus on progressing
your life and furthering what you want.
It takes time to get out of slumps like
these where everything just really
sucks...But the only way to get out is to
start fighting.
Work for what you want, go outside and do
something...Climb a tree, run around the
block...Jump in a pool.....Chase a little
kid around and scare him..
Its super hard to get your life togher
when your in these kind of depressive
slumps...If it comes down to it never
never hesitate to talk to a profesional.
Psychologist are amazing people that have
worked hard to be where there at...Most of
them just as crazy as us. I'm not saying
your gona see one and boom its a
match...It takes alot of work. Sometimes
these people are the best to talk to.
Stay up and plz plz plz never hesitate to
post here...There are many good people.
