Undescrible Pain

Aww sorry no one got 2 you. Relax a little if you can and look at the situation. Shes far away so are you. Long distance relationships are alwasy hard...Period. Stand up for yourself...If shes going back to this guy when you have been good 2 her then whats the point?

All we can do for someone eles is be good to them, then let them decyde if they want to be good back to us. Its a super hard thing to do and realize but thats the way it goes.

The hardest but most healthy thing that she need to find out for herself who she wants. Give her space and let her find out because shes fighting the battle in her hed.

If you feel you want to get over her and move on (there are many many other people in this world....Even in az) then id suggest some isolation. This is just my piece of mind, I cant do the whole friends thing i'm 2 emotional hehe.

But yea it's alwasy hard going though a break up. Best thing to do is find out whats easiest on you. Will help you in the long run ^_^

stay up and fill free to post, theres alot of good minds in here.

I agree with color 100%. Give her the space and time and if she comes back, then you have to make the decision on whether you still want to make it work. You should try to occupy your time with constructive things, don't keep thinking about her, give yourself time to get over her.

Above all, keep your head held high, you've done nothing wrong and you sound like a very caring guy. There are so many people out there, meet some new friends and you might just find the love of your life along the way! Best of luck to you!

Thanks for the advice, since it just happened yesterday i'm still going through all the emtions and symtoms of heartbreak. Hopefully that clears in time. It's alot easier to say then do about not thinking about her, but I have to try, I understand this. I started my getting rid of all her pictures, deletiing her number so I wouldn't be tempted to text her. I'm going to block her on myspace and delete her email so I can not tempted to email her. I don't know her phone number by heart and already deleted that. I almost forgot, I have a bunch of cards too that I will trash tonight.

I guess I will try to advice everyone here suggested. Just agnore her. Try to put her in the pass and pretend it never existed. I'm not going to lie, I have never been so hurt or down in my life. I'm surprised I can even leave my room to go to work. I feel dead, my heart is destroyed. I can't eat, can't sleep, vomit, gagging, stomach aches ect.. It's not fun.

Any other advice anyone else has? I want this girl to regret doing this to me, I want her to want me back so I can laugh and tell her I will never ever be with her again.

First step in getting over someone is acceptance....Not revenge. Dont worry about forgetting it never happend because it did and its really messing you up...So it happend and you have to realize that. The way to get over heart break is to not forget it happend but understand its over.

Dont let this make you a mean person...Thats not 2 cool if you want her to want you back and then you just laugh at her? What if she did that to you right now? Again? Think about it man.

Its only been a couple of days so give it time...Hell it took me 6 months to get over my last relatioship and im sure others have it much worse

all in all dont let this make you a bad person...I really dont like hear you say you want her to want you back and then you laugh at her...Thats not nice.

If your gona be that way then maybe shes in the right for breaking up with you....I know your hurt man but the onlything that can heal this is time and understanding...Not pain and revenge.

Relationships are alwasy going to be the hardest thing we will ever have to deal with being human....So learn from this, watch yourself closley how you react to things and how you feel....


Be good man. ^_^

Thanks for the reply, i'm sure I don't really mean those terrible things I said i'm actually sure of it. It's just the anger coming out. We never had a single fight, and that right there is pretty awesome. Like you said the first step is understand and accepting that it's over.

Hopefully each day gets easier a little at a time. I'm sure I will always be there for her and be her knight in shining armor. I just feel so betrayed that's all. If there was something leading up to this I would understand. But it's hard when you do everything right and the girl says she loves you everyday all day then three days later it's gone. Makes me wonder if her love was ever real.

Here's my original thoughts that I made into a blog for those who want a little bit more of the story.

Dumped


i'm not going to lie, I tell people I don't care what others think. But it's a lie, I do. I hate people knowing about my business and when I am hurting.
And it's not my style to post my personal life on myspace. But I don't give a crap. I'm tired of shutting people out.

Today I woke up and texted my 'girlfriend' the past few days I could tell something was wrong by not getting phone calls or texts that something was up. I was right. She later broke it off with me. She blamed it on feelings for his ex boyfriend. The same clown who did to her what she did to me. It made me mad that she was trying to make me feel sorry for her. She's there crying, why? She's the one who did this to me. She's the one who decided to break my heart. I guess i'm the fool, i'm the person who thought that I could trust her, that when she told me she loved me that she really meant it. Well if you really love someone you don't start talking to your ex and then emailing me about it. Girls wonder why they are always getting hurt, it's because when they meet someone who is true to himself and to her and does everything right and perfect the girl ruins it.

I'm not really into getting my emotions out but I have no choice. I'm so full of anger, hate, sadness that I can't figure out which emotion is which.
I haven't been so hurt in my entire life. I took a chance, and with every chance there's either a postitive or negitive outcome. In my case I got betrayed. The promises we made to each other are caca now. The plans we made, the goals we made all caca now. We had a real love that I thought could move through anything. We saw pass the outter appearence to what was real, our hearts.

I treated this girl with so much love, I put her before me with every choice and was totally committed. I was faithful in mind, body and spirit. We made a bond to be together forever and ever. Obviously that isn't going to happen. I guess girls do like suckers, because when I look back on it, we never had one single fight, I was there for her through it all. I was there for her when she was going through every hardship. I'm the one who wiped her tears when her mom was giving her hell. I'm the one who made her feel like the most loved and beautiful girl alive every moment of everyday. I believe that faithfulness can overcome anything. I was so very faithful and got slammed for it.

I guess I will just have to take my own advice. Realize it's her loss, which I honestly do believe. I believe everything happens for a reason and that you don't know what you had until it's gone. I just have to let her go and move on with my life without looking back. I have this repitation of being a hard ass, gangsta. Well deep down when someone gets to know me they see i'm so much more. That's the only reason girls even fall for me to begin with.

Only time will heal my wounds and i'm sure if i'm lucky to find another girl who wants to be with me it will take alot for me to take another chance. I will just have to learn from my mistakes. If I had to do it again I wouldn't change a thing. I did everything in my power for this girl, I delt with so much drama and heartache that I can't even post here because it's that personal. I delt with her mom harrassing me at work and at home and yet I stayed with this girl. What a crock of caca. I should have just took her moms advice and stayed away. I would have saved myself a whole lot of heartache and pain.

I don't know what else to say, I guess this will help me let go a little bit. But everyone who has been in a real relationship with true feelings and real love knows it will take a lot of time and work to move on. But with all the crap I have been through the pass few months with being sick and having so much wrong with me, I believe I can overcome anything. Thanks to my true friends who actually care about me and my family for being so supportive.

It's just funny how even though i'm the one who got hurt and i'm the one carrying around a broken heart I still feel as if this is my fault. I ask the common questions of what could I have done better? What did I do wrong?
Ect. But then I stop and think, I close my eyes and realize I couldn't have done anything better because I did everything the best I could.

I believe 100% without a doubt that no other man in the entire world could have treated this girl the way I did. Love her the way I loved her, make her feel the way I made her feel. I truely believe that. I put her ahead of me and always would have. I would have dedicated my own life to her happiness. I would have lived just to see her smile and feel like the most beautiful and loved girl ever. That was a promise I made to her and I never ever was going to break it.

My biggest mistake was not taking the advice from a good friend. She warned me when I first started talking to this girl that I would get hurt. Maybe I was naive and stubborn, but my single regret is not taking her advice. I would have saved myself the constant stomache aches, the vomiting and queeziness, the lack of appetite and most of all the heart ache and pain that will be with me for the rest of my life.

I'm not the kind of person who wishes anything bad on anyone, i'm actually a very forgiving person, to forgiving sometimes. And I know deep down I don't really feel like this but I hope what goes around comes around. I hope the guy she thinks is worth losing me for breaks her heart again. The same way she broke mine, again. There relationship will never make it and it's doomed. I just have this feeling in my gut that she's going to get hurt and it doesn't do anything but make me happy knowing that. Again, I know deep down inside my heart, some where hidden from the world I really don't mean that but right now I am so hurt that I don't care.

I just don't know how someone could live with themselves after doing what she did to me. I know I couldn't and I wouldn't no matter what. Promises were made, vows were said and heard and i'm the type of person who follows through with what I promise and say.

Hopefully this whole situation will bring me closer to my friends and family that I take for granted everyday. The ones who get me through the first night of pain with kind words and prayors. I don't say it enough but I love all you very much.

Here's my original thoughts that I made into a blog for those who want a little bit more of the story.

Dumped


i'm not going to lie, I tell people I don't care what others think. But it's a lie, I do. I hate people knowing about my business and when I am hurting.
And it's not my style to post my personal life on myspace. But I don't give a crap. I'm tired of shutting people out.

Today I woke up and texted my 'girlfriend' the past few days I could tell something was wrong by not getting phone calls or texts that something was up. I was right. She later broke it off with me. She blamed it on feelings for his ex boyfriend. The same clown who did to her what she did to me. It made me mad that she was trying to make me feel sorry for her. She's there crying, why? She's the one who did this to me. She's the one who decided to break my heart. I guess i'm the fool, i'm the person who thought that I could trust her, that when she told me she loved me that she really meant it. Well if you really love someone you don't start talking to your ex and then emailing me about it. Girls wonder why they are always getting hurt, it's because when they meet someone who is true to himself and to her and does everything right and perfect the girl ruins it.

I'm not really into getting my emotions out but I have no choice. I'm so full of anger, hate, sadness that I can't figure out which emotion is which.
I haven't been so hurt in my entire life. I took a chance, and with every chance there's either a postitive or negitive outcome. In my case I got betrayed. The promises we made to each other are caca now. The plans we made, the goals we made all caca now. We had a real love that I thought could move through anything. We saw pass the outter appearence to what was real, our hearts.

I treated this girl with so much love, I put her before me with every choice and was totally committed. I was faithful in mind, body and spirit. We made a bond to be together forever and ever. Obviously that isn't going to happen. I guess girls do like suckers, because when I look back on it, we never had one single fight, I was there for her through it all. I was there for her when she was going through every hardship. I'm the one who wiped her tears when her mom was giving her hell. I'm the one who made her feel like the most loved and beautiful girl alive every moment of everyday. I believe that faithfulness can overcome anything. I was so very faithful and got slammed for it.

I guess I will just have to take my own advice. Realize it's her loss, which I honestly do believe. I believe everything happens for a reason and that you don't know what you had until it's gone. I just have to let her go and move on with my life without looking back. I have this repitation of being a hard ass, gangsta. Well deep down when someone gets to know me they see i'm so much more. That's the only reason girls even fall for me to begin with.

Only time will heal my wounds and i'm sure if i'm lucky to find another girl who wants to be with me it will take alot for me to take another chance. I will just have to learn from my mistakes. If I had to do it again I wouldn't change a thing. I did everything in my power for this girl, I delt with so much drama and heartache that I can't even post here because it's that personal. I delt with her mom harrassing me at work and at home and yet I stayed with this girl. What a crock of caca. I should have just took her moms advice and stayed away. I would have saved myself a whole lot of heartache and pain.

I don't know what else to say, I guess this will help me let go a little bit. But everyone who has been in a real relationship with true feelings and real love knows it will take a lot of time and work to move on. But with all the crap I have been through the pass few months with being sick and having so much wrong with me, I believe I can overcome anything. Thanks to my true friends who actually care about me and my family for being so supportive.

It's just funny how even though i'm the one who got hurt and i'm the one carrying around a broken heart I still feel as if this is my fault. I ask the common questions of what could I have done better? What did I do wrong?
Ect. But then I stop and think, I close my eyes and realize I couldn't have done anything better because I did everything the best I could.

I believe 100% without a doubt that no other man in the entire world could have treated this girl the way I did. Love her the way I loved her, make her feel the way I made her feel. I truely believe that. I put her ahead of me and always would have. I would have dedicated my own life to her happiness. I would have lived just to see her smile and feel like the most beautiful and loved girl ever. That was a promise I made to her and I never ever was going to break it.

My biggest mistake was not taking the advice from a good friend. She warned me when I first started talking to this girl that I would get hurt. Maybe I was naive and stubborn, but my single regret is not taking her advice. I would have saved myself the constant stomache aches, the vomiting and queeziness, the lack of appetite and most of all the heart ache and pain that will be with me for the rest of my life.

I'm not the kind of person who wishes anything bad on anyone, i'm actually a very forgiving person, to forgiving sometimes. And I know deep down I don't really feel like this but I hope what goes around comes around. I hope the guy she thinks is worth losing me for breaks her heart again. The same way she broke mine, again. There relationship will never make it and it's doomed. I just have this feeling in my gut that she's going to get hurt and it doesn't do anything but make me happy knowing that. Again, I know deep down inside my heart, some where hidden from the world I really don't mean that but right now I am so hurt that I don't care.

I just don't know how someone could live with themselves after doing what she did to me. I know I couldn't and I wouldn't no matter what. Promises were made, vows were said and heard and i'm the type of person who follows through with what I promise and say.

Hopefully this whole situation will bring me closer to my friends and family that I take for granted everyday. The ones who get me through the first night of pain with kind words and prayors. I don't say it enough but I love all you very much.

I'm gona print your blog and read it throught my day at work if thats ok with you... I will wait for your permission...I have a super busy day today ^_^

You can read it, that would be great.

Wow you have a gift for writing and keeping it together. About 2 paragraphs for me of an emotional journal and it sounds like a pissed off cat.

You seem like a really cool human...Never let someone break your heart. Start learning from this that there needs to be protection and care for yourself before giving someone that much again.

I know its hard, ive alwasy been the "nice" guy and i've awlasy ended up getting skrewd. Well i'm still a "nice" guy but im much more solid inside now...Not such a push over. I know I gota keep doing what I do regardless who im with. There has to be compromises but you still gota have your backbone.

I really enjoyed reading this...Thanks for posting it up im sure everone appreciates it. Untill then take it easy and hope things mellow out ^_^

It's been a few days and i'm still hurting, but I will admit it's slowly, slowly, slowly getting better. I started hanging out with a friend and her baby to help keep my mind occupied.

I'm still lost with being able to still be this girls friend or just push her away, right now i'm just taking it day by day. We did talk last night on the phone and it was really special, just talking about different things it was really sweet. I did feel those same things again and woke up this morning hurting, but I really just want to take it day by day and not force anything on this girl that's not real. You can't make someone fall in love with you. I finally realize that.

I told her all this today went I sent her a message, I just told her I wanted to take it day by day. She seemed to understand, she said her heart belongs to no one right now and that her and her ex are just talking. She said she still cares about me and thinks about me and looks at my old emails and messengers and pictures. That did make me feel good, even if we never work out I really just want to be in her heart forever.

I want her to know i'm with her always, even though the pain and sadness of everyday life. That i'm always just a phone call away and will always be her knight and shining armor.

Right now i'm just going to be me, I can't and won't change who I am and what I say.

My question is, since we already have a long distance relationship, if I continue to talk to her even as just a friend how can I spice things up? What I mean is I want to make it interesting, I don't just want to be a friend that she talks to because she wants to. I want to be unique and special someone that when she says is a friend she stops and thinks that i'm something more.

So how could I spice things up in the matter of making our friendship more interesting, adding some excitment, mystery, make her always think of me.

Whats up shadowless. Well thats good that your taking things day by day...Its hard to do but if done can heal many wounds.

As for spicing up the relationship...If shes still talking to her ex why make another attempt at her? For all you know she could be back with him right?

I mean the best thing to do is wait it out and see if she loses him...You dont wana be in the middle of a battle with this girl, let her figure her feelings out because you already know yours.