In feb this year I began to get obesessed
with my weight(acturally,that s stupid,coz
I m not that fat even at that time)just
becoz my friend told me I would look more
beautiful if thinner...Then I just
controled the food I took in
severely,often ate very little food a
whole day...After three months I lost
almost 10 kilograms, but there are
problems
emerged,hairlost,insomnia,stomachach,and
the worst effect of dieting is
bullimia...Which is really horrible...I
thought maybe it would be better as the
time past,but it just got worse...Which
makes my life hell...
Acturally I m not self induced,i threw up
natually,i know this s kindof
esophagitis,but it definitely give me
reason to indulge myself ...But now I m
about to leave home and go to foreign
country to study,i m really scared~i want
to get rid of it.Desperately....But I care
what other peoples saying still,i dont
want to gain weight!~~~~~~~~~any one can
help me??????Thanksthankthanks!!
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Re: I M New,i Need Help.... Posted: 02-07-07 06:48am
Hi.
First of all, welcome to the forum. I'm
glad to hear from you and to have you
around.
winniehe
wrote:
in feb this year I began to
get obesessed with my
weight(acturally,that s stupid,coz I m not
that fat even at that time)just becoz my
friend told me I would look more beautiful
if thinner...Then I just controled the
food I took in severely,often ate very
little food a whole day...After three
months I lost almost 10 kilograms, but
there are problems
emerged
i'm on and off bulimia too. I just wish
it has never started anyway, because it's
so hard to get out of it.
It began with a comment for you... You
took it seriously and you've already
achieved what it meant, though you are the
first one to admit that you didn't need to
lose weight.
If you didn't need to lose weight then,
now you certainly do not need it as well.
In fact, you may be even needing to put
some weight on, depending on how much you
weight and so on.
winniehe
wrote:
but now I m about to leave
home and go to foreign country to study,i
m really scared~i want to get rid of
it.Desperately....But I care what other
peoples saying still,i dont want to gain
weight!
erasmus student?
Try to focus on some things other than
food and weight. Try to think about
interesting things to do. Go out with
your friends to places where you can't eat
and go for a walk; you'll feel better.
The first thing to do is to avoid throwing
up as much as you can; really.
Good luck, write us back and let us know
how you are doing.
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winniehe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Feb 2007 Posts: 7 Location: orient
Posted: 02-07-07 21:40pm
Thanks soooooooooooooo much!!
I m in a horrible sprial and cant walk
away from it now,i darent tell anyone
around me,including my parents,they are
glad to see me eating a lot coz they
think I m too thin(i m 160cm high,85.5
pounds),i cant imagine how sad they ll be
if they know what I m paying for it ...I
feel guilty...I told myself this is the
last time binge,but next time I would do
the same thing,say same words to
myself...So I m losing faith in getting
over it gradually,,,i m being a
monster...Living like a walking
corpse....
I know what the root problem is:vanity.I
crave praise.In my school there are so
many beaufiful girls and they all looked
skinny.I would happy when I heared someone
said to me that I looked good and thin
from the beginging,but now I feel saritic
and anxious when I heared that,and I know
another important reason for my mental
illness is I can throw up
easily,painlessly,so I just indulge myself
in eating,it was kindof an addiction...
I m about to go to australia this may,so I
jut got nothing to do during jan to
may...Bullima almost changed my
personality,i dont like to go out and stay
with my friends anymore...
Thank you for your advice and reply,i
think you must be the one who can
understand me indeed,i m nearly crazy for
keeping it only to myself from july last
year to now...
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Posted: 02-08-07 14:54pm
winniehe
wrote:
i m in a horrible sprial and
cant walk away from it now,i darent tell
anyone around me,including my parents,they
are glad to see me eating a lot coz they
think I m too thin(i m 160cm high,85.5
pounds)
i know what it's like, because i'm on the
same way now, as i've been for a long
time.
But you really are skinny... Your weight
is way below what it should be. I'm your
height exactly and I weight 54kg which is higher
than what i'd love to weight (at maximum
51 kgs), but still doctors have told me it
is a good, normal weight.
Maybe you should try to understand this...
If it's good for me, it's good for you as
well...
I can't imagine myself telling such a
thing to my parents, not because how sad
they would be, but because I don't want to
be hit by them nor to have them yelling at
me and calling me names even more
oftenly.
You must never lose faith in recovery. If
you came you, you're seeking recovery!
winniehe
wrote:
i know what the root problem
is:vanity.I crave praise.In my school
there are so many beaufiful girls and they
all looked skinny.I would happy when I
heared someone said to me that I looked
good and thin from the beginging,but now I
feel saritic and anxious when I heared
that
you can change those habits and
addictions, you can go out again and be
with your friends, you can be happy again
and not feeling guilty. You can. Seek
help near a close friend you really trust
or a doctor. You can die if you don't do
it quickly.
I hope to hearing news from you soon. If
you need anything, you can also send me a
private message.
Be strong
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winniehe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Feb 2007 Posts: 7 Location: orient
Posted: 02-08-07 22:57pm
v00d00cita
wrote:
winniehe
wrote:
i m in a horrible sprial and
cant walk away from it now,i darent tell
anyone around me,including my parents,they
are glad to see me eating a lot coz they
think I m too thin(i m 160cm high,85.5
pounds)
i know what it's like, because i'm on the
same way now, as i've been for a long
time.
But you really are skinny... Your
weight is way below what it should be.
I'm your height exactly and I weight 54kg
which is higher
than what i'd love to weight (at maximum
51 kgs), but still doctors have told me it
is a good, normal weight.
Maybe you should try to understand this...
If it's good for me, it's good for
you as well...
I can't imagine myself telling such a
thing to my parents, not because how sad
they would be, but because I don't want to
be hit by them nor to have them yelling at
me and calling me names even more
oftenly.
You must never lose faith in recovery.
If you came you, you're seeking
recovery!
winniehe
wrote:
i know what the root problem
is:vanity.I crave praise.In my school
there are so many beaufiful girls and they
all looked skinny.I would happy when I
heared someone said to me that I looked
good and thin from the beginging,but now I
feel saritic and anxious when I heared
that
you can change those habits and
addictions, you can go out again and be
with your friends, you can be happy again
and not feeling guilty. You can.
Seek help near a close friend you really
trust or a doctor. You can die if you
don't do it quickly.
I hope to hearing news from you soon.
If you need anything, you can also send me
a private message.
Be strong
give you a hug!!Thank you~~~~~~~
i think its totally a mental problem,i
want food even I ve been full already.I
used to starve myself extremely,and I
remember clearly I always got my cloth
covered my eyes whenever I saw my roomates
eating,it was so torturing,and such
feeling just haunted me still,i always
lose control of myself and overeat when I
started to eat,its hard for me to stop
when I m eating ,the food is the only
thing in my head at that time,but soon I
recongnized that I had overate and such
large amount of food would make me get
fat,then the strong feeling of guilty just
drives me to make myself vomit....
For a long time,i couldnot recongnize who
the girl is when I looked myself into
mirrow,i usually wondered why I m still
alive...
Yesterday,i just took your advice and
tried to do some housework in order to
distract my attention,and at night,i asked
my friends out,,,,,the good news is ,i
only threw up once yesterday (often three
or more),was that a good start???And,,the
depressing new is ,i found I got nothing
to talk to my friends when sitting around
,it was a little bit ambarrassed......
I said I lost faith in overcoming it
yesterday,but still I want to recover,your
advice is really helpful ,at least I m
changing my attitude toward my illness
.....Thanks....Again~~~~~
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Posted: 02-09-07 10:00am
winniehe
wrote:
i think its totally a mental
problem,i want food even I ve been full
already.
i know what that is... I'm just like
that... I can't stop eating. I eat even
when i'm more than full, I eat things when
I feel sick or nauseous, I eat things I
know I mustn't eat...
I went back to thrpwing up again this
week. Iknow it's not good news, but
that's what's happening to me now.
Please, stay away from this...
winniehe
wrote:
yesterday,i just took your
advice and tried to do some housework in
order to distract my attention,and at
night,i asked my friends out,,,,,the good
news is ,i only threw up once yesterday
(often three or more),was that a good
start???And,,the depressing new is ,i
found I got nothing to talk to my friends
when sitting
around
i'm very glad for you. That may have been
uncomfortable for the first time, but it
will get better, I can assure you. Do
that more often, go out, go to the movies,
do something together with your friends.
Good luck, write back *hug*
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winniehe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Feb 2007 Posts: 7 Location: orient
Posted: 02-09-07 20:19pm
[quote=i know what that is... I'm just
like that... I can't stop eating. I
eat even when i'm more than full, I eat
things when I feel sick or nauseous, I eat
things I know I mustn't eat...
I went back to thrpwing up again this
week. Iknow it's not good news, but
that's what's happening to me now.
Please, stay away from this...
I'm very glad for you. That may have
been uncomfortable for the first time, but
it will get better, I can assure you.
Do that more often, go out, go to the
movies, do something together with your
friends.
Good luck, write back *hug*[/quote]
why did you go back to throw up again??Are
you stressed??Or you just feel unhappy??I
know my problem is my inhibition of
appetite before,and ,,,whats
yours??Figuring out the root problem may
help you to get over it? One way is very
effective to me,watching comedy or
horrible movie,which is fast-moved and
get you immerged into the story ,then you
just have no time to think about anything
else...Maybe you can have a try? just as you told me
,never losing faith in recovering,we shoud
stay strong!!The reason that I donot want
to see doc is I think only the one who
really experienced what I m going through
can offer help indeed.
I know it may very hard to take the first
step of changing the bad habits formed in
nearly half a year,but I have my family
around me now,they love me so much,i donot
want to let them down,it would be
dangerous for me to go abroad alone if I
cannot stop living like this...So ,i ll
try my best to fight againest it,and so
you are ,please,,,,,,
yesterday I threw up twice...And I
suffered a severe stomach pains,,,,i cried
last night...And also I got nightmares,,,
i reall do hope that it ll be better
tomorrow..
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Posted: 02-10-07 19:08pm
winniehe
wrote:
why did you go back to throw
up again??Are you stressed??Or you just
feel
unhappy??
i'm a little stressed because of eating
this sounds strange, but it's this.. I'm
a lot at home now, so it seems that i'm
always eating. Besides, i've got alot of
work to do and it seems neverending and
that the results aren't that good. :s
where are you from and what's your name,
sweetie? I hope you cna get help here,
even if it's just talking to people who
really understand you and your issue...
winniehe
wrote:
yesterday I threw up
twice...And I suffered a severe stomach
pains,,,,i cried last night...And also I
got nightmares,,,
i reall do hope that it ll be better
tomorrow..
tomorrow will be a better day, right?
*hug* keep trying, don't give up!
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winniehe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Feb 2007 Posts: 7 Location: orient
Posted: 02-11-07 02:42am
v00d00cita
wrote:
winniehe
wrote:
why did you go back to throw
up again??Are you stressed??Or you just
feel
unhappy??
i'm a little stressed because of eating
this sounds strange, but it's this..
I'm a lot at home now, so it seems that
i'm always eating. Besides, i've got
alot of work to do and it seems
neverending and that the results aren't
that good. :s
where are you from and what's your name,
sweetie? I hope you cna get help here,
even if it's just talking to people who
really understand you and your issue...
winniehe
wrote:
yesterday I threw up
twice...And I suffered a severe stomach
pains,,,,i cried last night...And also I
got nightmares,,,
i reall do hope that it ll be better
tomorrow..
tomorrow will be a better day, right?
*hug* keep trying, don't give
up!
i feel definitely better after I talked to
you here,at least I know I was not
alone,you know,theres no people like me
around in my life,,,,,and I cant tell
anybody about this...My parents told me
the only thing they wanted me to do is to
make myself happy and healthy,i ....I
always tell them that I m fine,,,,i m a
liar...
I understand whats your feeling alike,coz
I m staying at home too and the only thing
I should do is to wait for my visa
now,until may...I m not stressed
,upset,unhappy,or frustrated,but I want to
eat all the time....God,its crazy~~~
we all need to get something to do ,,,,,
yesterday I threw up twice,,,i wanted to
binge at last night intensely,but my ex bf
called me and told me he got
engaged...Which made me mad very much,then
I had no time to think about the food
anymore,,,when I realized that I just
laughed out,,,,,,, dramatically,
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Posted: 02-11-07 17:29pm
winniehe
wrote:
i feel definitely better
after I talked to you here,at least I know
I was not alone,you know,theres no people
like me around in my life,,,,,and I cant
tell anybody about this...My parents told
me the only thing they wanted me to do is
to make myself happy and healthy (...)
i understand whats your feeling alike,coz
I m staying at home too and the only thing
I should do is to wait for my visa
now,until may...I m not stressed
,upset,unhappy,or frustrated,but I want to
eat all the time... (...) yesterday I
threw up twice,,,i wanted to binge at last
night intensely,but my ex bf called me and
told me he got engaged...Which made me mad
very much,then I had no time to think
about the food anymore,,,when I realized
that I just laughed out,,,,,,,
dramatically,
i'm happy for you ^_^ he could give you
more of those news more often ^_^
i love talking to you and trying to help
you, because you help me as well. It's
like this, here at the forum: you both get
help and help another person or other
people!
You keep improving, ok? Someday you'll be
okay, I believe in you!
take care of yourself.!
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winniehe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Feb 2007 Posts: 7 Location: orient
Posted: 02-11-07 23:05pm
v00d00cita
wrote:
winniehe
wrote:
i feel definitely better
after I talked to you here,at least I know
I was not alone,you know,theres no people
like me around in my life,,,,,and I cant
tell anybody about this...My parents told
me the only thing they wanted me to do is
to make myself happy and healthy (...)
i understand whats your feeling alike,coz
I m staying at home too and the only thing
I should do is to wait for my visa
now,until may...I m not stressed
,upset,unhappy,or frustrated,but I want to
eat all the time... (...) yesterday I
threw up twice,,,i wanted to binge at last
night intensely,but my ex bf called me and
told me he got engaged...Which made me mad
very much,then I had no time to think
about the food anymore,,,when I realized
that I just laughed out,,,,,,,
dramatically,
i'm happy for you ^_^ he could give you
more of those news more often ^_^
i love talking to you and trying to help
you, because you help me as well. It's
like this, here at the forum: you both get
help and help another person or other
people!
You keep improving, ok? Someday you'll
be okay, I believe in you!
take care of
yourself.!
ya,thats a good way
for me I guess :d :d :d :d
but yesterday I m a little out of the
control,coz my sister cooked wonton for
me,which is really delicious,...I did not
stop eating until I saw my parents looking
at me worriedly,,,,,they did not say
anything for fear of hurting my
feeling,but I know they got something to
say...
At last night,my father and I have a
conversation,and he told me he can let me
live a very comfortable life even I dont
work,and they wont let me leave home if
they found I m unhealthy...
....Today ,until now,i m good,,,i ll keep
trying,,,,
which is higher
than what i'd love to weight (at maximum
51 kgs), but still doctors have told me it
is a good, normal weight.
just as you told me
,never losing faith in recovering,we shoud
stay strong!!The reason that I donot want
to see doc is I think only the one who
really experienced what I m going through
can offer help indeed.
this sounds strange, but it's this.. I'm
a lot at home now, so it seems that i'm
always eating. Besides, i've got alot of
work to do and it seems neverending and
that the results aren't that good. :s
^_^
