Joined: 20 Jul 2006 Posts: 3 Location: Greensburg, PA
Strange Thoughts Posted: 02-07-07 13:58pm
I am wondering if this is normal or should
I speak with my pcp. I am on cleixa
40mg once daily, and my life right now is
very stressful. Lately I have been
having thoughts about what it would feel
like to shot myself in the head and the
relief that would come by doing so. The
strange part of this is when I think about
this the placement of the gun would be at
different areas of my head, and the amount
of relief that would come by the placement
is different. Now I have no intention
of killing myself but why am I having
these thoughts?
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jan 2007 Posts: 171 Location: Long Beach, Ca
Posted: 02-07-07 15:01pm
U answerd your own question.
You are having these thoughts becase your
life is stressfull.
If your situational stress wasnt as
hard..Youd have more time to enjoy life
and you wouldnt spend so much time in your
head. These are basic rules especially
for someone with depression/bipolar.
Also the though of death being a release
of all this pressure and pain isint
correct. First we dont know what happens
after death..For all we know everyone
could go to some sort of hell lol.
I know how you feel though that thought of
instant release...Just like flipping a
switch. But its not true...The best and
most satisfying way to get the feeling of
happyness and relaxation is to earn
it...Fight for it.
Get your feet on the ground, sort out the
things that are making you so stressed.
Speak with a psychologist if you arnt
already...And if you dont really find any
release in talking to that psycholosits
find a new one.
Many people dont undersatnd how awsome it
is to find a psychologist that you can
call a best friend...It takes time and
trial and error which is stressfull on its
own but in the end its amazing.
Also I wouldnt call them strange
thoughts...We all have them from time to
time.
Ill share one of my fantasies.
I used to wish that I could jump off a
building with a camera. As I was falling
to my death I woudl take pictures of
mysefl to show the world how relaxed and
at peace I was before I died. Hopefully
the camera would still hold its film
afterwards.
Then I got to thinking....Yea I would be
peacefull...But then my body would be very
unpleasing splaterd all over the
pavement...I dont wana die like that.
Just a though ^_^
stay up and post post post on here at your
heats content...There are many great
people on these forums.
