Living the Crash... (a Recovering Coke Addict) Posted: 02-09-07 00:55am
I'm a recovering coke addict.
I am a second year college student who has
been a frequent substance abuser since 8th
grade. I started smoking weed and
blowing coke my second year of high
school. By graduation I was doing a ball
a day and smoking every day.
I stopped coke for three months, in part
due to my parents intervention, but began
using again at college. While it was a
much smaller amount, only a gram every few
weeks, it quickly built up again. This
year I have used basically every day, and
this is my second attempt to stop.
I am attending aa meetings (na does not
have any near me) and have began seeing a
counsler. My friends know I am quitting
and are doing everything they can to
help.
It's been hard, but i'm making it. The
hardest part right now is dealing with
those sporatic cravings. I'll be
perfectly fine, then suddenly doing a line
is the only thing I can think about and
i'll do anything to get one. I haven't
surrcumb to these cravings, but does
anyone have any advice to help deal with
them?
I'm also worried about the next time I am
exposed to coke. I'm a full time student
at a college where cocaine is a very
common drug. While my friends have kept
it away, undoubtly it will show up
somewhere unexpected. Any suggestions on
how to handle this?
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matt182
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Feb 2007 Posts: 93 Location: Australia
Posted: 02-09-07 02:23am
Just keep up the good work mahn..
Find something else that you can replace
these urges, something you like, like
soccer for example.
Quiting is hard, but not quitting is
harder.
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shadowalker164
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jan 2005 Posts: 175 Location: Tampa, FL
Posted: 02-09-07 11:48am
Self, you mentioned you were going to aa.
Did you get a sponsor? And have you
started the steps?
Those cravings are a part of us, just like
the color of our eyes are a part of us.
They are a part of us like our skin. And
they are a very powerful part of us to
boot. And they are very hard to tell no.
That is why we talk about enlisting a
power greater than ourselves to help us
when the desire to use or drink seems to
override our sanity.
I have made an informal survey of the
people who went back out after getting a
bit of clean time/sobriety under their
belt. I ask them if they had asked god
for help the morning they decided using
again was a good idea. And I haven’t
found one of these guys who did. Not
one.
Selfillusion… keep doing what you are
doing, keep going to meetings, get or use
a sponsor, work the steps like your life
depends on it, and if you lay your head
down tonight clean and sober, tell god
thank you. Tell god out loud, it seems
more powerful that way.
It’s a simple program for complicated
people.
Richard
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matt182
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Feb 2007 Posts: 93 Location: Australia
Posted: 02-10-07 17:19pm
Sorry these specific cravings are not
apart of us. Sure theres a natural
response to want food, sex, etc, this is
internalised as a way to keep the species
alive.
These cravings his experiencing is self
induced, he craves it because the body, in
particular the brain, cannot produce the
same amount of chemicals it did when on
the drug. However over time this shoudl
diminish and the craving go away.
