Hi! I don't know how old you are or what
your situation is or anything but you
definitely need to tell someone about your
bulimia- a parent, a friend, a
teacher....Someone who will understand and
help you find treatment. It's a
wonderful, wonderful thing that you
recognize your disorder and want to help
yourself, and you should definitely give
yourself a pat on the back for that one.
I, too, was bulimic, as well as anorexic
at another point. I have a long, hard
history with eating disorders in general.
A couple years ago, I was like you, trying
for as long as I could to resist "bad
foods", essentially starving myself, and
then completely let myself go for a couple
of days, eating anything and everything I
could get my hands on- namely sweet,
refined flour-laden foods like the cookies
and cakes that you mentioned. I couldn't
control it. It was a cycle that just went
on and on and on no matter how much I
wanted it to stop. After suffering like
this for a few months, I found out that I
was "sugar sensitive", meaning that my
biochemistry was such that I had an actual
addiction to sugar. Thankfully there is a
woman named kathleen desmaisons who has
thouroughly researched this condition and
has come up with an eating/lifestyle plan
to effectively heal this type of
biochemistry. I have been doing it for
almost two years now and have been
completely binge/purge free. I urge you
to go to her site,
http://www.Radiantrecovery.Com and poke around a bit. There are
numerous forums there for all types of
sugar sensitive people where you can seek
help. In fact, there is one specifically
for bulimics. You can also find one of
her books at almost any library/bookstore
if you'd like to learn more about this.
Hopefully you are like me and your bulimia
has stemmed from sugar sensitivity. But
if you go to the site and it doesn't sound
like it's talking to you, perhaps more
conventional methods of treating bulimia
will help. I wish you luck either way
-jaqui
ps: if you have any more questions about
radiant recovery, feel free to email me at
jaqui
heather@yahoo.Com
