Relationships, Honesty, College Life And the Like.

Hey guys-

part 1:i am an 18 year old college student in a committed relationship with a young woman whom I love deeply. She is still in high school, and I am obviously a freshman in college. She has made a commitment to me that we will have sex by the end of the year. Heres the kicker....I dont think I can wait that long. At this point, my birthday (in may) is waaaay too long. This isnt something I think about all day every day, but every time I talk to her, I feel like im being treated immensely unfairly.

Part 2: I go to college in a small central wi town, where the ratio is girls to guys as almost 2:1. I am a virgin, but I find it harder basically every day to stop myself from beginning a purely sexual relationship with a girl here. The worst part is, I really want to give my virginity to my girlfriend, since as an immensely sexually aware person, it is, I feel, one of the greatest gifts I could ever give her.

Part 3:the reason we hanvet already had sex, is because my girlfriend doesnt feel "ready". I can respect that of course, but as an athiest, I cant help but feel that if she was less religious she wouldnt feel bad about taking my virginity. (shes a virgin too, but I see it as my giving because its immensely important to me.) the reson I think that is because she says that when she is with me, she feels ready, but after I go back to collegem she doesnt feel ready, and knows that if she did have sex with me, she would regret it.

Conclusion: I feel so utterly and completely messed...Not literally of course. What can I do? Am I doomed to what will seem like a torturous eternity of celibacy? Auuugh!