I am 12 weeks along and so far, it's been nothing but emotional freaking stress for me. I know that .I can come on here and type away knowing someone will reply back because .I have gone through a lot. I thought that being pregnant, .I'd have a better life and start new. Well, no! My fiance yells at me over the gayest things and he knows how emotional .I get so .I start to feel upset and take my anger out on him and we go through a lot of physical abuse. There are times where .I just want to say .F.*.C.K .Y.O.U. have a nice life. Because it seems like he doesn't care about nothing but himself. But that's most guys, right? I'm trying to look for a job. I had an interview yesterday and .I failed a stupid math quiz so .I didn't get the job. I've looked in papers for jobs, nothing. So, all .I do is sit here all by myself while .Nick (my fiance) is a work. I am sorry for writing a lot but honestly, .I can't talk to him about this because guys don't ever want to listen. And .I know my girls will make me feel better, right? I know there are a lot of girls who leave their husbands/boyfriends all the time because they don't treat them right, but .I really want .Nick to be a part of this baby's life and mine. I can't do anything about nothing because right when he gets home he's plssed off at something and takes it out on me. Wth? Were trying to look for an apartment, we found one for $536 plus first, last and security so we need to save up about $1500. It's so hard living out on your own and .I am only 18 years old. I wish .Nick would be more supportive but .I know that coming on to this forum will help me because my girls will make me happier. Thanks for reading this. I hope to get a reply. I really need someone.

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