well....i just cant understand what s
going on with me...I feel that i m sick
and i m going to die soon...and i run
tests-all clear so far. I visit doctors
almost every week. I feel weak and dizzy.
I went to a psychiatrist and he proposed
Prozac and Xazax and psychotherapy. I
started all these 2 weeks ago. I feel more
relaxed about the fact that i m going to
die as a result of a serious illness, but
then i feel suicidal and i m planning how
i m going to end my life.
I m 23 years old. I m studying medicine. I
never had a sexual relation ship. Maybe
that s part of the problem.
The worst is that i cut badly last
night...I dont do that very often, but i
started when i was 17. I use blades not to
cut deeply though. I just want to feel
pain and see all that blood to feel calm
again. Then i feel terrible. I threw away
all the blades i had. I just want to cover
my body with scars. I feel so ashamed. How
am i going to hide these marks now? Any
ideas?
i need help, but i dont know if i ever
feel whole, happy and loved....
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cece7
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Feb 2007 Posts: 134
Posted: 02-22-07 22:13pm
See if you can find a shrink who uses
cognitive therapy. You don't get to vent
as much as traditional therapy but you
learn exercises that help you get over
your anxiety and depression by treating
the root cause which is many common
thinking errors. Learn to use the tea form
exercise which is really basic and good
from a cbt book like the ones by sam obitz
and michelle craske.
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AbsentMinded20
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Feb 2007 Posts: 24 Location: Canada
Posted: 02-24-07 17:09pm
man, you sound a little like me, except
for the cuttung part.
What kind of thinking errors... Explain
please...???
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vassiliki
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Dec 2006 Posts: 14
Posted: 02-24-07 18:43pm
AbsentMinded20
wrote:
man, you sound a little like
me, except for the cuttung part.
What kind of thinking errors... Explain
please...???
firstly, i m a woman
oh, well...i dont know. the wrorst part is
the hypohondriac one. i see all these
woody allen movies and i feel
relaxed-there are many ppl (even famous
ppl) who feel anxious that they are going
to die soon, or that they are ill. this
day, the whole day i feel pain down in my
belly and i keep thinking "should i go to
the hospital...or not?"...it feels like
crap. but then when i dont have physical
pain i m depressed and i want to
die....what is going on with my head i
have no idea.
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cece7
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Feb 2007 Posts: 134
Posted: 02-25-07 22:08pm
vassiliki
wrote:
AbsentMinded20
wrote:
man, you sound a little like
me, except for the cuttung part.
What kind of thinking errors... Explain
please...???
firstly, i m a woman
oh, well...i dont know. the wrorst part is
the hypohondriac one. i see all these
woody allen movies and i feel
relaxed-there are many ppl (even famous
ppl) who feel anxious that they are going
to die soon, or that they are ill. this
day, the whole day i feel pain down in my
belly and i keep thinking "should i go to
the hospital...or not?"...it feels like
crap. but then when i dont have physical
pain i m depressed and i want to
die....what is going on with my head i
have no idea.
I'm a girl too I honestly believe
it is the way you are processing your
thoughts that is making you feel so
miserable. Try to learn how to counter
your thoughts in a tea form and join a cbt
group and I think you will feel much
better soon.
I honestly believe
it is the way you are processing your
thoughts that is making you feel so
miserable. Try to learn how to counter
your thoughts in a tea form and join a cbt
group and I think you will feel much
better soon.